The creation of Seren

[LifeInside]

I love reading your updates man! They are really sweet! <3

 

Thank you very much for keeping up and being so nice, man! We appreciate it a lot. S2

[LifeInside]

June 12, 2016.

 

Hello guys!

 

Good news here: yesterday, after a very long time, we had an active forcing session! Yeah, I know having one is not a big deal, but since we hadn't had one for three or four months, I'd say it becomes more important.

 

It was very similar to the ones we had in the beginning: mostly visualization and narration, with some nature sounds in the background (for example, ocean waves if we're sitting in the beach).

 

The session lasted 45 minutes, more or less. And I'd like to keep doing them, since I find them really peaceful and just love hanging out with Seren.

The last minutes consisted of us floating on the sea (you know, we had inflatable pool floats) and holding hands while I still narrated a little bit more.

 

 

On the other hand

This has been happening for some time already, but for some reason I hadn't thought of posting it here until today.

The thing is: apparently, as time goes by, Seren's emotions reach me more and more. I'm saying this because I've noticed that, frequently, when I watch or listen to some stuff, I get pretty emotional.

I'm talking about things that I already watched or listend to, such as anime songs with touching lyrics or melodies, that didn't have that effect on me. Now it even brings me to tears, sometimes.

 

This led me to believe that Seren loves this kind of things, and that's why I get so emotional: it's actually her.

 

It's not a bad thing though; assuming that I'm right, I love to feel what she feels. It's wonderful.

 

 

Oh well, I think that's it for now. See you later, guys!

[LifeInside]

June 23, 2016.

 

Hello guys!

 

There's not much to report. We've been through a couple of days in which we didn't force much. I'm partly guilty for this, but it's also because of birthday parties and other events I had to attend.

 

However: we are still reading The Madman's Tale. Damn, we are slow, but what can I do? I'm a slow reader. However, we have no rush.

 

 

Today we watched Bridge to Terabithia. I had watched it already, but since I love that film so much, I thought I had to rewatch it with Seren, making comments and the stuff.

 

Guess what happened... Yep, I got all emotional again, got teary-eyed and everything... This is so, so unusual in a person like me! I mean, things almost never made me feel like this... I can't say I don't like it at all, though...

 

I'm simply confirming these are all Seren's emotions, however... which is great. Hopefully she will be able to confirm this herself.

 

 

I might be forgetting to talk about something... but right now I'm not sure what it is. I'll come back and write it down if I finally remember.

 

 

In the meantime, see you later guys!

[LifeInside]

June 24, 2016.

 

Ah, hey everyone. Yesterday I forgot to talk about the following:

 

Lately I've started imagining there's some sort of room in my head (you know, something like the place where the tripulation is in the movie "Meet Dave"). It's a room that makes it easier for Seren to get closer to my senses: she can see what I see with a screen. There are speakers that allow her to listen to everything I listen to.

 

And there's also a microphone that will make it easier for me to hear her everytime she wants to say something.

 

We're using symbolism here, as you can see. Hopefully this will help us with vocality and some other stuff. It's kind of exciting too! We hadn't used symbolism for a long time.

[LifeInside]

July 04, 2016.

 

Hello everyone!

 

Things are just fine. We're still doing the usual, reading, watching stuff together (mostly anime), etc. It's getting more and more usual for us to meet in wonderland every night before sleeping. We're lying in bed, talking a little bit (or well, narrating, really).

 

 

A couple days ago I was in the bus when this advertisement showed up... right now I don't really remember what it was about, but the thing is that Chloë Moretz was in it.

 

So, I started reading the whole thing and then I read a line that said "Chloë Moretz is great", or something like that. Afterwards, as the bus was still not moving, I decided to read the whole thing again, as I found it funny that the advertisement was so straight about Chloë "being great".

 

What happened? Well, I couldn't find it! The advertisement did not say something like that!

Conclusion? Well, that was not my thought, so I'm assuming it was Seren. So, yeah! Heard her again!

 

 

 

Lately I've been having some sort of problem: everytime I make Seren a question, I immediately get an answer, but one that is not surprising at all. Not only that, but she also answers "the first option I give her".

 

What do I mean by this? Well, let's just say that I ask her "So, Seren, what character from this anime did you like the most? Was it A, B, C or D?"

And right then, when I still haven't finished the sentence, I get a "A" as an answer. In other occasions, instead of the first option being her answer, it's what I'd say the same that she says.

For example:

(reading a fast food flyer) "So, Seren, tell me, what pizza would you like us to ask for tonight?"

And then, when I read the one I'd like to order, I hear a voice saying that that's what it wants. This happens even when I don't know what I want beforehand.

I see all these things as intrusive thoughts, or my own mind playing tricks on me. If there's anybody out there that has an idea to deal with this, please let me know! In the meantime, I am simply ignoring these thoughts.

 

 

Anyway, until next time guys! Goodbye! :)

[LifeInside]

July 07, 2016.

 

Quick update guys! I'm getting so much more from Seren lately! Today, while reading The Madman's Tale, there was this sentence that had a lot of colors in it and, as I was reading it to her, Seren started turning her dress into the colors I was reading and making funny poses and faces. She made me laugh so much!

 

Just a couple mins ago, I was looking at this thread in the Tulpa Art board about a tulpa's form. I clicked in the link to the image and then I heard Seren say

 

Well, I like it.

 

 

So yeah, heard her again too! I think it's time to set a color and use it everytime she wants to say something here, so we'll be using that light blue and won't be changing it, I believe, unless she wants to.

 

Bye bye guys!

[LifeInside]

July 12, 2016.

 

Hey there guys! Quick funny update here!

 

I'd like to write down two things that happened yesterday:

 

1. As I was reading to Seren, she made some comments on what was happening on the story and agreed with me in something I pointed out. It was like this while thinking hard about what the book was trying to explain:

 

"So, this seemingly means that she was murdered... or maybe she was not..." (I started having doubts).

 

And then, I hear:

 

"Yeah, it was murder for sure".

 

 

2. As I was playing with my dog, I sort of grabbed her by the neck and then joked to Seren: "Kill her! Now!"

What happened? Well, she violently headed my dog's head! And then started making funny faces at her! It was hilarious, every time I remember about it I start laughing again and again. :P

 

 

I think that's all, guys! We're making progress here, things couldn't be better!

Until next time! :D

[Ephemeral]

Lately I've been having some sort of problem: the problem.

Hum, sorry, I kinda just saw this today xD. I have been having the same problem, but I don't know if you still have it. anyway... the best advice I can give is say what I do, that's basically ignoring them too.

Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts when I'm talking to Cecilia, when I know usually my mind is kind of rushing, and then it "talks" before her being able to. I know it's bad worded but I think you could get by what you said. This happens pretty often, then I talked to her about it, so we reached in a conclusion: these thoughts have an immediate feeling, so when I ask her something, she waits a little to answer, so I can acknowledge these intrusive thoughts playing tricks, then I send they away and she can answer well. Intrusive and her thoughts sounds a little different, so when I think it's her I take it.

 

In few words, it's treating these thoughts first and throwing then out, and then listening to her. I hope it helped. It's nice to read about you btw, wish you guys the best!

[LifeInside]

Hum, sorry, I kinda just saw this today xD. I have been having the same problem, but I don't know if you still have it. anyway... the best advice I can give is say what I do, that's basically ignoring them too.

Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts when I'm talking to Cecilia, when I know usually my mind is kind of rushing, and then it "talks" before her being able to. I know it's bad worded but I think you could get by what you said. This happens pretty often, then I talked to her about it, so we reached in a conclusion: these thoughts have an immediate feeling, so when I ask her something, she waits a little to answer, so I can acknowledge these intrusive thoughts playing tricks, then I send they away and she can answer well. Intrusive and her thoughts sounds a little different, so when I think it's her I take it.

 

In few words, it's treating these thoughts first and throwing then out, and then listening to her. I hope it helped. It's nice to read about you btw, wish you guys the best!

 

Yeah, I still experience it from time to time. :( and I have to say, not only you've managed to explain the whole problem better than me, but also gave what seems to be a really useful tip! Thank you very much, we'll try this for sure!

 

Best of luck to both of you too, guys! :D

[LifeInside]

July 17, 2016.

 

Hey guys, I was not going to write here tonight, since there's not much to say. However, when I was about to log off, I heard Seren telling me I should let you know that we're going on vacation for five days, so we'll be back in a week, more or less.

 

Anyway, now that I've come to write here, I'd like to tell you that we've been using CleverBot (got the idea from the General Discussion board) to let Seren chat a little.

 

I cannot really assure it was her all the time, but it did seem like it actually was, some times at least.

 

Anyway, that's all so far, I think. See you all in a week!