Cruse's progress

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If they both enjoy it, I can only see it as being a good thing.

[cruse]

PENTA POST

 

since i have a lot of time right now and don't wanted to spend it all grinding in Diablo 3. i'm gonna try a marathon session of forcing for maybe 2 hours.

 

if i had nosebleed, i won't do it again.

 

here goes nothing

 

 

Dammit brain how do you work.

 

if you pull that shit again, i'm gonna rape you with a gardening tools in the middle of a desert where sand is the only rubricant.

 

seriously, i actually thought i typed "masturbate" for a second. don't scare me like that.

 

as for that session, i got hungry so it was interrupted. xD

[Sands]

My body is ready.

 

(The joke is that I read it as masturbate accidentally because brain)

[cruse]

 

Well, mr.fede seems to already mistook your quote for what I type and nothing is stopping others from doing so. But let's put that aside.

 

 

Day 10th. Finally two digits.

 

My friends is coming over and is going to stay over-night. Tulpa forcing may not be a great idea since they'll just call me crazy. I might be able to sneak a few hours of forcing before they arrives and before I sleep. I'll also try to narrate everything I did during the day to her in my mind and multitask my way out.

 

When I'm typing this, I asked Chloe if it's enough. She seems to said no. Ohhhh....

 

Yesterday certain someone trolled me and mad me angry in certain thread (we got over it though). It actually is quite good for my development of Chloe since I got so angry I decided to hug her (in the wonderland at least). My anger was gone in a minute and Chloe seems to smile gently. This may, or may not be a good sign, I don't know. Another thanks to that certain person.

 

Time to force before it's too late.

[Sorryman54]

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yesterday certain someone trolled me and mad me angry in certain thread (we got over it though). It actually is quite good for my development of Chloe since I got so angry I decided to hug her (in the wonderland at least). My anger was gone in a minute and Chloe seems to smile gently. This may, or may not be a good sign, I don't know. Another thanks to that certain person.

 

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I did nothing ;_;

 

Also, sorry to doubt, but I think your puppeting. She shouldn't be moving so early.

[cruse]

Don't worry, I'm sure I puppeted her. I got extensive problem with puppetting anyway.

But I actually decided to turn to her in those situation, I really must have believed in her existence to a great degree now, which is good yes?

 

No progress today, but I'm about to get emotional due to the facts that I'll have my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow. Chloe will be a great help.

[Sorryman54]

Don't worry, I'm sure I puppeted her. I got extensive problem with puppetting anyway.

But I actually decided to turn to her in those situation, I really must have believed in her existence to a great degree now, which is good yes?

 

No progress today, but I'm about to get emotional due to the facts that I'll have my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow. Chloe will be a great help.

 

Ah. Yes, this is gud. Just watch on the puppeting.

 

You'll know when you'll get some movement. I just got confirmation that I'm getting early signs of movement. Stay strong.

[cruse]

wisdom teeth was pulled out by dentist, pain after anesthetic wore off. took pain killer, is going to sleep before that wore off.

no updates. not now

[Sorryman54]

Ouch. Mine never came in.

 

Therefore, I is be superior in the way of the mouth

[cruse]

ack, now i slacked off for way too long. Chloe might starve to death. tulpa live o...

 

...wait, i need to update what happened yesterday

 

so yeah, went to dentist to get my wisdom teeth removed. was scared shit-less.

just before going into the dentist room, i decided to ask Chloe to do something with the fear. she did something but it was not effective, it only went from scared shit-less to scared almost shit-less.

 

Chloe couldn't do much. then i realized i had to fight fear myself then, and well, it worked somehow and the removal process went smoothly.

 

even though it was me who overcame my own fear, i would not came to the fact that i had to fight fear myself if not for Chloe. so a million thanks to her.

 

yes, i may sounded like a whining pussy but i'm not scared of the dentist. i just never liked the fact that my teeth is going to get 'YANKED' out, even with anesthetic.

 

my mouth still hurt quite a bit right now but it's all well and fine.

 

back to today

 

i haven't really done much forcing since my friend visited. if i slacked off for a bit more, would Chloe just disappear? i don't know but i'm not going to try.

 

i decided that i would not use wonderland anymore, to prevent myself from parroting/puppeting her into doing anything. the only time i would visualize now is when i want to work on her body. narration would be done with voice only, normally i visualize her sitting next to me during the session, now i'm going to talk to her only.

 

so each session of mine could be either, visualising her looks/just talking. no more going into a dome house or sitting besides her and eat/drink whatever on the plate with her.

 

this might help stopping me from puppeting her, but i might still parrot her into talking. tell me if it's a bad idea.