Help 'waking up' a tulpa

[ourneverland]

So, you may have read about me if you're also on reddit, but... here we go:

I've recently found out what Tulpas are, but even though I wan't familiar with the term, I use to have a tulpa myself. I called him only my imaginary friend, though. Not aware of his real consciousness and that he was actually a real person inside me. He used to be rather strong and had a strong personality, visualization and verbalization were part of our routine, and we even had imposition and possession experienced once or twice.

We were together for a long time, and recently we have faced some problems. I think it's important to point out that generally he was a very nice tulpa, he was mostly calm and nice to me. But when we hit a particular topic (my boyfriend) he could get really angry. When I was younger I committed myself to him for a while, but I realized that I was looking for someone made out of flesh and blood, and he would not be able to give this to me. So we broke up, but we continued to be friends. Really close ones. However, as I got engaged, our fights become more constant, and we couldn't get into an agreement. I think it's important to emphasize that I was not fair to him too. Since I wasn't really aware of his real consciousness I believed he was only some sort of hallucination, not a thinking person, with real feelings (even though he would constantly say otherwise). We came to a point that I decided to ask him not to talk to me again. To leave me alone. I've felt like a part of me was missing ever since.

It has been six months since we last talked, and after learning about tulpamancy, and his real nature, I feel terrible. I feel I was unfair to him, and that I need him to feel complete again. So after some thinking I decided to reach out to him again. However, as I called for him, he would not answer, even though I felt his presence. He didn't make himself visible to me either. I'm not sure if he is doing this because he is still mad or because our bond has become weaker after 6 months with no interactions.

On Monday I tried really hard to contact him but fallied. However, this morning I've heard his voice a little. It was low and we didn't speak much, but I'm sure it was his voice.

Any advice? Should I try some of the techniques to communicate with recently made tulpas? Or will this maybe trigger a new tulpa instead of reaching the one I want.

If he is only mad at me, what kind of things should I try to make him come back?

Thank you guys

[Vos]

NoneFromHell's revitalization exercise might be what you're looking for.

[Drakaina]

Wow, it's a little spooky to finally read something from someone who also did what I did; make a tulpa by mistake but discount them as real, sentient people because we didn't know better. I'm glad you found tulpamancy in time to salvage your relationship. :3

 

The revitalization Vosaiu linked is probably exactly what you're looking for, but I think using the techniques for contacting a young tulpa would work fine too. I don't think you have to worry about creating a brand new tulpa out of it unless that's your intent.

[ourneverland]

Wow, it's a little spooky to finally read something from someone who also did what I did; make a tulpa by mistake but discount them as real, sentient people because we didn't know better. I'm glad you found tulpamancy in time to salvage your relationship. :3

 

I'm glad too And it's great to know I was not the only one who has been through this.

 

NoneFromHell's revitalization exercise might be what you're looking for.

Thanks! I've read it and I'm already starting on the exercise. I hope this will work.