Making a Tulpa for science.

[Doctorfoxwolf]

I have decided that the beginning of each post will have a new Doc, as there are many ones I didn't mention as they are less common.

Doccer 288 - Large Changeling shaped Mecha Doc.

 

So a whole lotta nothing happened then a lot happened all at once, toppling together and domino-ing into more information.

 

Meti and Zifril had been in the chat pretty much all day and it was getting late, and they were both starting to doze off. Much as they tried to fight it, at some point they just conked out. In an effort to be nice and because chairs are uncomfortable, I picked us up and kinda just flopped us onto the bed. I was out of practice with controlling the body, and I'm surprised they didn't wake up when I fell over, but at that point I had faceplanted onto the bed so I figured fuck it, we're here, my work is done.

 

Apparently while I was not paying attention, as I had shit to do (see: I was fucking around) in the wonderland the other two were enjoying a shared dream, which is a first for them. Not only that, but it was a strange nightmare. The type where everything seems normal but it's so realistic while everything is slightly off. Normally these are shrugged off, but since it was combined with how they not only woke up where they did not fall asleep, and could not fall asleep in the first place.

 

It was here that we learned just how much Zifril relies on his memory, horrible as it is. In the minutes after waking up, he was panicking. He didn't know what was up or down, what was real or a memory. This spiraled totally out of control as he questioned everything, including his own existence.

 

We learned from this that the only thing that Doc has and uses to assert his own existence are his memories. Not only this, but he wasn't panicked at all by the thought of not existing, only at the thought of having such jumbled and incorrect information.

 

There was more to say, but fuck it we'll do that later.

[tulpa001]

Alas, I shall never catch up on lewd tupper's progress report. Sigh. It is a lost cause.

 

Hi again Jeremy!

 

Point on the tulpish. Tulpish is usually incredibly precise, failing only to provide a text that expresses the concept, so that surprises me. Maybe you have a private language.

 

As to the blood pooling in the leg, I believe I have an odd effect on our circulation. It is the most mundane explanation for my causing our change in how we react to the temperature, and her feeling numb when I possess.

 

Shock is a state that causes blood to pool in the legs. Shock causes muscle relaxation. This includes the blood vessel sheath muscles, which control blood pressure and vessel volume.

 

Also, what is with your wonderland still? Next you are going to tell me the weather varies between flying spikes of doom and pure acid rain.

 

Oh wait, you found the cause. Doc, you know the answer now. Gotta mind meld with that one to snap her? out of it.

 

Oh [non-denominational diety], changeling army got infected with replicators in a robot wars tournament. Plus a fluffle puff. How the heck does your mind do that? (also, I approve. No wonder you were so cagey on appearance early on.)

[Doctorfoxwolf]

Oh [non-denominational diety],

 

WHAT WAS IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT I MUST KNOW!

AmalgaDoc 2.0 - New form we. . . Made? For him. We didn't really make it, it seemed to want to change so we coaxed it along into what shape it seemed to want. It is the same material and consistency as before, but is creepily thin, long bony limbs, ribs, spine, stuff like that. About 9 feet tall and humanoid, instead of feet his lower legs just end in sharp points. He has 10 or 12 arms, no seeming pattern as to why or when he switches between them. They are very grabby and will embrace anything that gets near. They tend to do whatever Doc wants them to do before he wants them to do it. There are also an uncountable amount of ethereal ones coming out of his back that become more solid if more or more customized arms are needed. Limbs no longer burst out at random.

 

CT is gay.

 

So far, while we haven't been trying too hard because effort, but so far all attempts have more or less failed.

 

Apparently, the main part of our WL, while it works on a very strict basis, can be more easily manipupated if you work it like clay. So it works on Topology rules. Also Topology is Meti's new favorite thing.

 

We were listening to music from NGNL and Zifril started thinking about the Ten Pledges. We liked the idea since there is a power disparity between us, so since I am the most familiar with the WL other than Spiderfuck, I have the job of implementing and integrating it as deeply as possible. Spiderfuck seems to not give a fuck since I'm not actually changing the wonderland, just how people act in it.

 

Not much else has happened since the last update, adn I suspect not much will until we can reliably get Zifril into the wonderland. Peace.

[Ponytail]

CT is gay.

The most long winded PR ever, the one that is actually a legitimate commitment to keep up with that I care about. The one I used to think "Dear lord how do they manage to find so much to talk about?" And still can't help but think "Bullshit" when they say they have so much more they forget to upload. The ones who over the tiniest detail could speak for hours.

 

Then there's this.

[tulpa001]

Yeah, I was like, what? Zifril is gay? I suppose that makes sense. Tulpas frequently have different allignments. But I didn't get that sense. Then I had to slap myself for getting Zifril and Jeremy confused yet again.

 

I did think one interesting thought. Jeremy was in a mindless rage during the period of life where sexual identity forms (11-13). It is weird to think about what it would be like to suddenly skip that period.

[Piano Soul]

I did think one interesting thought. Jeremy was in a mindless rage during the period of life where sexual identity forms (11-13). It is weird to think about what it would be like to suddenly skip that period.

 

Hmm. I was created back when host was completely ignorant on the subject of sex. I now think sex is disgusting (sorry CT) and do not understand why people are so grossly fervent about it.

[Fairweather]

K: I am in the same boat as you, I never understood why people are over the top in wanting sex. I do see why to do it, if you want kids and all, but not on purely doing it for the sex. Then again, I always was a bit weird.

[Doctorfoxwolf]

K: I am in the same boat as you, I never understood why people are over the top in wanting sex. I do see why to do it, if you want kids and all, but not on purely doing it for the sex. Then again, I always was a bit weird.

 

Because before I could self force myself into extreme masochism, the incredible agony that was existing in Dedlin was overwhelming and I looked for any possible way to distract myself from it. So when I discovered a certain part of my anatomy, that was how I spent the next few months.

 

In the words of The Great Boot-Leg:

"Dying dying dying death death help help barf barf barf barf barf barf no one can stop the pain please can you stop the pain".

[Doctorfoxwolf]

Unless we remember more shit, this should be it for a while.

 

First off, here's CT's account of his childhood: Part one. Part two. Part three.

 

You know how for some reason all of Doc's form bleed profusely? Well, AmalgaDoc does not do that. Also, at some point a while back I upgraded the book of memories Doc gave me to go from "Has all of Doc's memories" to "Contains ALL COLLECTIVE KNOWLEDGE".

 

There's a lot of stuff about Meti that hasn't been talked about in a bit. For one thing, her problems with visualization are no more. You may have picked that up from when we measured visualization diameter. We also no longer have had the time to test her upper limit on possession ability, and is in consistent control of the left arm.

 

I know there's more that we can't remember. Someone ask shit they're confused about or not clear on so we can answer.

[Radio Hiss]

Unless we remember more shit, this should be it for a while.

 

First off, here's CT's account of his childhood: Part one. Part two. Part three.

Also, at some point a while back I upgraded the book of memories Doc gave me to go from "Has all of Doc's memories" to "Contains ALL COLLECTIVE KNOWLEDGE".

 

We also no longer have had the time to test her upper limit on possession ability, and is in consistent control of the left arm.

 

I know there's more that we can't remember. Someone ask shit they're confused about or not clear on so we can answer.

 

So much for adding a new Doc at the beginning of every post.

 

Damn. I thought my siblings psychologically traumatized me for life. My little sob story will never live up to this huh?

 

Symbolism, eh?

 

Still jelly.

 

We're confused just in general.