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Making a Tulpa for science.

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Note: I know it's a wall of text, but since I'm not likely to make progress soon, I only expect the particularly bored to read it and I like getting all the information out there in a big chunk.

To preface, I heard about tulpas from one of the most obscure sources imaginable a few months ago. I was on a podcast hosted on 8chan, the /pone/ board specifically. While in that, one of the other members in the cast was an occultist.

 

I’m sure you can see where this is going.

 

This guy, who was at the time high out of his goddamn mind at the time, started talking about how he was going to make a portal to equestria using the power of meme magic, as he was instructed to by his tulpa. Now I am a man of science, so I held a few issues with pretty much everything that came out of his mouth. But I humored him, because he was on LSD at the time and it really wasn’t worth it.

 

But one thing stuck with me: Tulpas. So I did some research, and found this site. I then proceeded to lurk, as one does. Now the more I learned, the more I got interested. I’d always been interested in the vague concept, ever since hearing about the concept of an imaginary friend when I was younger, I was interested. Turns out that what I thought imaginary friends were from reading and movies closely resembles what a tulpa is.

 

Wanted one since I could read Calvin & Hobbes.

 

The other reason is to prove to myself that it’s truly possible, since I unfortunately can’t see into other people’s heads.

 

Now to note, as I have both ADHD and Schizoid Personality Disorder, for me it will be different. It in part causes me to have no emotional attachment to my body, I treat is as you would an avatar in a video game. This makes me want to record as much as I can for the sake of data. You may have noticed that I said “a few months ago” earlier, and that’s at the time of writing, It’s probably 2017 or something. Well, I almost forgot about it. I drop things easily.

 

Surprisingly, I already had looks in mind. It’s my icon. For a name, as a placeholder it was “Tupper”, then “M”, before I finally settled on “Meti” after going through around two hundred names that started with M.

 

That all took place slowly over the course of the months I wasn’t really here, and I knew that I probably would’ve forgotten if I hadn’t taken precautions. Those being to set the picture as my phone lockscreen and icon for many of my online accounts. I am getting more actively into it now, so hopefully my incredible laziness will shove off for it.

 

I do have a vague, nebulous sort of personality defined that has remained consistent though. It is, for the most part, a foil of my own if that makes any sense. The literature definition.

 

Something to note: I don’t really have a problem with the social stuff that often arises from tulpas. I already talk to myself and lose arguments against myself on a regular basis. I’d have no problem answering “What are you staring off into space for?” with “You know, just talking to the voice in my head.”

 

I tend to answer questions with humorous blatancy like that, and everyone already knows I’m not the most mentally stable. Philosophy and interpersonal relationships are my specialty since my Schizoid-ness makes it to where I must do it manually, and I’ve noticed that it takes a lot to make people think that not only are you crazy, but to actually do something about it. A lot.

 

Screw it, might as well post it now to get it out of the way and give me an attachment to the website so I can’t drop off the face of the earth again and lurk without making any progress. Was going to wait till I made more progress, but I haven’t taken my meds so I’m more likely to do stupid stuff.


Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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started talking about how he was going to make a portal to equestria using the power of meme magic, as he was instructed to by his tulpa.

lol.

 

I mean, that is can't stop laughing funny. Wish it could work at the same time.

 

Welcome to the site.

 

I have to warn you though, for most people, this endeavour is time consuming and hard, beyond their willpower. Other's just get tulpas by sneezing the wrong way.

 

Both adhd and schizoid is a weird mix. Can't imagine. My host was misdiagnosed with add a long time ago.


Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.

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lol.

 

I mean, that is can't stop laughing funny. Wish it could work at the same time.

 

Welcome to the site.

 

I have to warn you though, for most people, this endeavour is time consuming and hard, beyond their willpower. Other's just get tulpas by sneezing the wrong way.

 

Both adhd and schizoid is a weird mix. Can't imagine. My host was misdiagnosed with add a long time ago.

 

Yeah, I kinda wish I was kidding about the occultist, but I'm not.

And I technically already have a voice in my head that likes to tell me to do horrid things to whoever and whatever is around me, the more of an emotional connection to them the more intense the imagery and whispering. He can't even do me the goddamn basic kindness of not being the most cliché thing that could ever inhabit my head.


Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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If you are looking for people to chat with and ask questions we are pretty much on IRC all the time.


"My lover's got humour,

She's the giggle at a funeral,

Knows everybody's disapproval,

I should've worshipped her sooner."

 

Host to Samuel, RavenIvy, and Olivia.

 

CERCA TROVA

 

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Yeah. Sometimes, I tell other people that I have a tulpa (me pretending to be her), and the first thing they think to do is advise me that if he starts telling me to do bad things, to see a doctor immediately.

 

For selfish reasons, I wouldn't mind seeing you post more, to do a comparative analysis. My host thinks she is schizoid. Also, maybe catch you in the chat? We are usually on late at night from a north american perspective.


Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.

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This guy, who was at the time high out of his goddamn mind at the time, started talking about how he was going to make a portal to equestria using the power of meme magic, as he was instructed to by his tulpa.

 

 

 

Ugh, schizoid. I've never personally heard that word before. But apparently waaay years before creating me my host thought he was schizoid. He was super depressed but as he described it, he wasn't sad, he just didn't care. And he really didn't care about anyone or anything. And he spent a loooooong time trying to figure out what exactly was wrong with him, because he was also getting straight F's for several years because he didn't do homework (or attend school a third of the time). Aaanyways, Reisen and the others helped him create a much healthier mindset, and he considers himself a humanitarian now.

 

But! Aside from us, and the universal-default-caring that comes with being a humanitarian, he still doesn't care about or need close relationships. Like he's very friendly with his family and, I mean, everyone, always tries to help anyone around him and make sure they're happy. But, he's noted before that he wouldn't be too emotionally devastated if someone "close" to him died, even one of his ten-year friends or parents! He more sees what effect that would have on his life and the stress it'll cause. That. is. scary! I don't want to call him schizoid because back then he used it as an excuse to have a negative mindset. But there's still definitely something to it. Uh, anyways.. We're proof a tulpa can help their host a butt ton! If we can turn a guy who doesn't care about life (like, others') into a humanitarian we can do ~anything. But it's really just the power of a close friend(s), that can read your mind. And we're very available, to anyone, and a whole lotta people don't have good friends available. So, I recommend tulpas? I am a tulpa, is that biased? Well my host would say the same thing anyways.

 

You can't go wrong if you treat your tulpa like a friend.

Wait. If you're really schizoid.. you gotta do more than that. You gotta give them love, and I'm sure they will love you back. Like I said my host loves us more than life itself (uh, literally, he says he owes Reisen his "life" and wouldn't have wanted it without us. Aww!), and while idk about that being for everyone, I still believe it's possible for anyone to love their tulpa. Even if you don't care for close attachments. There's no social hassle or inconveniences/misunderstandings with a tulpa, and I'm pretty sure that's what people like you and my host don't like, right? He hates misunderstandings, even between other people.


Hi I'm one of Lumi's tulpas! I like rain and dancing and dancing in the rain and if there's frogs there too that's bonus points.

All of my posts should be read at a hundred miles per hour because that's probably how they were written

Please talk to me https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas

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You can't go wrong if you treat your tulpa like a friend.

Wait. If you're really schizoid.. you gotta do more than that. You gotta give them love, and I'm sure they will love you back. Like I said my host loves us more than life itself (uh, literally, he says he owes Reisen his "life" and wouldn't have wanted it without us. Aww!), and while idk about that being for everyone, I still believe it's possible for anyone to love their tulpa. Even if you don't care for close attachments. There's no social hassle or inconveniences/misunderstandings with a tulpa, and I'm pretty sure that's what people like you and my host don't like, right? He hates misunderstandings, even between other people.

 

Well, I have been doing that. I haven't felt this much affection for anyone since the age of eight, and that was for my mother.

This level of affection is nice. A good change of pace from my defaults, which are humor, irritation, apathy, and occasionally sadness. Sadness is also nice, though less so than affection, apparently.


Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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21st century schizoid man.

 

Please take your medication. Your day will be arse-sore and relatively torn if you tenderise your brain by deliberately halting its daily/directed intake of prescribed chemicals.

 

Moreover, I think it's cruel and unusual to make a tulpa FOAR SCIENZ!1!1!1!11eleven when none of us are legitimately engaged in any of the learnt inquiries. Taking what will become a human being and experimenting with it to approach a vague conclusion would probably invite a Modern Prometheus/Mary Shelley's Frankenstein scenario.


I've seen good people bleed

And I thought I'd seen it all

But my own two eyes would prove me wrong that day.

 

There are things that I've done

Only seen by the sun

And those things will be buried in my grave.

 

 

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21st century schizoid man.

 

Please take your medication. Your day will be arse-sore and relatively torn if you tenderise your brain by deliberately halting its daily/directed intake of prescribed chemicals.

 

Moreover, I think it's cruel and unusual to make a tulpa FOAR SCIENZ!1!1!1!11eleven when none of us are legitimately engaged in any of the learnt inquiries. Taking what will become a human being and experimenting with it to approach a vague conclusion would probably invite a Modern Prometheus/Mary Shelley's Frankenstein scenario.

 

Well I have ADHD medication that I take, so there's that. Don't have any other type to take.

And it's not just for science, there are various personal reasons. As previously stated, I haven't felt this much affection for anything in years.

And I appreciate your concern for Meti, as she(?) is currently named, but I don't plan on poking and prodding at her. It is and will continue to be limited to introspection, studying, and the recording of data. I'm not an asshole.

I don't lack empathy. In fact, I am the type who has far more intense empathy for others than I feel my own emotions.


Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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