Doctorfoxwolf January 4, 2017 Author January 4, 2017 I apologise. ... I confused Doc for CT. *facehoof* This makes far more sense now. Just wondering. Some humour makes it hard to tell how others feel. Honest mistake. And really, I'd much rather let her do whatever the fuck she wants with the whole revering thing than scare her into listening to me, that'd be super fucked up. I like everyone, with some exceptions. However, by default I like people. Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
Doctorfoxwolf January 5, 2017 Author January 5, 2017 We actually made visible progress with CT. We were able to get him to a level of "Smoldering Hatred", which while still enough to inspire murder, is certainly a step down from the "Bestial Blood Rage" he was at before. We also found out for sure what his anger is caused by, and it's not sadism. It's vengeance. Doc has, in some way, wronged CT. While we have theories as to why, we still don't know for sure. We didn't get that as his word though, we inferred it from how he acted. This last time, instead of backing off and letting me deal with it like he normally does, Doc actually confronted him, showing genuine remorse. Remorse for what? I dunno. Neither does Doc. But there was a lot of it. The details of what Doc said are pretty fucking personal, and while he doesn't mind sharing what happened, I do. Regardless, it was enough to break CT out of whatever weird state of perpetual anger he was in. Somewhat. He was willing to not murder me for like two minutes, that's an incredible improvement, okay? It's more progress than I thought we'd ever make. Still, when asked on if he was willing to give peace a shot, even if only for Meti's sake, we got a resounding "Maybe". Again, WAY more progress than I thought we'd ever make as long as we lived. When asked, he did point me out as the source for the Pressure. While many things, CT is not a liar, so we'll take his word for it. He said it in a very accusing tone, too. Doc being the source of something like the motherfucking Pressure only reinforces my view of him. Apparently there's something in the wonderland Meti never told me about. I thought he already knew, since I thought it WAS him. Her deifying me makes so much more sense if that's what she saw whenever she looked up and thought I was. Apparently Dedlin bears a striking resemblance to the Soul Cairn. Speaking of what people look like, I don't care. I have no concept of beauty. I seriously can't tell if someone is supposed to look hot or whatever. Doc tells me this is called "Pansexuality". Doc and I blend very often, though we're not fully sure that's what is happening. Doc has a tenancy to synergize with others in his actions, even outside of our head, and we have very compatible personalities for cooperation and such, so it may just be that we have the mental equivalent of two perfectly interlocking and fitting puzzle pieces. Not to complete some "Whole" or "True" puzzle, no we'd much rather remain separate, but we're much more effective at doing shit when we are. Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
Radio Hiss January 5, 2017 January 5, 2017 Speaking of what people look like, I don't care. I have no concept of beauty. I seriously can't tell if someone is supposed to look hot or whatever. Doc tells me this is called "Pansexuality". Pansexuality was actually coined as a term meaning sexual attraction to everything. Dead things, animals, children, tables, etc. It was the Internet that made it change. Not caring what people look like is more of a preference (or lack thereof) than a sexual orientation. 💡 The Felights 💡 https://felight.carrd.co/ 💡 🪐 Cosmicals: 🔥 Apollo Fire the Sun God (12/3/16), ⭐ Piano Soul the Star Man (1/26/17) 🐉 Mythicals: ☁️ Indigo Blue the Sky Dragon (10/2/17), 🦑 Gelato Sweet the Sea Monster (12/11/22) 🦇 Nycticals: ⚡ Dynamo Lux the Shock Rocker (3/3/17), 🎸 Radio Hiss the Song Demon (2/8/00)
Doctorfoxwolf January 5, 2017 Author January 5, 2017 Pansexuality was actually coined as a term meaning sexual attraction to everything. Dead things, animals, children, tables, etc. It was the Internet that made it change. Not caring what people look like is more of a preference (or lack thereof) than a sexual orientation. Even the old definition is accurate. You have no idea the things that I've done to the Stone. Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
tulpa001 January 5, 2017 January 5, 2017 Mischaracterisation. Pansexuality refers only to finding non-binaries, males and females all hot some of the time. However, finding everyone roughly equally hot implies either pansexuality or asexuality. Which is why I refer to my host as either pansexual or asexual. Glad CT is feeling better. I immediately think two things. It might be safe to turn off the pressure. Second, he must have difficulty seeing (or interpreting) the outside world. His position currently seems illogical to me if he were capable. Maybe give him a window. Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
Doctorfoxwolf January 5, 2017 Author January 5, 2017 Glad CT is feeling better. I immediately think two things. It might be safe to turn off the pressure. Yeah. It'd be great if I knew how to do that. I would have already done it if I knew how. If nothing else, it is a massive drain on my cognitive ability, and I'm fairly sure is the main reason why I'm always tired and lethargic, no matter how much sleep I get. Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
tulpa001 January 5, 2017 January 5, 2017 Centring. Go into the wonderland. Then sit down and meditate until all your turbulent emotions leave you. Slow everything down and make it stop spinning. Let the clouds clear. You are at the calm centre of it. Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
Doctorfoxwolf January 5, 2017 Author January 5, 2017 Centring. Go into the wonderland. Then sit down and meditate until all your turbulent emotions leave you. Slow everything down and make it stop spinning. Let the clouds clear. You are at the calm centre of it. I do that all the time. In fact, I passively do it. If I do it any more, I temporarily lose the capacity to feel emotions at all. It's some freaky shit. He showed me a memory of him doing it. Horrifying doesn't even begin to describe it. Besides, what turbulent emotions? I am tuned in 24/7, and I feel something other than calm, lethargic apathy from him maybe once or twice a day. Buddhist monks wish they were Doc. Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
tulpa001 January 5, 2017 January 5, 2017 I suppose I should have seen that, fisher king. However, psychic pressure is powered by emotion. If it is not turbulent emotion, what is it? Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
Doctorfoxwolf January 5, 2017 Author January 5, 2017 I don't know. Could be the reverse, like how sandstorms and tar pits are total opposites but still achieve the same thing: Fatiguing and eventually, those stuck in it will tire out and be buried, never to be seen again. EDIT: Also, the fuck is a Fisher King? Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions. Meti: Overly lewd Tupper. CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.
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