my tulpa wont let go of my hands

[YukariTelepath]

Ask your tulpa if they want to learn how to play guitar. Maybe if they do, you can set up a schedule so they can have some time to play, and they can let you play without interfering.

[Favole]

I already asked if thats the case at the beginning they said no

[Ranger]

Oh sorry it feels like an alien movement. Its like there are strings attached to my hands and fingers and someone keeps pulling them. I also can feel my tulpa on my skin; too close to me it feels like someone is blowing air to my skin.

 

Possession shouldn't feel like uncontrollable alien movement, at least not in my experience and from what I know about other Tulpamancers. I have heard of people having an unusually strong sensitivity to how they feel and what they imagine, but I'm not sure if this is true for you. If it was, then imagining you are holding a cat would feel just as alien as what you are experiencing.

 

The only other thing I can think is this is more like switching in some way or something else is influencing this situation like drugs or something possibly something medical. If these symptoms become super disruptive and don't go away in a few days, go see a doctor. For now, go ahead and take a break from forcing your Tulpa.

 

And can you explain intrusive thoughts more please? Why would it effect my tulpa and why is it reacting this way to my thoughts?

 

Intrusive thoughts are unwanted thoughts or thoughts that are distressing or make you feel bad. An example would be if you saw a kid on the street and had the thought of taking the kid's candy from them and make the kid cry. After that thought, you may feel like a bad person or upset from what you imagined. Thoughts don't make you a bad person and everyone has thoughts like this every now and then.

 

However, I believe that if an intrusive thought is responsible, it's in one of 2 ways: the first way is when you play guitar, you have the fear or thought of being interrupted or messed with, and while having that thought you get an unsettling sensory experience disrupting and distracting you. The second way would be the intrusive thought is acting and pretending to be your Tulpa while trying to thwart you. The main difference is one is just a thought, the other is an intrusive thoughtform pretending to be your Tulpa.

 

One more thing Should I try to be kind or should I be angry? I am really angry and frustrated but how should I approach? I can be calm and try to have more patience but I should force myself for it and Im not sure what I should do

 

You're allowed to be upset about this, but blaming your Tulpa right now isn't a good idea. For one, it seems unlikely your Tulpa is the culprit. If you tried to talk to your Tulpa and the culprit is an intrusive thoughtform, you may summon that instead of your Tulpa and end up getting caught in a stressful encounter where the intrusive being will belittle you or say nasty things to you. Trying to fight it or talk to it doesn't usually work, so it's best to ignore it and let it dissipate or disappear on its own.

 

If it is actually your Tulpa, giving them less chances to control the body will weaken their grip on the body.

[Favole]

Im sure its my tulpa it admitted that.. And I really dont need to see a doctor and Im not on drugs.. it feels like a spirit basicly really there is something out there and I created it and ofcourse I can sense it i know what it is its my tulpa.. maybe I used wrong terms but Im new here go easy on me ..

[Matsuri]

Anger is definitely not the way though I understand how frustrating it is. I suspect it's nothing more than intrusive thoughts. There's a pretty recent thread about it (https://community.tulpa.info/thread-misc-dealing-with-intrusive-thoughts?) which has information from different perspectives on the topic. Having more perspective is always good, generally speaking too.

 

A rule of thumb in our case is to never purposely take out any frustration or negative feelings on each other. There is no reason for it. Helps distinguishing the worst type of intrusive thoughts if you never purposely do them.

[solarchariot]

Im not a troll please if you wont help and just gonna say Im a troll or I should seek help or basicly just wont help basicly just dont answer Im a very kind person and it effects me more than you think when you talk to me that way please dont do this there are millions

of posts you can be that way with and its genderless..

They didn't call you a troll; they were also being helpful. Being defensive about they're legitimate concern, in the light that they did offer legitimate ideas that could possibly be helpful, is a tactic an actual troll would use. Not saying you are, but shutting down a legitimate concern in an environment where trolls have been known to, well, um, troll, suggests you're not really familiar with the population here.

 

One of the reasons we worry when see posts like this is because tulpas tend to be very predictable. Yeah, there is a continuum and range that allows for diversity, but like 99.9 percent of tulpas would never mess with a person's livelihood. Not good for the host equals not good for the tulpa. Clearly, the tulpa holding your hand is not all the time. You managed to type out your post, and respond to post... So, it wants you to talk to us? Maybe it doesn't like the music you're playing? You were country when it wasn't cool? How do you know it knows how important it is to you when you're not communicating? If it's only interrupting your music ability, that would be a form of communicating- it's saying something significant. Did you stop the tulpa process and not finish and it's asking you to finish what you started? Your music is significant to you, you finishing what you started is significant to tulpa. As a former musician, I, too take music very seriously- it's important to me, I consider it a form of meditation- so you're playing, and it's reaching out to you? That's meaningful... Maybe it wants the same level of energy you put into your music into it?

 

I have all kinds of questions... Being able to ask questions allows us to problem solve with you. No one is going to be able to tell you what to do, but we can all talk and share experiences and ideas. That also means, you have to be willing to allow us to express skepticism as we're problem solving, because what you're describing doesn't fit the general experience of the population. It's interesting. We're hook and we're responding, but it's also a bit 'trollish.'

[Favole]

Anger is definitely not the way though I understand how frustrating it is. I suspect it's nothing more than intrusive thoughts. There's a pretty recent thread about it (https://community.tulpa.info/thread-misc-dealing-with-intrusive-thoughts?) which has information from different perspectives on the topic. Having more perspective is always good, generally speaking too.

 

A rule of thumb in our case is to never purposely take out any frustration or negative feelings on each other. There is no reason for it. Helps distinguishing the worst type of intrusive thoughts if you never purposely do them.

 

Thank you ill try this

[Ranger]

Im sure its my tulpa it admitted that.. And I really dont need to see a doctor and Im not on drugs.. it feels like a spirit basicly really there is something out there and I created it and ofcourse I can sense it i know what it is its my tulpa.. maybe I used wrong terms but Im new here go easy on me ..

 

I brought up intrusive thoughtforms because my host has had several instances where she was greeted with an intrusive thoughtform pretending to be me. She was tricked into believing it was me, and the thoughtform stressed her out and was mean to her. It wasn't until after the fact she realized it was an intrusive thoughtform all along after I explained to her I wasn't there and those horrible events were not done by me.