TBnRB's Meditation POWWOW

[TB]

6 hours ago, Ashley said:

We find this to be dangerous thinking as it can let the ego run wild without remorse,  repentance or accountability. Imagine if a society outlawed criminal prosecution because the criminals are purely an outcome of society and not personally responsible.

Yeah that's an issue I've had too. But on the relative level it doesn't work that way I guess. There are even non-buddhists who don't believe in free will but will still say you are personally responsible for your actions, even if your choice to do those actions was an illusion and was predestined to happen. It kind of sucks and is confusing, but even if we are at the mercy of causality, we still respond based on input from outside of us so we lean into trying to do good since that's what it seems we want generally for most people

 

6 hours ago, Ashley said:

It's not great imo to follow this logic. It's dehumanizing and demoralizing to me.

It is demoralizing to me too, which is why I think if I start seeing direct glimpses of it, I'll start having an existential crisis on the bad end of the spectrum of the spectrum of possibilities one could react to this with (but I've gotten better with it) I'm really just putting my hope in that it will all be okay in the end.

 

6 hours ago, Ashley said:

No, I don't take it well because clearly it's a possibility as models go and that's strongly nihilistic leaning. If you have to say it's not nihilistic in your description of a philosophy, you also have to admit it sounds a heck of a lot like nihilism.

Buddhism does sound pretty nihilistic to me, but the Buddha also says seeing things that way is wrong view and dangerous. These insights have seemingly nihilistic implications, but you still have to assume responsibility and not take it so negatively, which is hard for some people, but probably doable I guess. On one hand awakening will make you lose a sense of agency, but on the other hand for example, Culadasa says awakening is when the real fun of life begins

 

6 hours ago, Ashley said:

How do you "have [or choose] a strong practice of morality" if "thoughts arise out of your control"? That's paradoxical.

Yeah it's complicated. Things arise naturally without our control, but there is still a logic and order to it all. If someone you trust suggests practicing good morality as a good thing to do, you will naturally be more inclined to do that. Same if you just think it is a good idea on your own. Negative thoughts may arise out of your control, but you can still react to those thoughts with intentions to do things that will help subdue them and replace them with more positive ones. The choice to react to it in that way also happens on its own, but if you think of lack of agency in a certain way it seems okay, because, whether or not there is free will, you would have done what you wanted to do anyway. How can you choose anything other than the thing you decide you want to do? A reality with free will and without free will might look really similar actually, unless it is the kind of free will where everyone has infinite will power and so everyone chooses to be super healthy athletes with super human minds and super knowledge because they always make the best and healthiest decisions, and choose to never make mistakes so they will a perfect life into reality, always choosing to be happy. In that world there still would seem to be a predictable line of events though

 

To break casuality you'd have to have a world where people choose random things that don't make sense in the moment, like cut your arm off for no reason just to prove you have a choice or something, but why would you do that? The causes and conditions in your head are unlikely to lead to that decision unless you needed to to save your life, like if you were stuck under a boulder or something. It's a little hard to imagine what it would be like if we had selfs that stood outside of causality and did whatever they wanted, and there was nothing the came before that lead us to our decisions. As it is, we do what we think is right from our point of view in the moment. Sometimes we are conflicted and want to do the harder long term thing that gets gratification way down the line versus instant gratification that harms us later, but what you do has to do with how many subminds agree to a decision, and they choose based on the knowledge they have access too, which comes from your experiences or karma

 

Meditation lets you change these subminds when normally you don't have direct control or access to them, so it can make you feel like you have more control, but meditation is like a circle I guess. You start out feeling like you have little will, it gets stronger and stronger, then it shatters, but by the time it shatters you are fine with it and everything becomes nice and you don't really suffer anymore (you still feel pain, but relationship to it is very different)

 

Frank Yang says he doesn't really worry about the question of free will vs determinism anymore. To him both and neither are true at the same time. Doing things no longer feels like it is his will, but it feels like it is the universe's will, and you kind of feel like you are the universe (not in a megalomaniac way, there just isn't a separation between you and things outside of you anymore. You feel a part of the whole) When he walks it is the universe walking, when he eats it is the universe eating. And you still have all your conditioning you built up, hopefully in your favor from taking care of yourself, so you will naturally choose to do what matters to you, without any resistance anymore

 

 

Sorry for this long post, I just hope I could make you feel better about that idea. It's something that has caused me a lot of depression to think about in the past, but these new perspectives I've discovered helped make it not seem as bad and make more sense. Learning things arise on their own naturally kind of gives you an advantage, because now you kind of know how to game the system, even if it isn't you choosing to game it technically. You will just become better at figuring out how to make the things you want to arise arise, instead of being frustrated and not knowing why you can't get yourself to do or think the things you want, or worse, blaming yourself for it all and thinking you are a bad person for it. Now you can forgive yourself and realize you just have to train your mind, and that knowledge will lead to you doing it most likely

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1 hour ago, TB said:

the kind of free will where everyone has infinite will power and so everyone chooses to be super healthy athletes with super human minds and super knowledge because they always make the best and healthiest decisions, and choose to never make mistakes so they will a perfect life into reality, always choosing to be happy.

 

Well, not everyone can be like me, but you know.

 

1 hour ago, TB said:

It is demoralizing to me too, which is why I think if I start seeing direct glimpses of it, I'll start having an existential crisis on the bad end

 

This is why we choose not to follow non-duality. It's the same deal. We won't choose to interpret "glimpses" this way either. There's nothing to gain for us.

 

1 hour ago, TB said:

To break casuality you'd have to have a world where people choose random things that don't make sense in the moment, like cut your arm off for no reason just to prove you have a choice or something, but why would you do that?

 

That wouldn't even break causality, it would simply mean you were meant to chop your arm off. In the wrong mind with incomplete understanding and poor interpretation, this would simply leave someone broken. I suppose any practice has this potential but this is one of those times SheShe wouldn't allow it.

 

1 hour ago, TB said:

To him both and neither are true at the same time.

 

We have paradoxical beliefs but they take turns depending on what we need at the time. Taking paradoxical thinking simultaneously is certainly possible.

 

Grounding is the solution to ungrounded thinking, doubt is the issue with ungrounded thinking, they do the same thing, the difference is: one you use, the other is involuntary.

 

1 hour ago, TB said:

I just hope I could make you feel better about that idea. 

 

If there's one thing we do best, it's strong convictions. We do change our mind but it won't happen when we see something as potentially damaging.

 

So don't worry about us.

[Autumn Ren]

Hi TB!

 

Misha was thinking about enlightenment and she put a bit of effort into it here. We'd like to hear your thoughts about this as it applies to your practices. And here's the trick question that Misha explored: Can you seek enlightenment? So if you just want to answer that than that's ok too.

 

 

So what is the goal if you can't seek "enlightenment"? You can attain very beneficial goals that will essentially bring you closer to enlightenment. One very important one is contentment. Why are you seeking contentment, doesn't that sound counterproductive? Your trying to attain something that accepts the lack of attainment. Simply accept the lack of attainment of it and you'll have it, whatever and all that 'it' is. Contentment is the lack of seeking. Two, acceptance, so why are you not accepting anyone's personal beliefs? Doesn't that make you a gatekeeper of the gateless gate? Why would it bother you if someone believes something isn't as you define it? It is what it is and that's all it needs to be. If you're desiring it to be something it's not, you're neither content nor accepting. Three, the lack of attachments. This may seem redundant but attachments bring suffering, so you could say enlightenment is without suffering, therefore it is without attachments such as desires or exclusionary thinking.

Dogma, doctrine, beliefs could never be enlightenment if enlightenment has the properties of contentment, acceptance and non-attachment. The very assertion that one way is better than another is counterproductive three fold.

I can't say I am enlightened, I can say I am content, I am accepting, and I am free from attachments. Because I'm content, that's enough. Because I'm accepting, others may disagree and I welcome that. Because I hold no attachments I accept that I may be wrong and better paths and states of being exist, thus I enjoy the exploration without holding my beliefs above others'.

You could say, but accepting things that others say that are clearly wrong is unproductive. Why should I care? How would I know? It doesn't bother me.

 

Edited February 13, 2024 by Autumn Ren

[TB]

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

Hi TB!

 

Misha was thinking about enlightenment and she put a bit of effort into it here. We'd like to hear your thoughts about this as it applies to your practices. And here's the trick question that Misha explored: Can you seek enlightenment? So if you just want to answer that than that's ok too.

Hi! I'm so sorry, I'm just now seeing this. Thanks for taking interest in my thread

 

I think you can seek enlightenment. Such a person is even called a seeker and Frank Yang says you have to exhaust the seeker before you find realization

 

If you choose not to seek enlightenment because you think it is paradoxical and to attain it you just have to stop having desires so you try to choose to not desire anything, I don't think that would work. You still have conditions and desires and aversions ingrained in you that will arise and be reacted to without you wanting it to happen, you don't really have a choice over it. Consciously trying to desire less or not at all can help and is part of it but won't just instantly get you there in my opinion

 

People are kind of cursed to take things at least somewhat personally as long as they perceive there is a self here separate from everything else out there. At stream entry you lose the fetter of personality belief, so you have seen proof the sense of self is an illusion, but you still experience that illusion

 

At arhatship or full enlightenment, you lose the fetter of conceit, which as far as I understand, in Buddhism, means the actual experience of having a self. The illusion is gone and there is no "here" and "there" anymore. When you perceive reality in this way, you have no more desires or attachments because nothing exists to have desires or get attached in the first place. When someone is seeking enlightenment, this is what they are trying to do

 

You still might have preferences and do the things you like to do and gain joy from it, but if it was taken away you wouldn't experience agitation, and you don't experience fear of it being taken away. Maybe someone can learn or somehow choose to view or react to life in this way without dropping the fetter of conceit, but I don't think it would be the same experience. Actually dropping those fetters through clear perception is such a trip and mind F it is a highly difficult to explain, radically different way of being in the world, and anyone who has attained it would tell you it is a vastly better way of perceiving the world, so much so they say it is a no brainer to choose living only a single day in this state over living a whole life where you get everything you could possibly want

 

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

Why are you seeking contentment, doesn't that sound counterproductive? Your trying to attain something that accepts the lack of attainment. Simply accept the lack of attainment of it and you'll have it, whatever and all that 'it' is. Contentment is the lack of seeking.

Sounds like the concept of having equanmity with the lack of equanmity, which is a useful thing to do and will get you closer to this goal, but isn't an immediate fulfillment of the true goal itself. It just gets you on your way and not doing so will make you go backwards

 

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

Two, acceptance, so why are you not accepting anyone's personal beliefs? Doesn't that make you a gatekeeper of the gateless gate? Why would it bother you if someone believes something isn't as you define it? It is what it is and that's all it needs to be. If you're desiring it to be something it's not, you're neither content nor accepting.

I don't know if you are talking to me directly or just saying in general, but I usually try to accept other people may have different beliefs, and my own beliefs aren't so rigidly set in stone. I do have strong ideas of how I think things might be though, and if I see someone else having beliefs that are actively harmful to themselves or others, it can be upsetting

 

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

Dogma, doctrine, beliefs could never be enlightenment if enlightenment has the properties of contentment, acceptance and non-attachment. The very assertion that one way is better than another is counterproductive three fold.

Certain dogma, doctrine, and beliefs do seem to harm both people's ability to get enlightenment or harm the quality of some people's actual enlightenment. As far as I've heard, you can still be enlightened but believe in problematic things and be capable of being triggered, but your experience of it is very different and you might use a lot of spiritual bypassing to get over it. I'm not sure that applies to a full arhat, but some people can achieve really lofty spiritual goals and still have problematic personality traits they didn't correct that are left over from their life before enlightenment. Now would be their chance to fix it without worrying about it coming back or being replaced with something else bad, which is the constant risk of trying to clean yourself up normally, but the ironic thing is since they can get triggered without actually suffering, they don't care they get triggered, it is just a response ingrained in their brain and they don't feel the motivation to get rid of it because it isn't causing them a problem. This isn't very good and is something to be careful of when trying to achieve these things

 

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

I can't say I am enlightened, I can say I am content, I am accepting, and I am free from attachments. Because I'm content, that's enough. Because I'm accepting, others may disagree and I welcome that. Because I hold no attachments I accept that I may be wrong and better paths and states of being exist, thus I enjoy the exploration without holding my beliefs above others'.

Sounds good that you are content, a lot of people don't have that. Experiencing non duality might be a beneficial upgrade if you don't already have it, but not everyone wants to seek it out. It is extremely difficult and can cause tremendous pain to do so and has a lot of risks. Seeing the 3 characteristics of reality is not fun, or if it is fun it is an acquired taste. There are ways to make it a lot easier, like doing so from the ground of jhanas, though, but it can be hard to achieve, especially for some people, I seem to be one of them. If being content the way you are is enough for you, that's great and you don't need to do anything else

 

On 2/13/2024 at 1:14 PM, Autumn Ren said:

You could say, but accepting things that others say that are clearly wrong is unproductive. Why should I care? How would I know? It doesn't bother me.

Yeah, trying to change other people's beliefs is difficult and you can't really force that to happen on someone, and it is not something I feel I can or even should do. I just try to figure stuff out for myself, and if people want to hear it, I'll share what I know and think so far. Whether someone else accepts it or not isn't as important. Maybe for some, changing people's ideas is really important and those people may need to exist, but it isn't for me and I suppose you either

 

Thanks for the questions. I hope I made somewhat sense. Terribly sorry for being about 3 weeks late, I don't check my notifications and don't expect people to post in my threads after a while I guess... I hope I made somewhat sense

[Autumn Ren]

It wasn't just to you but in general and thank you for commenting on it. Misha and I appreciate the perspective.

[TB]

Interesting new experience in meditation. I feel like I actually witnessed the full process of something exiting my awareness and coming back in. Like when something is in the background and you don't know it is there until you think about it or notice it. usually when something enters that background/not existing state you don't even know it happened, but I fairly clearly experienced my air conditioner entering that state and returning into awareness from it

 

that kind of sounds like the definition of arising and passing away now that I think about it. Shinzen Young always tells people to start noting when something is gone but it didn't make much sense to me, but maybe that is what he means

 

I don't think I actually experienced the arising and passing away nana though, but it'd be nice to hear what an accomplished teacher thinks of it

 

was pretty spooky and really a new experience. i don't think you are normally supposed to know you aren't knowing something, what it is, and when you stopped knowing it, and be aware of the succession of moments of not knowing it leading back into knowing it. usually you don't know when you stopped knowing something, and when you know something again it is so fast you missed it coming into awareness because it is just already there

 

or maybe i'm dumb lol idk, there was dullness present when this happened

[Rena Bonnie]

Today I meditated. I followed some guided meditations for access concentration and first jhana, and then sat on my own, trying to dig in. Metacognitive awareness got strong. I also got strange jaw pains, which I remember Daniel Ingram says can happen at the 3 Characteristics nana, which is fittingly the third nana. I don't know if that is what I was in, but experience was clearly altered

 

The mix of formless shapes and colors behind the eyelids at one point started wooshing to the right really fast, like being sucked into a vortex. Then a very bright and blinding light powered up and then faded away just as quickly as it came. Then at some point, I broke through and saw a glimpse at another world, but I don't remember what it looked like. I'm thinking a forest at night time. I remember it looked really inviting, and I think someone was there?

 

TB typed a report for this too, but it was much longer...

[TB]

OH BOY

here, someone who probably isn't even a stream enterer, is about to explain nonduality and why it results in the cessation of suffering, based on my current understanding of it all (synthesis of my own recent experiences, further past experiences, and the description of other people's experiences, and the suttas i have read or have been told about)

edit: also i used an image of the big bang to make this analogy lol, but ignore the big bang. i am not comparing what i'm describing directly to whatever is being pointed to, i just thought it was an interesting image to use to describe my point, don't take it too literally, though maybe it is more related than i think but i'm not trying to make that claim

 

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red text: center--place people think perception goes out from to observe the world--feling of self

purple text: base unprocessed senses

blue text: processed senses with content, meaning, opinions, stories filtered with it

 

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misperception. by this i mean this is trying to describe how the average person relates to their experience of reality. i will try to describe what i mean i guess lol

red text: i am this thing right here

               people feel as if they are their body, or that they are inside their brain or are their brain, or that they are some sort of locust in the center of reality, scanning outwards to reality, to receive information of the contents of reality

 

purple text: "this doesn't exist to me" "???"

              people don't see reality in this base fashion whatsoever, because their attention is such that it is permanently locked into the content of reality

 

blue text: "this is base reality right? It's just a chair [chairs are for sitting, that one looks uncomfy, and is made of wood. it looks kinda nice. i need to get a new chair to feel better]

             people have so many associations with base content of reality, that it is disfigured beyond recognition. they think the chair is real and objective, and they think by extension that all the things they think and feel about the chair are also real, or at least relavant or true in some sense, if even just for them, the something they think is there viewing it

 

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green text: this is just something, rather than nothing. all my ideas about the chair are just more things i assume relate to the chair

 

blue text: useful sometimes for going through conventional reality, but will also get out of control if taken seriousl. "chair" is a delusion that can be useful------but people make super complex stories that are equally a delusion and not useful. "there is a me that needs the chair to be happy"

 

                this can be useful, because it is what motivates people to do what they need to to survive, but it also is what motivates people to do irrational things that destroy themselves and others. it's just good enough to survive as a species, but is awful for being happy or at peace

 

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red text: things come into reality from nothing while simultaneously vanishing to nothing

              i'm not as sure where to fit this, but i feel my meditations have touched upon this, i think seeing it clearly enough initiates the 4th nana known as the knowledge of arising and passing away, and is irreversible once it is perceived, as your mind will start to do weird things that the progress of insight explains. this is basically the beginning of the journey

 

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red text: there is nothing here experiencing things, only experience. Identity expands to no longer be or be in the body or behind perception. Identity now flips over to being all that is--ie "one with everything"

              this is skipping some things lol, but is the end of the journey, and why i think people describe a flip or switch, and why people feel "oneness" as an experience. whatever sense makes you know where your body begins and ends will bleed into all of experience and merge, you feel as though you are the walls, the people you see, everything. even the boundless sense of space expanding indefinitely from your body, which isn't immuned to having sensations, as i recently have discovered i can feel metta outside of my body, and feel sensations that aren't located in my body, which is interesting because typically people assume the things they feel are going on in their body and a part of them. not making an ontological claim on the nature of this experience or how it really works, just stating this experience can and will happen with meditative skill, and is also related to awakening experience as well

 

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purple text: noticing the coming into and out of nothing is the Arising and Passing Away Insight, and means perception is on its way to seeing behind it. ie "cessation". --meditation is needed (typically) to see reality by itself separated from story and delusion (i think psyches also do this somewhat) -- somehow, you can perceive so thoroughly, you can see through this, backwards to "self" and realize nothing is there ie "cessation"

                 this is what i'm not as confident in saying. i can't understand how this works fully yet, but somehow watching arising and passing away of sensory phenomena, as it is for what it is, without being caught up in the content and stories that proliferate from it, eventually let's you have a profound experience of experiencing nothing at all, not even the passage of time, and it is what leads to being a stream enterer, the first stage of enlightenment

 

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purple text: after cessation, you've seen a glimpse of awakening. you drop belief in selfhood, but still feel as though you are a self. life is less stressful now, but there is still suffering

                  another turning point that can't be reversed as far as i know. you've seen personally there is nothing piloting the body, but you still experience life as though that is the case, but you don't believe it to be true, from an experiential standpoint. People also come to this conclusion intellectually through reading about it or agreeing they think the self is an illusion the mind creates, but it is different than an experience making this belief drop, rather than being reasoned into it dropping. experience dropping this belief feels like a ton of weight being lifted off your shoulders, and people may feel like they have new meaning in life, or like all their insecurities have just vanished, and all their fear is gone. it is quite an amazing achievement to make it even this far, and can make life much more wonderful, however it is still very possible to get tied up in content again and become too serious once again, and still find yourself suffering, even potentially majorly. following SIla (aka Morality) is supposed to help mitigate any avoidable suffering for yourself and others, but you can still mess up quite bad if you aren't careful or find ways to figure out how to fill despair if you want to.

 

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this is very hard to see, but i put the "you" at 1% transparency. I believe this is basically what it is like to be 3rd path. It is simultaneously very close to enlightenment, but still quite far away. the leap from 1% to 0% is a greater leap than no awakening whatsoever and stream entry

 

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here is arhatship

purple text: 1) the difference between 1% and 0% is a humungous difference, it feels like a switch being flipped, or consciousness flipping over/inside out--

2) this is nonduality. your identity is infinitely flexible now. there is no "me in here" and a "that out there". there just simply "is"

3) the body can still have a chemical reaction of stress or sadness, but it is impersonal

4) sadness stops being experienced as despair, and is instead experienced as poignancy

5) Life is more like when you feel invested in a good movie. you can cry and feel for the characters, but you don't freak out at what's on the screen

6) life can be fully immersed in without fear. an end to tears. the fun can finally truly begin

7) because you no longer recoil from reality and dissociate from bad experiences

8) you can fully embrace all of life without flinching

                i think this is what results form nonduality. obviously it is my conjecture based on hearing many many experiences of it be described, combined with personal experience (that is not yet nearly at that point obviously but still felt significant enough to make my view seem clearer to myself so far anyway). you can still live life and have fun, feel sad, etc etc, but you don't feel personally attacked in a visceral way at what is going on. i guess unless someone is particularly unstable, if their favorite character in a show runs into a problem, they aren't going to throw a temper tantrum or feel like they desperately have to do something to fix it, yet they can still be invested in the character getting what they want, but not take it seriously if they don't. it's like having your cake and eating it too. all the awesome stuff is still awesome, but you are enjoying it 100%, because for a person experiencing duality, reality feels dangerous so there is always some dissociation or fear of losing said good thing. even when people don't think of it too much, they get something good and think "okay, how do i not lose this, lol" or they think "this isn't as great as i hoped" or "this was great, but it's not so fun anymore, i gotta go get the next thing now". and for bad things... it can be horrific and visceral and terrible, people will do insanely irrational things and self destructive things to avoid pain, or even see pain as a way to gain leverage on others to get what they want, and it causes all kinds of awful psychotic stuff to happen in life. a fully awakened person will have virtually no motivation to be like that. I do believe habits die extremely hard though, and that someone can be a bad person, become awakened, and still be a bad person out of habit, unfortunately. This is why morality is extremely important to train, because you need to have the habit of a good and helpful person, so you can be a good and helpful enlightened person

 

this is i suppose mahayana and vajrayana's criticism of theravaden buddhism, as it is very very focused on the science of becoming enlightened, almost at the expense of everything else. mahayana believes arhatship isn't the end, and people should strive to be bodhisattvas, which are being who are not only enlightened, but are extremely virtuous and does what they can to skillfully lift others out of suffering

 

vajrayana also criticised theravaden, thinking that it is lame to think you are done because you are an arhat, even though you basically live in a safe space of your monastery where no one can criticise you and you avoid all conflicts and are totally detached from the world. vajrayana buddhism encourages after enlightenment, "returning to the market place". like to see if you are truly enlightened, spend a week with your family to find out if that's true, lol. you need to be able to integrate nonduality with life and be able to embrace and enjoy life, which is why they have tantric practices that usually involve how to navigate things like pleasure and pain while enlightened, as a theravaden arhat typically will just isolate from normal reality to avoid having to even entertain any of that.

 

not criticizing theravada, it has AMAZING tech for getting arhatship, later buddhism has tech for what to do after enlightened that i think theravada buddhism is missing, but i also think later buddhism sucks with tech that is good for actually getting enlightened in the first place, lol.

 

theravaden buddhists trying to help with enlightenment:

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vajrayana (zen) buddhist trying to get you enlightened:

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(i tried to find a short clip of just an old man startling someone by yelling or something lol, but couldn't and found this instead... uhhh i guess it still applies, they may try to startle you, they may wack you with a stick, they also like to confuse the crap out of you and do unexpected stuff... which is kind of what this video displays LOL so here you go, zen path to enlightenment) /j kinda but kinda for real from what i've heard lol

 

because my autistic mind i like really clearly explained processes and skills to develop, not stuff that i can't comprehend and am supposed to somehow hopefully maybe one day figure it out after contemplating a paradox and doing meditations of "just sitting, no technique, just don't move for a really long time and maybe something will happen lol good luck"

 

 

but yeah. i need to talk to others to understand where i actually am more for sure, and see if what i've laid out here has any merit whatsoever. i could be misunderstanding, but i think i'm on the right track. i think at most i may have had an arising and passing away experience 1-3 times in my life or so, but i could also be mistaken. i've definitely had experiences that sound like descriptions of it, but i'm never sure of myself lol, and i'm not inclined to think i've successfully achieved anything special ever (even though A&P isn't *that* special, but it is quite profound from the standpoint of not being on the path at all. it would also explain my inescapable existential angst lol, as unescapable existential angst is typically what one experiences between A&P until stream entry)

 

alas though yeah hope this was entertaining (if anyone has read my insane rambling lol)

 

 

edit: i forgot something i was going to say previous. i think this experience of nonduality is consistent among different cultures and just fundamental to humans. buddhists, especially theravaden, are the ones who introspected about it the most and devised what is currently i think best way to understand and get to it, but it isn't the only way to understand or get to it, nor do i think it is objectively the best possible, as hopefully more human exploration finds better ways to look at it and come to it

 

abrahamic religions too such as jewish mysticism, christian mysticism, and suffi islam, all describe nonduality as well, but usually more so like unity with god, and a realization of god's omniprescence. all things are god and we are one with god type of way of seeing it

 

hindus do as well, though they see it as realizing the true self, instead of buddhist interpretation of realizing there is not a self.

 

it's a shame most religions seem to have either incidentally or deliberately be based around this tech all humans have access too, but in practice, a lot of religious people are unaware of it and don't actually do practices to achieve it (ceaseless prayer/contemplation in christianity, meditation is jewish kaballah stuff, etc) and instead kind of just use the weirder stuff in religion to justify weird behavior

 

i guess i'm kind of a pluralist, i think many religions have some truth to them but there is also a lot of weirdness and junk. i think being religious is reasonable as long as you don't use it to twist your mind so hard into hurting itself and others. and i think it'd be extra cool to investigate the parts of each religion that describes the important aspects of this universal possibility of human experience, even in this very life.

 

that said, not everyone has the same goals. some people just want to have a decent life and get by and enjoy what they enjoy lol, no one should feel obligated to work towards awakening lol. maybe at least work towards co-existing with others well though

Edited May 21, 2025 by TB

[Seagull]

The way that enlightenment is described here, and the rich knowledge of religious history is fascinating.

- Alexander

 

On 5/22/2025 at 12:03 AM, TB said:

alas though yeah hope this was entertaining (if anyone has read my insane rambling lol)

It was a damn well good read! Excellent show! 📄 💙

- Reina

 

On 5/22/2025 at 12:03 AM, TB said:

i guess i'm kind of a pluralist, i think many religions have some truth to them but there is also a lot of weirdness and junk. i think being religious is reasonable as long as you don't use it to twist your mind so hard into hurting itself and others. and i think it'd be extra cool to investigate the parts of each religion that describes the important aspects of this universal possibility of human experience, even in this very life.

As an atheist, I see your point, there is some wisdom to be pulled out from religion, which can be done without becoming overly attached to the more cult like aspects of religion.

- Seagull

 

I feel a lot more open to spiritualism and religion than Seagull, I feel that soulbonds are real, yet Seagull sees it as a purely psychological concept.

- Zara

 

On 5/22/2025 at 12:03 AM, TB said:

that said, not everyone has the same goals. some people just want to have a decent life and get by and enjoy what they enjoy lol, no one should feel obligated to work towards awakening lol. maybe at least work towards co-existing with others well though

In order for life to be better for everyone we need to understand each other and ourselves, so it's very reasonable to want everyone to work towards that.

- Seagull

[Rena Bonnie]

Thanks for sharing all of you ^^ tb's surprised someone actually read that and replied lol