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The hamburger is also missing for me. In the meantime Bear, you can use desktop site...

 

But when I tried that it took me to the homepage for some reason...

 

I tried again and it was fine, maybe it was a one off thing

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I'm Ranger, Gray's/Cat_ShadowGriffin's tulpa, and I love hippos! I also like cake and chatting about stuff.

My other headmates have their own account now.

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It’s a glitch in the dark theme. Set the light theme as default which has it

EDIT: Also, as a side note, you can change your themes at the very bottom of the forums if needed

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