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[BearBaeBeau]

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[Michael Blackwater]

Dawn: So a few things to add. We have one new member, a fictive of Goro Majima from the Yakuza series. His coming about was kind of a collaborative effort between myself and another tulpa friend from TCen ( I know not everyone likes that place but its been a blast for me so far) He fits in quite well and helped us get back into imposition practice. We decided that we will have 2 more slots for any and all headmates until we hit a cap for atleast the next 5 years, being a larger system has many downsides even with its perks and we all agreed we need a cutoff point no matter what happens after we hit it. 

 

   Inner world stuff has been improving a bit, and some of our members have described experiencing things in there when they arent active by fronters standards. We are generally skeptical of it being PP but as Cinderella put it it doesnt matter if its contrsucted memories or not as its all equally real from an experience standpoint. We have plans on leaning into it alongside practicing a few PP and dual processing guides to generally enhance our activity rates. 

 

   A few of our older members have come out of their small stasis and we are working to make everyone have a bit of active time. It actually hasnt been too bad so far and we have found a few different ways to make it happen. I think Jade dislikes me though as my kinda sorta daughter Scarlet was one of the inactive ones with her and is only now getting the attention she deserves. It has been eating at me a bit but Scarlet doesnt seem to mind and likes spending time with me, so it should hopefully clear up without much issue. 

 

  We are a bit too busy to sit down and practice tulpamancy old way style like we planned, but that should clear up in a week or two and we are going to get much more into practicing and learning in a dedicated fashion. That being said we have made a few innovations in our practices which are proving useful. One of these is a way to make things like dinner feel realistic for everyone and have a good bonding experience by gathering in the inner world and eating with the current fronter so it feels more real for all involved. Its a useful trick for until we figure out taste imposition.

 

  We have also been researching plurality outside of tulpamancy for any potential knowledge that could be helpful and other psychological and sometimes mystical materials that could tie back into our tulpamancy work. An example is we are planning to use Jungs methods of active imagination to help flesh out our inner world and generally gain more experiences. We are also researching things such as NLP, hypnosis, different forms of psychonautics, among other such stuff. 

 

This should cover everything for now, till next time Dawn out :) 

[Michael Blackwater]

It's been awhile since our last post, and some stuff has changed and other stuff hasn't. Overall I'd say we haven't made nearly as much progress as I'd like and I need to see about approaching this from a new angle. The system has been fairly well though and most of us are enjoying life. We also developed a new member thanks to Dawn messing around with hypnosis files I told her not to. She's been a great addition since her arrival so she's earned her place and avoided dissipation.

 

I have always had horrible memory and it's starting to make keeping track of tulpamancy stuff difficult. I'm going to take some time to research ways to improve it as having everything fog over after a week or two isn't fun. 

 

I've been doing more research into different subjects as of late and am now building some new hypotheses for different tulpamancy related concepts. Maybe in the future I'll share some of them. I also plan on making a platform to share more of my system's ideas and work in the future.

 

Finally I'd like to try and revive this thread by doing bi-weekly or monthly posts. It may work or it may not, guess we'll see.

[Michael Blackwater]

OK so a couple things to note this week. 

 

We have started a new small project to help separate us more when switched by all having different handwriting styles. So far it's done pretty well and Dawn especially has made herself a unique style separate from mine although just as messy. Her's is almost like a pseudo cursive but with little in the ways of consistency in how it goes. It has lots of loops and is almost all curved. 

 

In a more wider and far reaching project we are investigating a concept that's been on our minds and has become something of a hypothesis we want to test. No real details for now but it involves obtaining better tulpamancy skills via a common but misunderstood type of psychological phenomena

[Michael Blackwater]

Aqua: Hello whovever cares enough to read this. We're a bit off schedule but Michael forgot so I'm going to do this now so he can do another on Monday or so. 

 

Over the last two-ish weeks we've continued working on the handwriting project and its gone pretty well so far. Mine is very similar to standard but written at slightly higher quality, something to continue work on for sure.

 

Some of our members, namely Cinderella and Majima, have become more active again and are persuing work on a project revolving around purposely training the mind to make false memories including exomemories. It should be interesting and if we view the results as something benefical to tulpamancy we'll consider making a guide on the subject. 

 

A couple of the others are still planning experiments on controlled dissociation and PP experiences. Dawn Michael and Astra have also been spending quite a bit of time continuing to study hypnosis and hypnotics phenomena. Their research recentally began to expand out into manipulaton and conditioning in general though and has been interesting to see.

 

Just this morning I Michael and Astra discussed the difference between system member behaviors and behaviors that affect everyone in the system especially when fronting. We've dubbed this Part/Tulpa habits vs. Gestalt habits (WIP). We have a couple negative gestalt habits we want to remove which ties back into the previous discussions. Hypnosis is well known for behavioral change and a couple of the others want to see if raising dissociation/seperatness between members may cause gestalt habits to break down into part habits. I'm personally more inclined to simply removing them but the others have always been more open to concepts of self experimentation, especially Michael. 

 

Beyond this we've also attemoted to resume hypnosis forcing with Sarah and plan to write out our own scripts instead of the one that caused her to form so she can have more autonamy while maintaining the forcing style she prefers for herself. 

 

I believe that should be it for now, I'll edit this if anything else comes to mind.

 

Till next time - Aqua of the Candlelight Society

[Michael Blackwater]

I'm back with some interesting things to report, nothing major to mark though. 

 

Many members of our system more inactive have picked up energy recently, others have become inactive in their place though. It's a problem that needs wored on but didn't have the time until recently. We've practiced co fronting more, especially for Spark and Ember. Sarah renamed herself to Sera and is now much more active. We've slowly gotten better at hypnotic practices which should prove useful in the future. 

 

I've had some interesting ideas as of late that I may use for a future guide once I hone them. It would be a gnereral creation and info guide but specifically for a certain approach that focuses on maximum seperation and skill growth. Essentially a tulpamancy guide for tryhards. Cinderella likes the idea and I think it would be fun to write. 

 

No new progress on the dissociation and exomemory experiments. They've been on the backburner for lack of a better term. We've also had something of a blending isue recently although it's a relatively minor issue. It may be related to a lack of sleep or desire to front or do things in general. Our memory issues are also becoming a problem, it's something I wish to look into but I'd rather not accidentally get diagnosed with OSDD if I say the wrong thing to the doc. That would close alot of doors for us we don't need closed. 

 

I've recently gotten more into my spiritual life and Dawn has become interested in my practices aswell which is nice. Since I got back into it I've had more thoughts about meditation and lucid dreaming which is something I definitely want to pursue further. I hear that there is a tulpa community on a lucid dreaming forum, if anyone knows more about that I would love to have some information sent my way regarding it. 

 

Overall that should be it for now, I'll edit this if I think of anything else. 

 

Thanks for reading - Michael of the Candleight Society