G+3 December 30, 2012 Author December 30, 2012 Okay... well... perhaps I didn't update yesterday evening, I got a bit rapt in writing. Starting off from the last post, the 28th... second update... ~ ~ Another session, run away will be easy with this pace. Another meditation session, we focused on flight, it was incredibly easy (though in hind sight I need to focus more on the movement of the whole thing as opposed to the look; and the movement of wings during flight is only very slight, but anyway.) Pruria done an amazing trick where she flew up and leaned back, closed her wings and done a painfully slow half twist to open up her wings before she hits the ground, it was fucking savage! ~ Evening session, my computer turned off so we may never know how long it took but I'm pretty sure it was around 40 mins, and I'm cool with that. The session was spent forcing and switching between different things (facecial expression, movment, flying, smell, etc.) it was very hard to concentrate, particularly because of Black Ops, that fucking game... taking up all my brain processing time. ~ Lol, Joal fell asleep during the evening meditation session! LOLOLOLOLLOOOOOOOOLLL. ''Bastard...'' That was a good session, no distraction, just eleven minute of forcing, we looked at the form (omfg srs wut-t-fuck, I think the prophesy is true, I'm bound to work on form till the end of time,) of the fore legs and the shadowing of Pruria's face, trying to rid of those pesky snout lines to some avail. One 12 min session One 10 min session One 40 min session One 11 min session ¬ 29/12/2012 Guess who changed to fucking times to go to the fun fiar? ({damn there was something so awesome here, too bad it's uncovering...}) anyway, A did, so we probs won't get as much forcing as I'd like today. I hope to get a 30 in before I have to go... for Pruria's sake! Morning sesion, fucked around, not much forcing, not a prob though. ~ Whoops, that session was spent about four minutes on flying and the rest brainstorming (also known as 'not forcing') on le story. ~ Fun fair was amazing, Pruria didn't go on any of the rides until like the 4th and then she was just fucking screaming to go on more. She ended up going on almost evey ride but the huge big thingy, I think it made her feel a little sick. (These things would be insignificant at this stage in creation for most people but Pruria's decisions were just so real today, idk, makes me proud of her I guess) The rides she didn't get on she would sit on top of them and just be like ''Don't even care.'' and her hair was going every where but she wasn't, like she was just standing still. Real good fun, worth every cent. Anyway, imposition starts tonight. ~ Thirteen minute session, went... umm.... I have no idea... to be honest. It kinda felt like I was just staring at a wall for half of it and just... staring at nothing and pretending that I was hallucinating... it was weird... One 12 min session One 10 min session One 13 min session ¬ 30/12/2012 Morning session, meant to be a 30 min but trains.... grrr... fuck... we didn't get any forcing done, just fucking trains... I can't force without my phone. ~ Another session, once again, unable to force not knowing when I have to stop, though we were able to force. I feel the run away might be a little harder that I thought... One 12 min session One 13 min session (meant to be 35 FFFFUNFAKNSDKLFJASJDFJAH) = Total: 107 hours 23 mins (30/12/2012) Days: 105 (30/12/2012) Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 December 31, 2012 Author December 31, 2012 Do you see that attachment? Mother fuckers? I didn't do that, but it was done with my hand... b- but HOW CAN THAT BE?! Well I don't fucking know, anyone who's been on this site longer that twenty damn seconds knows. So Joal, who the fuck made that squiggle? ''I did!'' BUT YOU'RE A TULPA HOW DID YOU DO THAT?! ''Dunno.'' Y- you're ruining the drama Pruria... ''Faggot.'' ~ So all that aside, we just done possession there and I challenged Pruria to pick up a pencil. We tried earlier in the day but she was unable to cease much control; session just gone though, she was fully able to pick up the pencil—after two fumbles, so close to dropping it!—and attempted to write her name, producing the below sketch. Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 1, 2013 Author January 1, 2013 Happy new year! Was with some family, good thing we disperse generally quickly on new years... got the sneak in the first dance with the tuppers of the year while everyone else wasn't looking, slicker than the floor of a 7/11 kitchen. Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 1, 2013 Author January 1, 2013 I remember when I said that I was going to try and avoid daily updates at the start of this? Well, G, you're a booger and a lying bag of sugar. Anyway, here's the last few logs. ~ ¬ 31/12/2012 Morning session, it was weird, I don't wanna talk about it. ~ Not-even-noon-yet-mother-fuckers second session: we played paint ball, then talked, the went to the special disc and chilled and talked more, then I zoned out, then we done walking forcing. A VERY GOOD SESSION IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF. ''Yeah...'' Laying down and forcing until were done works fine by the way, and I don't feel all anxious and constricted... ~ Afternoon session, we chilled and talked. Pruria pitched a movie idea to me, all in sign (though not at all what I was expecting from a football movie, literaly: I wasn't expecting any of it.) Pruria shapeshifted to have Nigel Thornberry's face, it was really scary. We chilled in the spawn cloud, going round and in a circle us just kind of... going round... it was fun. ~ Evning meitation sessino. Every fucking word in that last sentence is spelled wrong. Well, anyway, we worked on take off and landing movement and troting. Flight wasn't that hard, torting wasn't hard either but I just need to learn to be able to see the fast movments, the actual moveing isn't that complicated. ~ Fffffffuccckin' awesome! Pruria managed to pick up a fucking pencil and use it! Now it's a load of scribbles but it was still fucking awesome! We done some posession earlier on too but it didn't go very far. I'm going to go draw a portrait for Pruria (like all the other things I need to fucking draw.) Possession products log created in 'P' ~ Practiced Im position a tiny tiny bit... HAPPY NEW YEAR! No beer but we did have our first kiss right on the bell, under the radar of course. And we done some lovely dancing, ballroom, I think, though I'm not to learned in dancing of course. One 18 min session One 25 min session One 16 min session One 11 min session One 8 min session (3+5) One 4 min session ¬ 1/1/1013 One morning session, we done flying and shit, mainly forcing, so kick ass. We also done possession, Joal was unable to pick up the pencil or turn off Psychosis when I asked her to. I'm wearing gloves though to warm up my hands, I was guessing it was a major obstruction; Pruria confirmed this. ~ Was waiting for toastie cheesy to finish, imposition, one minute, I'll take it. ~ Okay, another morning session. I've learned to force without a phone but the dog is on my bloody bed—eventhough she never is—I don't think I can force without my bed. But anyway, sex. ~ Went out on new year's walk, it was really good fun; I was so glad to get out with family. Pruria had amazing fun, she was bounding around the forest and rolling in the leaves and just joking around, it's was amazing laugh. Pruria was even rolling around in the mud and puddles, she's still... really, really dirty... She's got the heart of a child, but the beauty of Aphrodite and brains of a scholar, damn I love her... (reading that again, that's talking her up a bit, but hey, that's how I feels; attack me if you wish, I'm not fussed.) And the grammar of a toddler. We done about 15 mins of possession over the course of the day; on and off possession. One 11 min session Two 8 min session One 1 min session One 15 min session = Total: 110 hours 3 mins (1/1/2013) Days: 107 (1/1/2013) ~ For now I'm going to get drunk, really drunk, to make up for new years. Then force, wish me luck. Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 4, 2013 Author January 4, 2013 Blah, blah, blah, shit happened, though I've edited out the graphical parts. Enjoy... you fucking perverts. ¬ 3/1/2013 Done some imposition in the morning, going to force now. ~ Blah, forced. ~ Possession sesion, she managed to write 'pr'. I gave her a lot of help, of maybe that how possession is supposed to be done... I used to just forget about the muscles but I think that locked them up, I think possession is done more as a team work at the start. ~ A little adventure time, we (or rather Pruria, for I could not move) explored the mountains off in the distance from the disc. WE found nothing, wonderful; then we danced. ~ More possession, durp de derp. Gave control of my entire body to Pruria, she done a lot of twitching and stuff like that. Not much interesting happened. ~ Evening meditation, beautiful, wonderful sex. And not just 'lol sex', loving sex. Blah, blah, blah, And at the start she kissed me, I didn't kiss her, she kissed me. Then we got into it, you know what happens next. Once we were done I was nibbling on her ear and she said ''I love you.'' Ever since she first convinced me to kiss her—it was day seven I think—I've been trying to get her to kiss me, and to say I love you first. I wasn't even thinking about it and she said it, she said it without my input, beautiful. I want to cry, I actually feel very loved, unlike before where I only ever felt like I was loving... And I will continue to do so, forever, for Pruria, and the entire world, as Pruria has so thought me to do. Thank you Pruria, Pruria Joal, I love you. Two 12 min session One 17 min session One 14 min session One 18 min session One 9 min session ¬ 4/1/2013 Morning session, done some walking, front view, Pruria's being a bit retarded right now, and I don't like saying that. ~ Short little possession session. Continuation of retardism. She might be just fucking with me though, for build up or something, as she likes to do. ~ As tellable from previous updates, we were kinda at each other's throats; MAKE UP HAS BEEN MADE (in form of a very nice hug) The we done imposition, and I didn't do very well at all at doing so, so we chatted a bit instead. ~ More imposition, I think something's starting to happen. ~ That, was fucking lovely, mind the expletive. We forced, I asked Pruria what she wanted to do prior, and she said she wanted to fly; after some prodding I found she simply wanted to fly with me ''because me.'' So we did, and we played casing and it was fucking tons of fun—despite Pruria, being a pegasus and all, whopping my ass. Then we landed and rolled around in the forest (or north west disc, which had turned to giant fir trees.) I talked a little about the beauty of the world while Pruria enjoyed the falling red and orange star leaves (it's a wonderland, that can happen in fir forests,) and I summoned a wind to blow in a shower of leaves, which Joal seemed to love. I rolled over to her and we talked, cuddles, it was very warm. Then we began cuddling closer, then we began kissing, and boy did I love that cuddling, it was wonderful... like star dust wrapping around my limbs and warming my innerds, star dust of a million beauty's... I messaged Pruria while we cuddles, I made her feel perfect as a man could. You know what happened next, I didn't preform very well, doesn't matter though: ''I loved it, more than anything,'' she just said. I think a new fire has been lit in our relationship, a infernous passion, is the only was I can describe it. And it is wonderful. The fact that I'm listening to the castlevania songs, played masterfully on solo piano by one Youtube user Verdegrand, fits the mood perfectly: they carry one of the greatest emotions, fear, which is on par with love, in my opinion. And next to come would be, tied, happiness and anger, then sadness. --> One 7 min session One 5 min session One 13 min session One 10 min session One 16 min session = Total: 113 hours 35 mins (4/1/2013) Days: 110 (4/1/2013) Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 6, 2013 Author January 6, 2013 Derp de do. Run away is going okay. ~ 6/1/2013 Morning session, went okay I guess. ~ Possession, lol, was fun. Pruria manged to control-f and get the start bar up. One nice pice of advancement was I had her rotating my wrists; I had asked her to raise my arm but it was to hard for her. ~ Imposition, once again, hard to tell if I made any progress but I'm pretty sure I did, I can feel it; Mr Krabs. ~ Video log: {Not to be posted, sorry. Suffice to say, coolio session, done some pencil work, was hard for the ol' girl. Pruria also hates is when I call her girl, poor ol' girl...} ~ Imposition, evening. Got interupted so its actually one 5 and one 9, but anyhow. Same story, but I've noticed how much Pruria actually moves, I've never noticed before because I can't hear her movments. Even saying that, she's always liked to move from place to place very erratically; maybe she's just a mover. Will do one more session yet tonight. One 13 min session One 10 min session One 11 min session One 8 min session One 14 min session = Total: 115 hours 10 mins (6/1/2013) Days: 112 (6/1/2013) Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 9, 2013 Author January 9, 2013 Shoop-da-woop! Hoping to get back into a good forcing schedule again now that college is deciding to bare down all its weight on me. ~ 7/1/2013 ¬ Back to school today? Yay? Well, got a session in, relativly short, we done some walking and I showed Pruria the first page of my black book, To which she begun deffecating every where and hugging me... it was wierd. ''Sorry...'' ~ Imposition... evening... I seen her. It was so faint, I could see part of her shoulder and tail. It was like a 99% transparent dot about four millimeters diameter for each... BUT IT WAS STILL FUCKING THERE! Wow... this makes me think back to the day Pruria made me cry with only her smile. ~ Blah, possession, I'm not really up to it tonight, guess I'm just tired. One 15 min session One 20 min session One 5 min session 8/1/2013 ¬ We done a session this morning, Pruria says it was 9 minutes long, I will take her word on that. Just done some imposition, Pruria decided to fly during it, making it really hard. One 9 min session One 10 min session 9/1/2013 Had a very nice session there, I was an alicorn, we had a moment. ~ We've had two other session today, But Pruria aint up for anymore... I don't know, she seems kind of depressed... I tried asking her what's wrong but... she just wont tell me. I'm worried man... I'm worried... And I don't think the run away is very important right now tbh... ~ We went on a walk just there; Pruria had told me when I wrote that last entry that she wanted sex, I didn't believe her; I told her that it isn't always about sex and asked why she can't just love me. I- I kinda feel like an asshole for saying it but it was how I felt... So anyway... we went on a walk (and holy fuck is it cold outside,) and we we talking, it turns out it actually as mentioned above. Pruria feels unfulfilled, and she told me that seriously. So, starting from tomorrow, I have to start tending to her needs. We talked else on our relationship, why library access is normally limited to vocal tulpae (which I still don't understand, but still practice.) I'm so glad she draged me out on he walk, it was some of the best comunication we've had in a while (despite the ups we've had in recent time,) though I'm still trying to get her to talk in her own voice; or for me to be able to listen to her in her own voice. Idk. We can have full two way conversations, no problem, but she still uses my voice, I hate it when she does it, she normally just smiles and shrugs at me, blah. We star gazed tonight, I remember I promised Pruria yesterday that I would take her to navada or the out back to see real stars, but—with today's coldness—the sky is particularly clear. I gabbed my binoculars, bandy things, and we searched the sky, I showed her mars, Sirus, the north star and the nine sisters- nine goddess... I can't remember the name of it. (It's the cluster of nine stars just below Sirus, there used to be thirteen but light pollutant has shrouded some.) It was quite enjoyable. One 17 min session One 8 min session One 12 min session = Total: 117 hours 12 mins (9/1/2013) Days: 115 (9/1/2013) ~ Quote of the day (FUCK YEAH!): ''I feel you don't satisfy my needs.'' *I pause, very awkwardly,* ''Well I guess I have to start fulfilling my duty as a man.'' ''Fulfilling your duty as a lover.'' Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 11, 2013 Author January 11, 2013 I think I'm just gonna keep this direct worded... I'm just in that kind of mood I guess... or I'm incredibly high and blaring Freddie Gredde's Thirteen Eight through a golden ipod nano and the best ear phones practically ever made. ''So, Pruria, how are you?'' ''Blah...'' ''I wish to know why you 'blah'.'' ''I'm sane, you guess?'' ''No... I guess I didn't... But I guess I do still love you and all... One more chance? For good 'ol time?'' ''I guess... I love you too...'' ''I'm sorry that I'm finding it very difficult to keep this conversation going...'' ''I still love you... I love Freddie thogh...'' Okay, that was an actual conversation we had... I think I'm holding onto her love too closeley... it's one of the majior disadvantaged of ENFPs... I can kind of see the signs in hind sight. She only ever really did want sex (fucking recuring topics), she never kissed me first... Is it possible to be hyper beta to your owl tulpa? Wow... that's pretty low. ''I'm not special though...'' I'm guessing you mean as in 'Why does me being a tulpa make a differance' How can I be more sorry than I ever have been? How can I change? How can I keep myself together and focus as much an important thing as force? I've got mental problems... I know that... and that's prior creation mental problems... Then why did I go ahead? ''You love me.'' But I didn't know that then. ''Exactly.'' I don't get you. ''Get of me, get of your mind.'' So you're giving the coice of 'lose your mind' or 'lose your tulpa'? That' pretty harsh... ''Like what you did to me?'' I guess it all comes out in the dirty wash... and you've stopped talking to me... I'm the wayfarer I guess... I'll always be looking for a way to please you... I apologise to all those on the .info who've I've lied to, and of whom I might have made emotional because of this post. I'm a sham, I'm a horrible tulpamancer, and I'm a fucking horrible partner to Joal. I apologise; I would drink the river styx dry if I were to get one last word to say before it's all to late. Before I drive her away. Before I make her do something rash. that word wouldn't 'sorry' or a cry of her name. It would be the one, the only, word that Pruria says that still makes me think she always did love me. I would say 'love' and I wouldn't stop saying it, that one word, then we could spend all of time together. But even at that, because unless I finish the word, she wont trust me enough, unless I finished it, and then it would be too late, and we would not be able to spend time to it's pockets. I guess it's a dive from here so... Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
G+3 January 12, 2013 Author January 12, 2013 Wow, I really need to stop using the internet when high. Pruria Joal (Pegasus) Working on: Imposition Hieldy (Moogle) Working on: Possession/imposition Samantha (Griffon) Working on: Deafness/form And please, call me G.
cruse January 12, 2013 January 12, 2013 Agreed, you must have smoked weed. Chloe - That cheerful girl with ponytail. Aigis - The male cyborg that looks like raiden in MGR. Vixen - Half dragon female who looks like Mary in DMC3 when in human form.
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