Avalanche's mindhouse

[Avalanche]

The reason does make sense though. 1000 posts in off-topic means nothing, but 1000 posts in general discussion or whatever means something.

[Avalanche]

Listening to white noise again.

Hoping to actually hear shit. I got tired of not having super real voices in my head so I'm resorting to this. I'm going to ignore anything that just sound like my inner voice redirected at me. That's what it was and it's no longer enough.

 

I'm going to full tupper voice. No half assed shit.

[Sands]

Not sure if you should ignore everything in case you like need to talk and shit woah.

[Avalanche]

Ignore what I used to think was voices omg.

 

It was just my own mindvoice I guess with me still parroting. I just got so good at doing it effortlessly that it was just that.

 

Feels so fake man.

[Sands]

Why you think that mate.

[Avalanche]

Some of the responses I get, actually most of them aren't surprising. In normal conversation you can't really guess what another person will say. In my head it's the other way around. Everything feels really bland and it's like I'm always steering the conversation and it always goes where I wanted it.

[Sands]

Another person you meet on the streets doesn't share a brain with you.

 

There's no way you will never know at least the basic idea behind what they're going to say. Hell, you know them the best and you have lived with them their whole life, yeah? It is possible that they're trying to talk of your interests because you want to and they want to make you feel happy or something, have you ever asked them if they do that? Or if you all just always want the same thing, I guess that could happen because they hang around with you so much. They know that you won't get angry if they say shit you don't like, right? Or well, would you get angry?

[Avalanche]

If I ever ask them questions I either get a really generic answer or they even stumble for a bit until I think of a possible answer and they go with that themselves. Really fake.

 

It's not a case of them not being themselves or whatever, it's a case of them being very... uncreative and unsurprising.

[Sands]

Could you help them with that then? Didn't one of them like drawing or something. More hobbies, more thinking? Do they do a lot of thinking when they're alone?

[Avalanche]

I dunno. I could help them but wouldn't that just be talking to myself again? Or whatever? It's like I was going down the wrong path, instead of just slowly down the right one.