Lacquer June 5, 2013 Author June 5, 2013 As for progress, there hasn't been any. Sorry for that; I'll get to it. I think I'm going to abandon trying to think of names, as she will just say her name when she will. No need to do anything about it before, or at least no need for me, now, as I have already put an disproportionate amount of thought about her name into my thinking about my tulpa. I'm also abandoning thinking of weird things to do, and servitors, and other tulpa ideas, and the like. I'll explain the butler thing I mentioned a while ago, but outside of that, I just want to put all my available thought about tulpas into my own. Speaking of that, even though I've "come back", I will not be spending nearly as much time here as I was. Although it is beneficial to be here some, making it the majority of my time spent having to do with tulpas is not. I've also come to terms with the fact that I will not be able to be with my tulpa every day, as I am not that focused. I have thought it over, and it won't be neglect. It would be neglect if I started then quit, but simply starting and going at it slower and more intermittent than it probably should be won't be "neglect" specifically. It won't be good, that's for sure, but it isn't this huge, evil think I'd be doing. I will go through with the first steps making her soon, so hold out for that. So yeah. I'm going to try to pull most of my effort from things other than my tulpa to my tulpa. Hopefully, there will be news soon. You're back! So, did you start your tulpa? No, but I will soon. Has anything major happened while I was gone? As for that butler thing, here's a condensed version. I thought about this when walking from point A to point B, where nothing much will happen during that. I thought, "hey, what if I had a servitor or tulpa or something be an autopilot during this?" This idea expanded to other things, for example, me wanting to get something, but feeling lazy or whatever, so I would have the tulpa/servitor or whatever it is possess me and get the thing. I wouldn't personally be exerting the effort, or something like that. After all this time, it seems silly and unlikely to work. Others are free to take the idea and make it work, however.
Lacquer December 14, 2015 Author December 14, 2015 [align=justify]December 13, 2015 (Week of December 6, 2015 to December 12, 2015) Howdy! I'm getting back into the game. Today, I'm starting a weekly post every Sunday where I detail the work I did the previous week. For example, today is the Sunday the Thirteenth, so I'm going to report what I've done the week of Sunday the Sixth to Saturday the Twelfth. As a bonus for this week's post, considering it is my first post here in what, just about two and a half years since I last posted here, I'm going to give a little overview for my tulpa-making-forging-forming-creating-mancing plan. Oh, before I forget, the reasons I'm planning on making weekly posts instead of daily posts or whenever-I-feel-like-it posts are because keeping up a regular report should help motivate me to actually get some real work done, and at this point I know I'm not going to have enough progress to report daily or any frequency shorter than weekly (hell, I'm don't even want real progress yet, but more on that later). So! On to the report. This week, I've been getting myself reacquainted with the tulpa.info community, doing my best to help out where I can and getting back into the feel of tulpamancy. Oh, something I should mention; all that bullshit about redefining terms and coming up with my own weird words for all this stuff? I'm throwing that all out. Looking back on this report, I'm actually getting a little red in the face from embarrassment. But that's behind me now, and I'm a new man that's going to get some real work done. As I mentioned, I've been rereading through my PR. Amidst all the garbage, there's some pretty good stuff here, if I do say so myself. Some very basic ideas for how I planned on going about all this stuff will stay the same. Symbolic personality "infusion", the intermediate waiting room thing, certainly the personality list is going to be almost the exact same, if not completely intact. My reasons for making a tulpa have been largely unchanged, so that's all good. But there is a lot of chaff I have to separate from the wheat, and I plan on doing that soon, distilling all of this into a manageable, concise (ha. me, concise?) plan. -third person -buddhist tulpas self doscovery -jungian anima -look at self while not in wonderland much like dream checks; close eyes, imagine surroundings, imagine changing where I'm looking and moving my limbs, all for practise -time table, intermediat goals, checkpoints, reevaluation points -guides, fede, tulpa.io, tulpawiki, tulpa info front page and wiki, new guide dor front page,reddit -reading prs eventually, but not comprehensively like vosaiu; have been reading new posts as they come up there -meditating to clear mind goal at least 30 minites per day -wonderland work and visialization practose (hope doesn't make me nearsoded sticking in the waiting room (no longer calling it theblounge due to forumbname, when did that change)) before bed -my pr, evanuate personakity traits -transjtion from weekly to weekly plus extras when midweek sognifogant progress happens, to daily (noncommittal due to potential for 1-3 day gaps in posting from being unable to work), discuss possibilities for what to do when daily reports seem ppintless and whay would make them pointless. -describe waiting room (think of beter name, taking suggestions) -wonderland door lead to white room, build from there, idea for blue sky, curve slightly to make horizon, and leave thete for now. -explain how used white room as a paracosm previously, once just to act out a little thing in my head for entertainment -discuss "she" tulpa and how personality and gender are what I'm giving her, with her coming up with name and form, though I have discussed it. (since last here, I developed a liking for glasses and twintails probably because I got into anime during my absence) --discuss how my ideas earlier were weord for form, like weird hair colors or eye colors, and I'dprobably pick something like my own brown hair and hazel eyes of I had to choose pre-deviatoon rigut nkw. Still, curky hair like tatsumaki, the pink bitch from noragami, or hush acidkullylaby would atill be cute. -save some bullet points for next week, make a Next Week on Lacquer's Box section as bullet points -for first few weeks, reasserting my plan will prbablg bebmore important, so it's kot really a "bonus" thing loke ai thoighy -discuss deviation of a host's forst and singular tulpa vs multille tulpas amd what it means for the nature of tulpaz -weekly segment on general tulpa ztuff amd make a thread discussing ot which ljbks back to my pr to advertise kt. -ask kreugermeister about witd vitd tulpaforci g sleep. discuss about how peoplethoight forcing whole fallingasleep bad fkr new tulpas rae subconsiosu -talk about how things have changed, less imposition more possession, getting real similar to soulbonds or tumblrs headmate thing. look up what those arw to get a better idea -discuss dofferemce sbwtween reddit tolerant of blantant roleplayers or people lying yo themselves, tumblr, 4chan, here -tulpazuggestions pastebin -discuss my generally more conservstivr thibking about all this, quicker tk call things roleplayong, think soulbonds arent realx, more concerned about parroting, trying to follow old guides like faqmans, etc -little hoarse joke -whole process is evolving as I typethis -tell kiahdaj specifically when successful -discuss the autonomy of a wonderland, if tulpas can warp it as much as the host can, granting that ability, changing on its own, etc. -discuss plans for having a much higher aversion to parroting/puppeting and allowing myself to doubt sentience. This will make the process slower, but reinforce the "separateness" between us. I've been reading how people feel too connected with their tulpas and distinguishing whose thoughts are whose. Prevent the sort of negative things discussed this thread: https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-improper-usage-of-the-mindvoice-s-effects-on-thought-independence-and-the-solution?highlight=mindvoice -tradeoff between earlier sapience and improved parallel processing. -featureless mannequin/wooden posing doll base form instead of "ball of light"-style preform See you next week, Lacquer P.S. Wow, that ended up being quite the wall of text. Kind of reminds me of my first few posts in this PR. Ha! But this time I'm determined to not go the way I did last time.[/align]
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