Lacquer's Box

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[align=justify]April 13, 2013

 

Nothing much to report other than this fucking awesome thing got posted. I swear, if this thing works, I'll write up a short guide on it. Fucking genius. I'll set my goals low (read: reachable), and creep them heigher each week. I fgue that 200 minutes is a good start. At the beginning, I'll also include handicaps (if I'm using that word correctly) like including the meditation/centerin/calming/"getting in the mood/mindset" that occurs beforehand in the 200 minutes. I arrived at tha number by multiplying 25 (the time of the longer of my two official mindscape sessions) by 7.

 

Things are looking good, my friends.

 

Yes, smells are good, 'fiction. (Geddit? 'Fiction? Because you use both the name "fourfiction" and "nonfiction"?)

 

Goodnight,

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[Mr. Duke and His Attorney]

Aw shit, I'm stealing the crap out of that plan.

[Lacquer]

[align=justify]April 14, 2013

 

Weekly goal: 200 minutes in-session

Accomplished today: 0 minutes

Remaining time: 200 minutes

Average remaining time for rest of week (6 days): Approx. 33 minutes'

 

Damn.

 

Goodnight,

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[Lacquer]

[align=justify]April 15, 2013

 

Weekly goal: 200 minutes in-session

Accomplished today: 0 minutes

Remaining time: 200 minutes

Average remaining time for rest of week (5 days): Approx. 40 minutes

 

In regards to the horrible couple of posts I made yesterday, I really should not post when I'm on the verge of falling asleep...

 

Speaking of which, I think I am going to seriously tone down on my participation in the forums until I am showing some real progress. My participation has been waning, anyway. I'll still be here, reading the forums and posting my reports, but I won't bother others with my inane drivel.

 

Goodnight,

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[Lacquer]

[align=justify]April 16, 2013

 

Yeah, as long as I'm completely failing at following my plan, I will not post that thing again.

 

I need to update my guide list.

 

Goodnight,

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Whoops. No April 17 update.

[Lacquer]

[align=justify]April 18 (and a little 17), 2013

 

Stuff's happening, not tulpa stuff. See you guys in a week.

 

I'm pretty sure this will happen, so that's good.

 

Goodnight,

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[Lacquer]

Continuing my tulpa-ing lite, I just want to say that "Zephyr" could be a good name.

[Lacquer]

I think I'm going to get rid of the main wonderland and just keep the lounge for a while. Well, not "get rid" of it, but just lock the door to the main wonderland. In the lounge, there is the table, and there are cabinets, so there shouldn't be the issue with not having the workshop.

 

Also, in some of those little flashes of what I think life with a tulpa would be like, there was something about how tulpa memory works. Since how tulas function is largely determined by belief, and since this momentary vision showed that I believe that this is how they work, my tulpa will likely work this way. The way I'm talking about is that they can remember anything from my memory prior to the point at which I gave it my memories. My personal memories, knowledge, and media. Anything after this point, she would have to either experience it first hand (via imposed-watching or mental television (apologies if these aren't clear as I type them, I understand what I mean)) or take effort to "retrieve" it from my memory, sort of like the hard thinking that accompanies that "it's on the tip of my tongue" feeling, but easier for her, because she's a tulpa.

 

Hah, maybe making these informal updates will lessen the spontaneous recovery mentioned earlier. Oh well. I think I might be taking a more casual approach until I have another tulpa crisis, at which point I'll deal with it by switching tactics, as I have these past few tulpa crises.

[Lacquer]

I'm going to read through the research section like I did with the Guides section. It's relatively small, and it probably has some good information.

 

I had a short wonderland session today; it couldn't have been more than five minutes, if even that. I locked the door in the lounge to the main wonderland, added the stool and bowl for forcing, adjusted the size a little, and made a music box. The way I locked the door was materializing a lock on the door, materializing a key, locking it, then materializing the key. The thing with the stool and bowl was accomplished by just materializing the stool, but then going over to one of the cabinets lining the walls and getting a bowl from there. The adjusting of the size was achieved by doing a sort of force push on the northernmost wall (the one that I see immediately upon entering the wonderland) and it moving back like a reverse garbage crusher. I'm not entirely sure about the music box thing. I think it was a half-thought about how there is no library in the lounge, but I went through with it anyway. It's designed like a music box my grandma used to have, so I think that's good for attaching it to my memories.

 

Thinking of the music box made me think of other relevant things. The major one of these is how the music box differs from the library. It led me to think about the real purpose of the library. Opening the doors to the library and unlocking the music box have the same effect: giving her my memories. How they differ is in how the library would enable me to see what she sees, by having her bring out a mindform version of a memory, in the form of a book, set of slides, video, etc.

 

In other news, I can feel my tulpa mojo coming back. Expect big news soon.