Lacquer May 5, 2013 Author May 5, 2013 Okay, I thought of something. What if I specifically set a certain time of the day that should be available most days aside for forcing? That should work, right?
NeonKnights May 5, 2013 May 5, 2013 As long as you don't feel too restricted by being bound to that time, I don't see why that wouldn't work. I guess the hardest part is actually getting started. Once you overcome that obstacle, it should be easy enough to keep going. I think. "You've got to believe to achieve." -Hank Hill
Lacquer May 5, 2013 Author May 5, 2013 Yeah. I remember seeing something that said "motivation is getting started, dedication is continuing". I consider myself pretty dedicated, but having very little motivation.
Kiahdaj May 5, 2013 May 5, 2013 One thing that may help you get going is the fact that you'd already have a near-"complete" tulpa by now, if you'd started as soon as you discovered them, and that each day you spend not working on one, is another day of progress that could have been made. "If this can be avoided, it should. If it can't, then it would be better if it could be. If it happened and you're thinking back to it, try and think back further. Try not to avoid it with your mind. If any of this is possible, it may be helpful. If not, it won't be."
Lacquer May 5, 2013 Author May 5, 2013 Maybe I need to ruminate/meditate on that for a bit, because the first thing I'm getting from it is reaffirmation of myself being horrible at this. Don't worry about it (not that you would), it'll all work out.
Mr. Duke and His Attorney May 7, 2013 May 7, 2013 Christ, man! Get a hold of yourself! You've got the same problem I did and/or do. You're over-saturated. Pick a few key things, targets of sorts, and focus only on them. Compartmentalize everything else (in regards to life and tulpas). Pretend it doesn't exist. Do not try to fit in everything at once. Don't try to use a number of techniques or little tricks to help out. Consider cutting yourself off from the internet as much as humanly possible and re-organizing your thought patterns. I've found that extended internet use shatters your mind. Especially your ability to focus on something. If you want to "hear" better, work on silencing your mind as much as possible. You won't be able to keep it up for extended periods of time; I mean, shit, that would be monk-tier dedication. And assume that everything else in your life is wrapped up in this. You're not going to be able to split it all into separate categories; everything will bleed into everything else. Work, forcing, school, the internet, friends, family-life, etc. “Just sick enough to be totally confident” -H.S.T. "Same thing; a soul's made of stories, not actions." Progress Report
tania May 7, 2013 May 7, 2013 9 pages of threads of what was supposed to be your Tulpa journal and you have nothing at all. You need to ask yourself if you are truely serious about doing this or not or just playing games with yourself. All you do by doing that is make yourself feel bad about it all. You blame lack of motivation but you are motivated to do other things eg the wonderland. You just keep thinking up excuses for yourself. If you truely want to do this you need to stop doing that and just do.. and get started NOW. Not making up more excuses like .. I'll start tomorrow or next week but now or be true to yourself and admit you arent going to do this or not anywhere in the near future anyway. People have wasted their time reading your journal, looking forward to hearing of your start but its just at this stage nothing more then talk. I suggest to put a warning on your first journal page about that you dont have a tulpa yet and your journal is just talk. If you "truely wanted" to do this you could be motivated as you have shown you can motivate with other things to do with this. Sorry for saying this but someone needs to say it and you've been blunt with how you feel about things I do so Ive decided to be blunt with you too. You spent more time tellling others what they should and should not be doing (and often getting mad at others for what they are doing) rather then focusing on doing yourself a Tulpa. Maybe my post will give you the motivation you are needing.. who knows. Jesse (human male) DOB 16th April 2013 Working on imposition
Lacquer May 7, 2013 Author May 7, 2013 I'd say I'd go radio dark for a while until I get around to actually doing it, but that wouldn't work so well. I said at some point here that this is more of notes for myself than publicly reporting progress. I also said, when I was originally going to update this every day, that I needed to do that to remind myself about tulpa continually, so that I wouldn't forget. Same goes for posting regular on the forum. Sorry if it's bothered you, but I'm doing it for myself, in my own, bad, way. I'll try to post less, if that helps. Also, I want to do this when I'm comfortable and I know that I have the ability to consistently force for extended periods of time. I don't have that concentration and willpower (or practice) to do that yet. That's why I'm bullshitting around in my wonderland for God knows how long until I manage to get to a level that I feel comfortable with bringing a tulpa into the world. Educated people don't start having kids as soon as they hit puberty, do they?
tania May 7, 2013 May 7, 2013 I'd say I'd go radio dark for a while until I get around to actually doing it, but that wouldn't work so well. I said at some point here that this is more of notes for myself than publicly reporting progress. I also said, when I was originally going to update this every day, that I needed to do that to remind myself about tulpa continually, so that I wouldn't forget. Same goes for posting regular on the forum. Sorry if it's bothered you, but I'm doing it for myself, in my own, bad, way. I'll try to post less, if that helps. Also, I want to do this when I'm comfortable and I know that I have the ability to consistently force for extended periods of time. I don't have that concentration and willpower (or practice) to do that yet. That's why I'm bullshitting around in my wonderland for God knows how long until I manage to get to a level that I feel comfortable with bringing a tulpa into the world. Educated people don't start having kids as soon as they hit puberty, do they? Lacquer.. i wasnt saying post less (ts your thread so you should do what you wish) sorry if I sounded that way (now I feel bad.. I hate people telling others what to do). I was just trying to say it would be nice if people were warned so they didnt read throu all the posts, looking for when you started your Tulpa etc. The thing with this stuff is that one develops better concentration and that while working on the Tupla, one dont even need to have good concentration to make one (unless you want to be like the Tibetians :) I hardly do anything at all in a deep focused state on my Tulpa. I cant visualise almost nil (Ive put in 50hrs in the past 3 weeks on my Tulpa but still cant visualise half his face well) but that hasnt stopped me from making another Tupla which is going very successfully and making daily progress. Ive not a clue what's really in his wonderland but that matters none at all either. One dont need skills to make a Tulpa, all one has needs is to know what one wants and do it. Needing to have good concentration skills to be able to make a Tulpa is another excuse you are using to yourself. If you arent comfortable about making a Tulpa.. that is a valid reason not to do it and admit to yourself that you need time to be comfortable first. best luck OMG Im like Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde. Jesse (human male) DOB 16th April 2013 Working on imposition
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