Fourfiction's failventure with his tulpa

[Guest]

Well done, you accidentally performed self-hypnosis.

Its quite common, and can happen when you are most relaxed.

I do it regularly.

Hell, that's what I've always done, too; sit in a cross-legged position, fold your hands (or hold them together, whatever), and repeat the same sentences over and over in a very relaxed voice. You'll be in self-hypnosis in no time. I merely discovered this from experimentation, though.

[Guest applesauce99]

The funny part is that I hold my hands together /exactly/ the same way each time, but sometimes my crossed legs differ. It's kinda weird.

 

I generally repeat the word 'relax' since it's short, simple, and easy to remember. I think the subconsious listens to shorter phrases better too.

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Today I'm thinking of tulpaforcing in the morning...oh wait, it's 9am. Fuck, time to force.

 

I'm moving on from personality because a small part of me believes it'd be easier to achieve sentience or at least notice it if there's a form the tulpa can interact using. It's a little hard to develop a naked female body but the face seems to be the hardest part to keep 'steady'. It always changes as my train of thought blasts by. I'm tempted to base it off of someone I know, but that would be awkward as fuck. I read somewhere that the subconsious remembers EVERY single face it's seen in your lifetime, so I'm thinking of writing a book in my wonderland full of every face for my tulpa to read and decide for itself. This is if I can't choose a face myself. Thoughts?

 

I'm also curious of imposition before noticible sentience...imposing my form as I actually develop it.

[Guest applesauce99]

I got lazy and tulpaforced around noon.

I went into my wonderland and tried to create a form. Got the weirdest boner while tulpaforcing my nude chick, but ignored it. Got the basic body down, an idea of a face, and a shitton of clothes lying around for her to try on/pick. Then I left a book-bag full of crayons and said she could draw all over the walls of the wonderland apartment if she felt artistically inclined.

 

I traited artistic creativity during the 5+ hours spent on personality, but I'll see if anything happens later.

 

Also, left a book for her to read that gives her the ability to use vocal communication, assuming she doesn't know how to already. Its like the books in skyrim that you read for a split-second and suddenly +1 skill.

 

I plan on another sesh tonight to see if anything happened, and to visualize more of her form.

[Guest applesauce99]

Did another sesh, wonderland was filled with black crayon swirls everywhere. Couldn't tell if it was my subconsious parotting or me because whenever I come to the wonderland I mentally 'reset' it anyway. Mostly on accident. Well, not knowing if I was parrotting or notreally pissed me off/confused me. I then formed more of Claire's body and clothing, and left her with paper and pins to hang artwork if she wants. If could flesh out an entire piano I would leave one there too. I kept talkng to her as a way of narrating and she would respond. Again, sometimes I would parrot and it would be obvious to me - but sometimes she would say something I wasn't expecting, even though I was expecting an answer. It wasn't nearly as obvious as me parrotting but I'm sure it was.

 

Accidental parroting is A MAJOR BETCH!!!!!1!!!ELEVEN!!

 

I plan on forcing again tonight, to work on personality, form, and wonderland.

My self-suggestion is that I will notice/reach sentience on the 10th hour. I hope autosuggestion works...

[Guest applesauce99]

Yeah, I've found a better way to tulpaforce personality so I'm back to that.

 

Before: burn through the traits in half an hour tops.

Now: study each trait and it's subtrates for 10-20 minutes each.

 

My traits: Kind, Caring, Loving, Intelligent, Artistic, Creative, Problem-Solving, Curious, Open, Talkative, Conversational. They are so intertwined I can easily just umbrella them under Kindness, Intelligence, Openess.

 

I tulpaforced these traits probably for half an hour to 45 minutes total, focusing on an umbrella trait and all it's subtraits for a good 10 minutes. I definetely felt like this sesh accomplished something. Yay.

 

I'm fucking exhausted.

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Short version:

 

I was obsessing on the result more than the process, thus making myself rush mindlessly through a tulpaforcing session to hopefully achieve results faster.

I decided to take my time and enjoy the process that last sesh and am glad I did. Will try that from now on...

[Guest applesauce99]

DAMN. Today was a donothingandgetnothingdonefuckmylife day. What a waste of day, didn't even tulpaforce yet. I will tonight, though, since I CANNOT skip a day at any cost. I'm just fucking exhausted lately, I wonder if its from tulpaforcing?

[Guest applesauce99]

I skipped a week or two, but am starting up again where I left off. I'm trying a new approach where I treat Claire as an imaginary friend and parrot responses to questions I ask. When I don't need to parrot, I won't, and recently I don't feel that I need to parrot more than 50% of the time. I'll ask my tulpa a random question and hear her voice responding. Usually, it's what I want to hear, but every now and then the answer is unexpected.

 

Not sure if sentience or boredom, will try to force tonight if I don't fall asleep first or during the process. I'm going to engage in conversation with my tulpa in lala-land and see how much she answers on her own.

 

Stats:

Emotional response: none

Voice: roughly half finished

Imposition: none, she's all in my head

Sentience: unsure, but doubt slows the process

Current 'step': narration

Next: Imposition

Awaiting: SENTIENCE

[Guest Anonymous]

A WEEK? Seriously bro?

[Sock]

Check 'em

 

> tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Wish-me-lots-of-luck-fourfiction-s-tulpa-journey?pid=14366#pid14366

> 14366

 

Son of a...!

[Guest applesauce99]

A WEEK? Seriously bro?

 

I'm a lazy dumbass, and my tulpa will probably kill me for it.

 

And sock....what?