ShyGuy65 June 17, 2012 Author June 17, 2012 Thanks for the link, it has nice diagrams. I tried polyphasic once before, but I was a faggot then and didn't even try to stick to it. Also it had incorrect timing and was in general a piece of shit. Everyman 2-nap looks the best for my usual schedule, so I'll try in a few weeks. Can't transition sleep cycles during these intense tulprocrastination periods, after all!
ShyGuy65 June 20, 2012 Author June 20, 2012 First time missing a day. *sugh* Here was yesterday's post: I did an hour in the middle of the day and got through 6 more trait groupings. Unfortunately, I was distracted by pone fiction and did not do another hour in the middle of the day like I was planning. However, since I did not find any Cutie Mark Crusaders polyamory fics, I have no material to read tomorrow and will go ahead with multiple during-daytime hours. I am doing an hour before bedtime like usual. Kimiko is still lying on a slab of subconscious matter with glowing sigils and some shit. I think it spontaneously became an important symbol. Representing her budding consciousness or something. When I address her with personality traits, I am able to say them in my mind and go over visualizing her body and exercising imaginary physics with touch and motion. It helps with visualization. I am not sure my subconscious is allowing for psychic emotional communication (emotional responses). And for today's: I did almost an hour last night of combined visualization and personality, and today did another personality session. I have finished the personality list for the first time! I am planning to do it at least once more before next Tuesday's time limit. Will try for two more hours today, will expect at least one. About 9 hours so far. Day 7 of 14 to the experiment. I feel myself becoming more depressed, or melancholic, as I feel stuck in a lethargy. I need to work on something involving programming. Right after I finish this fanfiction.
ShyGuy65 June 23, 2012 Author June 23, 2012 I am a humongous faggot who has not forced in days. ;_; This melancholy really got me down, and the sleep loss did not help. I am sad to say I no longer believe that the two-week sentience goal is attainable, in part due to my wonderland not quite having enough autonomy from my will, in part due to faggoty sleep requirements and my unwillingness to maintain my mental health. So, the experiment is off. I have, thankfully enough, narrated to Kimiko for the past few days, and occasionally visualized her form, so all is not lost. My subconscious has not yet performed a miscarriage. However, my concentration to this effort has been severely damaged. Asking for a 2:1 hour to day ratio has seemed a bit overwhelming, so I will forgo an extra hour and instead visualize and work on personality for one hour per day while narrating throughout. I will also stop keeping track of hours, they haunt me wherever I go. Perhaps... If I had listened to Fede's tones from the very beginning, this incident would not have happened? I like to think so. Still not going to listen though. Just call me ShyFaggot.
Sock June 24, 2012 June 24, 2012 Perhaps... If I had listened to Fede's tones from the very beginning, this incident would not have happened? I like to think so. The tones aren't magical tulpa-formers that will eliminate all bumps in the creation process. Hell, I don't even bother with the things, and I think my tulpa is forming just fine. Also, keeping track of hours seemed rather unnecessary to me as well. It just seems to add anxiety more than anything else. Anyway, don't stay down, as long as you kept Kimiko in mind, she shouldn't go poof back into your subconscious. Keep working on her, and I'll keep reading your progress. Sock Cottonwell's Sketchbook, Journal, and Ask thread. Peace
Guest June 24, 2012 June 24, 2012 The tones aren't magical tulpa-formers that will eliminate all bumps in the creation process.That was never implied, either, but they certainly remove a lot of bumps. They're mostly useful for visualization and reaching trance states, both of which are insanely useful when forcing the personality, visuals, and perhaps when imposing one's tulpa(e). Hell, Armadeus found his tulpa to become a lot more vocal with the Theta Tone. Also, keeping track of hours seemed rather unnecessary to me as well. It just seems to add anxiety more than anything else.Gonna stop counting hours like ShyFaggot as well. I hate having to remember back all the time on how much time I spent when and calculate it.
ThatOneGuy June 24, 2012 June 24, 2012 Don't get lazy and slack off. Lower your ratio if you want, but still try to keep it steady. Fede's tones are good for concentration if other stuff doesn't work, so if they don't just keep on looking for what works for you (no shit Sherlock). This is practically all about what works for you, and if they don't work then don't sweat it. Orange juice helps with concentration headaches.
ShyGuy65 June 24, 2012 Author June 24, 2012 I think I have recovered from most of the shit feels I've had. Ready to continue~.
ponytheus July 11, 2012 July 11, 2012 i always thot it should have been called 'the key to ITS heart', mean as it sounds. that character (the brunette) is rather...changeable. his name is vapes.
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