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Is it normal to feel guilty about doing certain things after creating a tulpa?

 

My tulpa is still pre-sentient, haven't even fully completed the visualization or personality yet, but I've been feeling these strong waves of negative emotion and I'm not sure if it's coming from me or my tulpa.

 

For example, it's pretty much impossible for me to masturbate now. Just can't do it. I feel horrible and disgusted with myself whenever I try to masturbate to porn and I can't masturbate to my tulpa since she's pre-sentient and that kind of feels like it would be a mix between rape and parroting.

 

I also feel horrible if I miss a tulpa forcing session or if I don't narrate as much as usual. I can't really explain why I feel horrible about it, it's like I'm feeling someone else's emotions.

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Could just be feeling responcable for another life now, so you feel guilty for just about everything.

Also not being able to masturbate is your problem. I just see it as a way to stay healthy, like digesting. Digesting is also gross.

 

God I hate the human body.


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Hmmmmmm. I just finished fapping to this NSFW, and when I did, I didn't feel guilt at all at the thoughts going through my head.

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I feel like shit whenever I don't tulpaforce/narrate. Mostly out of guilt that I'm not giving her enough attention and significantly depriving her of any enrichment, because beyond that, shes just idle and trapped in my mind. Also, I feel a little weird about fapping now, but I still do.


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You'll need to resolve some of your internal conflicts.

Feeling bad about not tulpa forcing means you feel some responsibility over your tulpa and that's fine.

 

Regarding fapping, just fap to something else... or are you by any chance making a tulpa of your waifu and don't want to cheat on her nor do you want to accidentally "rape" her?

You could fap to what you used to fap before, or you think she would mind you doing that? If you really can't fap to anything else than her appearance, you could do that as long as you're fapping to the appearance of some particular character and not your pre-sentient tulpa, but then, do you think you'll get any awkwardness when she is sentient? The troubles of making waifu tulpae...

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In regard to the topic, I have no idea where those emotions are coming from. Never had anything like that. I am curious about what tulpae think about their creators' 'habits' though. Will stalk this thread.

EDIT- actually forgot that I have felt bad about not giving my tulpa attention sometimes. I tulpaforce about 2 hours everyday, but there was a period when I didn't do any wonderland shenanigans for a few and Uzo asked if I could go back to doing that for a bit. He tends to feel more comfortable in there, at least until we get toward full imposition.

 

Hmmmmmm. I just finished fapping to this NSFW, and when I did, I didn't feel guilt at all at the thoughts going through my head.

 

Were you fapping to anyone in there besides Vinyl? I'd feel pretty jealous if I was her.

 

Also, that is not how you're supposed to smile at the camera.

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Your tulpa doesn't give a whack if you jack, so smack that sack don't slack.

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Hm, I'm not clopping or fapping to my tulpa, but I can understand your situation.

 

I have a few drawings of my Tulpa lying around on my desk. Whenever I feel the urge to relieve myself, I have to get them out of sight. Firstly, because I don't want to get into awkward conversations with her; and secondly, because it just feels uncomfortable.

I also can't masturbate right before a session or directly afterwards, because the thoughts of her are just too strong.

 

It could also just be a phase. Anyways, is it really that bad not to fap for a while? I don't consider your behavior or feelings to be unnormal.


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That's something I haven't thought about.

 

Really, now that I think of it, I don't think I've jerked it since I started creating my tulpa.

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