KM & RD

[KruegerMeister]

8/18/14: I was about to share my furry blanket with Dash, but I remembered that she had fur. I shared it with her anyway. I said that I liked to imagine her coat as pretty long/soft, but she said it was more like a buzzcut. When I read a D/S story, she said that she didn't think she was "the type for [making her pet beg]." When I laughed at some of the stuff on Fundies Say The Darndest Things, she asked "What about 'Love and Tolerate'!?" We hung out a bit more after that, but I forgot to log it.

When I almost started to do some soul-searching out of boredom, she said, "You're really going through with it? I told you to delay it." "it" being pony hypnosis, which I was told requires soul-searching beforehand.

I watched tons of AMVs with the song "It's Terror Time Again", one of which used scenes from the Transformers Prime cartoon. I remember dreaming about a CGI purple robot dragon a long time ago, but I could never figure out where I knew it from. I theorized that it was from Transformers Prime. Dash said that she was glad I'd done that (something about tulpas helping their hosts better themselves). I said that tulpas aren't "supposed to" do anything.

 

Are these longer entries a problem? Should I sacrifice detail for digestibility?

 

[You have 3,310 views. I don't really think digestibility's a problem.]

Edited May 26, 2020 by KruegerMeister

[KruegerMeister]

8/19/14: I thought about how complex some of my stories are, and how I could possibly keep them all straight. Rainbow Dash advised me to "take it one at a time". When I ate out at a sushi restaurant, I ordered the shrimp tempura. I tried dipping it in the tempura sauce, and Dash liked the taste. Even though I was neutral, I dipped most of my tempura in sauce for Dash's benefit. She said that I didn't need to do that.

Edited May 26, 2020 by KruegerMeister

[KruegerMeister]

8/20/14: When my mom talked to my doctor about my bottling things in, Rainbow Dash agreed with them that that's bad. I thought about 1984; people could circumvent Newspeak if they had tulpas, to whom they could communicate in Tulpish. Dash laughed at this. When I asked why, she apologized, but broke into another laughing fit before she could elaborate. When I looked out a dark window, I saw Dash outside. She "banged" on the window (I heard knocking, but she wasn't touching the glass). I told her that she could get into the house through the reflection on my end. She appeared in the house, with a trollface (she was only pretending to not be able to get in). When I wondered if I should tell my parents about her, she said that...I forgot.

[You should've logged that sooner.]

The gist of it was that while being known IRL would be cool, my parents probably wouldn't understand. When I misspelled "night" in a text, she said that it would have been funny if it had been autocorrected to the N-word. I said that she has a weird sense of humor. She said mine's weirder.

[SakuraSky]

Bottling up emotions is bad... I do the same thing and hold everything inside until I end up lashing out at those I care about... it's something I'm trying to work through. Sometimes music helps, along with drawing or writing... pretty much anything creative.

[TheSanctuary]

Indeed it's not a good idea to bottle stuff. I've been doing it for years by dealing with it in imaginary very violent reactions to the scenario that annoyed me- which while they seem to completely satisfy my irritation seemingly permanently however I do worry a lot that it's only a matter of time :: twitch :: Hopefully when Vixens vocal I can do some internal defrag and scan disking to find the loose wiring before someone gets electrocuted - yay analogy. Aaanyways. Still readin the updates! Keep em comin I don't mind the long ones at all.

[KruegerMeister]

8/21/14: Before taking a nap, Rainbow Dash and I talked about what it would be like to reveal her existence to my parents; our plan was for her to appear in a dream in which I do that and help me attain lucidity. It didn't work, sadly. I wondered whether or not I should reveal RD to my parents, and she insisted that I don't. When I'd heard that a man who'd carved a swastika in another man's face had gotten 11 years in prison, I thought that he should have gotten a life sentence. I wasn't man enough to voice that opinion. Rainbow Dash offered to possess me and voice that opinion, but I declined. We chatted about random stuff.

[KruegerMeister]

8/22/14: When I thought about "tulpa shift" (using pony hypnosis, and then one's pony side becoming a tulpa), RD said that she didn't mind that happening. Ironically, my ponysona (the potential product of a tulpa shift) said that tulpa shift was impossible. I briefly freaked out when my ponysona talked to me, because I don't think I can handle another tulpa. I wondered whether or not I'd have to give up fast food if I were a pony, and Dash chastised me for planning for pony hypnosis, which she compared to planning for an apocalypse that never comes. We didn't hang out much. I asked her if I should go back to setting aside an hour every day for active forcing, and she said no. She seemed mad. I asked what was up. She threw her hooves up and yelled "pony hypnosis!" I told her that I'd only soul-searched for a second or two, and that the wondering about pony dietary habits was just a random thought. I advised that she cool down in our wonderland. Once she'd calmed down, we worked on trying to figure out the reason she'd exploded like that. We got as far as "maybe it has something to do with college starting tomorrow". I talked to my ponysona a bit. I thought that there were two options: interact with/sustain him, or ignore him and not get on Dash's bad side (because he's a product of pony hypnosis). He said that he could be Rainbow Dash's male form.

[KruegerMeister]

8/23/14: I welcomed my ponysona-tulpa (Keystroke) to the group. When Rainbow Dash glared at him, I explained to her that, just as D.A.V.E. (from Batman Beyond) wasn't the sum of his origin stories, my ponysona-tulpa wasn't defined by his origin (created via all my hypnosis stuff with Dash). I retroactively applied this to hypnosis: the trance can be thought of as him possessing me; I turn into him using the same visual used when Rainbow Dash possessed me. I wondered if complimenting his appearance was narcissistic, and he said it wasn't. He joked about something-or-other (I don't remember what).

{Bloody log it!}

I asked if I could use him for third-person perspective wonderland adventures. He suggested that he, Rainbow Dash, and I...I'll just say "hang out together" to avoid violating the "no sexual content" rule. Rainbow Dash said that he was "making [my PR log] too R-rated", and he referred to himself as "[my] inner pervert." I asked him if he had memories, and he showed me one of my hypnosis sessions (that's a yes).

[KruegerMeister]

8/24/14: Keystroke changed his coat to white. I'm planning to have either Rainbow Dash or Keystroke possess me for half of the term so they can "get known" to the world. I asked them who should possess me, and neither of them care. I figured that I should have Rainbow Dash possess me so that I can get in her head and figure out specifically why she's against pony hypnosis. I misspelled "neither", and wondered why I misspell words; Keystroke said that he has a photographic memory. I wondered why he became a tulpa, when I don't have tulpas of OCs. He said that Rainbow Dash and I had wondered about having a foal (ie, not a non-pony).

While I listened to an audiobook of " My Immortal", Keystroke briefly cosplayed Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way.

{Do you have to do her full name?}

What? It's funny.

 

Dash LOL'd at the start of Chapter 2. When I watched one of The Amazing Atheist's videos, Keystroke said that he wasn't a fan. He suggested listening to Mozart. He also bobbed his head to a rap song I overheard. When I saw a girl in short shorts, he whistled, and said that he was trying to help me get a girlfriend. He suggested rewatching Fullmetal Alchemist. I told him that I was worried that the chimeras might return if I do that, and Rainbow Dash said that she'd "protect me" (keep that from happening). Keystroke said that had happened because the chimeras had been novel, the implication being that it wouldn't happen again. He freaked out when he heard that there were way more girls in my dorm than guys, for some reason.

Edited May 26, 2020 by KruegerMeister

[KruegerMeister]

8/25/14: Keystroke facehoofed when I apologized, for the hundredth time, about the whole "should I kill him off?" thing I went through on 8/22/14. Back then, I was under the impression that my only options were "interact with Keystroke, who was formed from pony hypnosis, thus angering Rainbow Dash" and "ignore/kill him to avoid pissing Dash off".

I've got an open bag of chips and no clamp to close it with. I had the idea to use some pen caps as clamps, but then figured I could use paperclips. Keystroke brought up my pen-clamp idea. I said, "Touché, Monsieur." He said, "I'm not French, I'm British." I thought about having pizza for dinner, but Keystroke said he liked variety. I told him that I'd be sitting at a different table, and he said, "Nice compromise." When I ate some chocolate, he briefly developed brown spots. When I squeezed a drop of Juicy Drop Pop juice/gel onto a gum wrapper and stuck it in the freezer, I giggled at my science experiment; Keystroke called me mad.

{As in a mad scientist. 'Doctor Frankenstein' sort of thing.}

I told him that was the same science/curiosity that gave me the idea to create Rainbow Dash, and that lead to him existing. I wondered if that (commenting on my having created them) was (somehow) racist. I asked Rainbow Dash if it seemed like I was spending more time with Keystroke than with her, and she said I wasn't.

Edited May 26, 2020 by KruegerMeister