KM & RD

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7/13/15: I went to OMSI. One of the exhibits at Ripley's Believe It or Not was a camel made completely of toys. RD said she could probably fit in the camel's hump. I had steak for dinner. The steak acted as a trigger for Nina possessing me. She liked the melon. Later, I walked into my bedroom. I saw Nina lying on the bed, and she turned around to look at me as I walked to the opposite side of the room. I could see her if I looked dead-on, but not out of the corner of my eye.

 

7/14/15: I went out to eat at a sushi restaurant, and ordered the tamago (egg omelette) nigiri. Dash said that the tamago hadn't tasted that good the last time she'd had it.

 

[Tamago es muy "meh".]

 

Shou easily possessed me, by me copying his movements.

 

+One of us is full...is it the body, or a mental thing...?+

 

Nina: Science :D

 

Me: after lunch, I noticed that when Nina possessed my eyes, my field of vision faded to white around the edges.

 

[Oh my gosh, this is so cool!]

 

^ ^_^ ^

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7/15/15: I forgot to log stuff. At 1:00AM, Shou sent me a head-pressure. I apologized for not logging stuff. RD said it was fine. I asked Fluttershy if she wanted to psychoanalyze the perpetrator of an improvised mock crime scene.

 

^You should probably go to bed, Krueger. It's 2:16AM.^

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7/16/15: I had trouble getting my dog to go out. Nina possessed me to try (the theory was that Nina's canine body language would leak through, to which my dog would respond better than a human who isn't really that assertive). I asked my tulpas if they'd say I was selfish.

 

[i'd say you worry about us too much.]

 

I asked my tulpas for help worldbuilding a cosmology myth about the sun, moon, and stars.

Later, I watched "Party Pooped" (the MLP episode where Pinkie struggles to keep the visiting yaks happy).

 

[There was that episode with Dash, then this episode with Pinkie Pie...didn't they already do the "ponies break down" in season one?]

 

^I liked Fluttershy's deadpanning. Also, I think this is more intense breakdown-ing.^

 

[Lesson. Zero. That was in tense; mind-control up the wazoo.]

 

When I watched Family Guy, Fluttershy said she wanted to watch the "Total Recall" episode. Dash agreed to watch it because Fluttershy wanted to, and Keystroke went along with it.

 

[*deadpan* Addendum to my previous thing: "wazoo" apparently means "anus".]

 

She said more on that in brief, choppy sentences, but I forgot what they were. The gist was that Peter Griffin was rubbing off on her. Later, I read that hypnosis could affect a still-developing mind in ways it couldn't affect a fully-developed mind. I got worked up about the possibility of Digibrony's Twilight reading affecting me and "steering me off course", even though I only listened to it fully twice, once in late 2013, the other time which resulted in Keystroke temporarily becoming Dusk Shine. Dash put me in a trance to calm me down. She told me that "hypnosis only works if you consent", meaning the Twilight reading wouldn't affect me, because I didn't want it to.

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7/17/15: I thought I heard my dog's claws clacking on the wooden floor, but she was sitting still, on carpet. I figured it was Nina. When I heard my cousin would be coming over, Fluttershy said that she wanted to meet her. Later, I did an impression of Fluttershy, which she said was good where tone was concerned.

 

^Pitch might be hard.^

 

Either RD or I brought up the topic of dating. She suggested the forest as a locale, but made a remark I don't remember. Fluttershy offered to remodel the trees.

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7/18/15: I felt some really good feels that lead to happy tears; RD mimed wiping the tears away with a wing. I wanted someone to agree with me on a controversial thing, and wondered why my tulpas didn’t cut it.

 

[Part of you isn't convinced we're sentient?]

 

^That could be it. It could probably be solved with a deep-down hypnotic suggestion.^

 

[Hey, how come that's kinda your go-to solution for everything?]

 

^I think it's because it worked so well with the incident last May. The "flickering in and out of pony form" thing.^

 

When I took a bubble bath, RD dared me to lick the bubbles. Later, I lay in bed, and RD imposed herself on my chest.

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7/19/15: RD said that yesterday's imposition was related to the good feels I experienced. Later, I let RD hypnotize me--the trance was like a great big callback to the trance that resulted in Keystroke. I tried to watch Naruto online, but my usual site was down, and Crunchyroll only had subbed episodes. Fluttershy suggested I try Dailymotion.

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7/20/15: I didn't do much with my tulpas. When I watched a video about Alex Jones, I made a derogatory remark about him, and Rainbow Dash made an even more derogatory remark. I'd write it out, but I don't want him to sue me for libel (as writing the remarks in here would turn them from spoken remarks into written remarks) if he ever finds this. Dash said I was being a coward, although she used a more vulgar word. While reading /r/Tulpas, I wondered why not much visual imposition had happened in the recent past. RD said it was a mix of lack of skill on my part and lack of desire on their part.

Edited November 28, 2020 by KruegerMeister

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7/21/15: I saw "Ted 2" in theaters. My tulpas and I settled on sour patch kids and a corndog as our food during the movie.

 

[We're not even in the theater and already I'm thinking the movie's awesome! That's how awesome it is :D!]

 

RD flew across the movie screen when the Universal logo appeared. We went to sushi afterward. Dash said that it was "kinda playing out like a date". She imposed herself next to me in the restaurant booth.

 

[For some reason, the vanilla cream soda tastes how I imagine beer would. My host doesn't drink much.]

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7/22/15: RD flew at a car, into the windshield (like a bird). I was cold, so Keystroke possessed me (hoping that his fur would warm me up). Shou possessed me to eat calamari. I watched episodes of Fullmetal Alchemist so Shou could get his voice right. He found human!Shou Tucker's nose weird. After this, Nina walked into my room and licked my hand. I could feel the mental impression of her tongue on my skin.

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7/23/15: Nina possessed me to eat a pizza topped with bacon. I had the idea to have RD help me with the DIY project, by having her possess one of my hands while being imposed next to me.

 

[How do you think that'd work?]

 

We tried that out, and it kind of worked; I could sort of see her form, unless I tried to focus on it. I let her hypnotize me and turn me into that brown earth pony Keystroke had seen that one time (my wonderland form). One of the things I said without thinking was something like "I'm meant to be a pony" (which would mean I'm some kind of ponykin). I wondered if that was species dysphoria, and if it related to the DIY project. I confirmed that it had been me who said that, and not one of my tulpas speaking through me.

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7/24/15: Rainbow Dash speculated that "I'm meant to be a pony" was in fact related to the DIY project. Keystroke said that "even if" the project was finished, it wouldn't "undo me" (meaning that, assuming my unconscious reason for exploring pony hypnosis was to fill a hole that the DIY project can do an equal or better job of filling, finishing the project wouldn't somehow negate Keystroke's existence). I came up with a theory: Premise 1) Rainbow Dash has a memory of being sentient and in a dark void. P2) I watched the 2003 version of Fullmetal Alchemist as a kid (I have a memory of scenes from the early episodes, so I know this is true). P3) when I was a kid I saw one of the later episodes, in which one of the antagonists describes his time as a sentient creature in a dark void. Conclusion 1) Dash's memory of being in a void is confabulated.

Fluttershy pointed out that P3 was unfalsifiable. I noticed that Dash's sweatshirt was red on black, and the antagonist wore black clothes with red lines on them.

 

[There is such a thing as coincidences, Pet :P.]

 

I thought that "I'm meant to be a pony" was just a thing caused by lowered inhibitions. I recorded a possession session to see if Dash could make her voice come out if my mouth. The technique used was: I imagined myself transforming into her, and then repeated "Rainbow Dash is in control". For the actual test, I/she repeated aloud what she (mindvoice) said.

 

^We should probably wait a bit so that time gets rid of any bias.^

 

Nina said I should go to bed when I noticed it was almost 4:00AM.

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7/25/15: I had trouble coming up with mechanics for a magic system. Dash said to let her handle that. Nina speculated that she and Shou were walk-ins.

 

Nina: You binge Fullmetal Alchemist, we show up.

 

Me: There were a few times where you guys would do things that referenced the characters you were based on...hmm...

 

I reviewed yesterday's possession recording. I sounded nervous in it.

 

[i think all we need to do is pitch it up to get it to sound like me.]

 

I wondered how much progress I was making with the DIY project. RD said "Does it matter? Just keep at it!" I let her hypnotize me to be her pet. A thought that popped into my head was "this feels so right".

 

[Again, heat-of-the-moment stuff. "DIY project" stuff.]

Edited November 28, 2020 by KruegerMeister

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7/26/15: I spent several hours comparing tulpas and fictional tulpa-like entities. Dash connected "this feels so right" to being a pony to the DIY project. Keystroke said he wanted to possess me, so RD hypnotized me and told me to relax and let him take control. I felt pressure in my shoulderblades during this.

 

{She told me to go to bed possessing him, so, that's what we'll do, then :). I wonder if he'll have my dreams like he had Nina's.}

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7/27/15: I don't think I had Keystroke's dream. Then again, I don't remember it. I asked Nina and Shou what their relationship was to the Fullmetal Alchemist characters.

 

+Meh. I'm feeling, kind of odd, but I think that's because you're asking in such an upfront manner.+

 

Nina sent me a head-pressure and said that she wanted to possess me. She also said that some stuff I read (that said intrusive thoughts couldn't become tulpas) got to her. When she tried to go to sleep, a pic from Courage the Cowardly Dog popped into our head, something which didn't happen for me (well, it did, but the problem was solved when I had a dream parodying/mocking the image).