KM & RD

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6/12/15: Nina complained when a loud vent turned on that it was too loud, so Shou covered her ears with his paws. I went back to sleep, and had a dream in which things in the TARDIS didn't work right (the wallpaper was majorly different, and hot and cold were reversed on the stove). Fluttershy said that this dream could reflect my reaction to the Reddit posts I'd read last night. I went to a store that sells all different kinds of chocolates, and RD and I planned what we'd buy to celebrate...some significant event. After this, we went to an ice cream shop, where Nina bought ice cream with bits of caramelized bacon in it.

 

6/13/15: I went out to eat. When I had trouble thinking because of the noisy music and other people's conversations, I had Rainbow Dash use hypnosis as a form of earplugs. I realized at 9:30PM that I'd forgotten to log anything else. My tulpas and I worked on our wonderland. RD said that she didn't really have any ideas for how her and Keystroke's house would look, and suggested that messing around with the Sploder level creator would help generate ideas.

 

6/14/15: I worked on finding evidence to support the existence of tulpas. I read about Behavioral Evidence Analysis, and asked Fluttershy if she wanted to practice this method of crime investigation together later.

 

^Sure.^

 

[There's a country song on the radio right now. I'm good at singing it--other than slight problems anticipating the lyrics of a song I've never heard before. I'm thinkin' it's cuz Ashleigh Ball's both Applejack and Rainbow Dash. Or maybe it's cuz I had something to sing along to.]

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6/15/15: given that the past few entries have been relatively short, I asked my tulpas if they felt neglected. Rainbow Dash said "we can survive this."

 

Nina: I don't think we're as fragile as you think.

 

^I survived for months and you didn't even know I was there.^

 

Later, I tried imposing RD. She suggested using a mirror. I looked in a mirror and imposed her, but she told me that the lighting was off. Once I corrected that, she flew upstairs. I wondered why imposition wasn't happening much, and then asked her if she'd wanted to be imposed. The bottom line was that none of my tulpas like how cynical I've been for the past few days. Later, I saw a mental image of 2003!Nina when I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth. In the mirror, I could see Nina sitting in the doorway. I was a bit unsure about what her body language meant. One of us came up with the idea of starting off by observing Shou's body language, since I'm a biped, he's a bipedal dog, and Nina's a quadrupedal dog.

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6/16/15: I woke up at around 9:00AM. I said that I'd go back to sleep, and asked any of my tulpas to impose themselves when I woke up. This didn't happen.

 

[You woke up to a phone call. That kinda disrupted stuff.]

 

I saw Nina lying across my bed. I could only see her from her a head-on angle, though. Later, Keystroke tried out a new form: a satyr-like cat version of Edward Elric (Ed-with-cat-ears from the waist up, a blonde cat from the waist down). Dash and I talked about tulpa metaphysics for a few minutes. I let her hypnotize me.

Edited November 28, 2020 by KruegerMeister

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6/17/15: I forgot to log stuff. I told my dad about my alexithymia, which Rainbow Dash congratulated about. Later, I thought about legal stuff, and RD worried that tulpas could get in legal trouble for existing. We worried about the legality of our "songs by tulpas" idea.

 

6/18/15: I didn't do much with my tulpas today. RD and I made up some riddles for fun. I'm working on a short story about politics in a fantasy setting. I'd gotten writer's block, and I realized that I'd been focusing on writing with a three-act structure instead of my usual "story now, chapters later" style of writing. I read an article online that said that the three-act structure was bullcrap, and got really excited about this. Rainbow Dash compared my excitedness to being on meth. We sang a duet of "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu". I tried to imagine her and Keystroke's house, but I had trouble.

 

[We'll probably go wallpaper shopping tomorrow.]

 

{Hooray for Google Images!}

 

6/19/15: RD and I worked on imposition while I was having breakfast. I turned around and saw her standing on a table. She flew over to me and sat on a chair. I thought her mane looked a bit off, but I was wrong. Later, she hypnotized me in under a minute. Nina possessed me during dinner. She possessed me for a bit longer, but I think that slowly faded away (evidence: I feel like I'm the one writing this sentence, not her).

 

6/20/15: I worked on fleshing out the areas in our wonderland. I also imagined conversations between Rainbow Dash and Hasbro's legal team. Later, she hypnotized me and commanded me to pick up the slack on that DIY project. Before bed, I thought about the "seeing other people" thing Dash and I had tried to do. When you have to see other people, that's usually a sign of a failing marriage. RD said that our DIY project would reignite the spark in our relationship, and Keystroke (as Ed) said that he was glad she was sure.

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6/21/15: I forgot to log stuff.

 

[*facehoof*]

 

When I looked up "liches" on Google Images, one of the results was a skeletal sorcerer/mage that glowed a bit. RD said that it was cool "because glowing".

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6/22/15: I asked Keystroke if he was still studious.

 

{I'd say...yeah.}

 

RD wondered if she and I could actually be romantically attached despite our alexithymia. When I entered my room late at night, I saw Nina lying on my bed, when I walked over to the lightswitch. I turned on the light, and it was Sarah. I complimented her on adapting to the change in lighting. Nina told me something in a generic voice, but then she paraphrased herself in the "right" voice. I asked her about this, and she said...both of us forgot what she said, but the bottom line is that she decided to speak in that pitched-down Brina Palencia voice she originally had.

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6/23/15: Nina and I wondered what she could get as a tattoo. I asked her if she would get one for her sake or just because I wanted her to.

 

Nina: I think it'd be cool. We could put it in a highly-visible place so people don't confuse me with the FMA character.

 

Me: we didn't do much after that. We planned for her to show up in my dreams tonight. I asked my tulpas if they felt neglected, and most of them said no, but Fluttershy said that she did, a little, so I hung out with her.

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6/24/15: I didn't have a dream that included Nina. After I read some MLP fanfics, Keystroke spent some time in his Dusk Shine form. When I walked into my bedroom and was about to turn on the light, I saw Nina's eyes and a bit of her face and hair, like she was lying on my bed. I turned on the light, and she was still there. I asked if that was going to be a routine occurrence. Later, I proxied for Nina for a "what hobby suits you?" test. I tried out improv-style visualization again (which I don't think I've done since march of last year): I was in Fluttershy's forest, at night. Nina pounced on me. Shou gave me a very slight head-pressure and said that he wanted Nina to get out more. I wasn't aware of his motive, and I took this as a good sign of independence.

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6/25/15: When I thought about online games, Nina said that she liked shooters. I read an article about mimicking other people, which said that a lot of social stuff happened unconsciously. This scared me, but I had trouble thinking of a way to own those social things--I could say "these unconscious processes happen in MY brain", but I see it as mine and my tulpas' brain. Rainbow Dash said that those processes were around before my tulpas were, so I kind of do own them.

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6/26/15: I planned on seeing a movie today. I asked my tulpas (mainly Rainbow Dash) if they wanted to do the Walter Mitty Routine.

 

[i think that backfired. Your original plan was "see a movie every week".

-.- You worried too much about me.]

 

^We could just do it for fun.^

 

Keystroke guessed that his mane would be medium-maintenance, if real-world logic applied and he needed to shower. When Adam Lavine's "No One Else Like You" came on the radio, he danced along in catboy!Ed form. He seemed slightly effeminate. I wondered if I came off as effeminate, and RD rhetorically asked if it mattered.

 

^*whispers to Nina* I think somebody's falling for gender stereotypes.^

 

I watched the movie. The Routine didn't happen. Later, I asked my tulpas how they felt about gay marriage being legalized throughout the whole country. Fluttershy got SUPER excited about this.

 

{Woo! Go humanity!}

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6/27/15: I forgot to log stuff. I ordered a pizza with bacon on top, which Nina possessed me to eat.

 

Nina: It was pretty spicy.

 

Me: when I watched "Make New Friends, but Keep Discord", Fluttershy liked that the episode focused on her character. Rainbow Dash said that Fluttershy had a cute laugh. When the episode reached the part where Discord leaves the cottage (before the opening credits), Fluttershy asked "You think Fluttershy knows he's upset?"

 

[What is this, Mystery Science Theater 3000?]

 

^*shifty eyes* maybe. *rofls* sorry, I just can't get over that laugh. I wonder why I've never done that. Also, what that implies for sentience--^

 

{Nothing. Nada. Zip.}

 

[*sees the scene at 5:45 minutes in* Metal Gear?

 

*sees the scene at the end where Celestia unfurls her wings* O.O those are some huge wings.]

 

{Jelly?}

 

[...Maybe.]