Feeling lost, need help with vocalisation

[NeDoodles]

So this is my fourth month of forcing, and I'll try to make this as brief as possible.

 

To begin, my tulpa is a girl named Blythe Baxter. I began everything in January, starting with the wonderland, getting half of the humongous place completed and then moving on to making Blythe. Late January to mid February I worked on her personality, spent a month on her form, but now I seem to be stuck. Every session now consists of me meeting her in the wonderland, and then me talking to her while we explore the place. Currently she can walk around and interact with me on her own (I hope), and communicate her emotions using gestures.

 

So the issues I'm experiencing are that she still isn't vocal and I don't know how to go about that without parroting. I also worry that her actions are also being parroted in a "passive" way and if feeling that is normal. Also one last question (I probably know the answer to this): Is forcing only 30 minutes a day pretty much worthless? That may be a big factor as to why I feel like I can't get anything done past this point. So currently I feel lost, any advise you guys can offer is golden.

 

Blythe says hi, by the way (non-vocally, of course).

[Bin]

Actually parroting kick-started my tulpa talking. I wrote a little guide on it, just make sure you do it as an exercise with them rather than just, you know, talking for them.

 

30 minutes is fine, you can do it as long of a period as you'd like. I usually spend half an hour with mine.

 

It is normal to feel like you're passively parroting them. A tulpa is merely a way to passively control a concept in your mind. Rather than actively controlling them (e.g. an imaginary friend or a daydream) you're abstracting your own thoughts as another entity. So it's natural for fragments of feelings of controlling it to remain, they'll dissipate eventually.

[Linkzelda]

Try to imagine it this way. When you’re talking to anyone, you have to direct awareness to them, and if you glance over somewhere else, they might either stop talking to wait until you look at them again, or they just keep talking either way. Now, what you’re concerned about is that if you’re directing awareness to your tulpa, the moment you find your mind wandering off, and then you fixate back to your tulpa, you feel as if you’re parroting their responses (e.g. having to think of something as a way to kick-start the conversation again, and that things that come after that would be orchestrated, or something).

 

In other words, the point where you would probably have to kick-start on what to say to them is what you’re mostly concerned about, and you may feel from that moment, things would’ve parroted throughout the session. I guess you’re trying to achieve something to where she can still talk even if you shifted your awareness elsewhere, and then back to her, and so on. I wouldn’t presume there would be such a thing as passively parroting your tulpa, that’s just you fixating too much on that probability becoming a reality.

 

When I did image streaming a while back, whenever I found myself in a situation where I felt blank, I would think of something as a transient way to keep things going, but I wouldn’t consider that as parroting after things started going smoothly again with narration, or even getting them to use their mindvoice to narrate to me as well.

 

As for the 30 minutes a day of forcing, I don’t really think that’s a problem because it’s better than no forcing at all. Though if you ever have free time, trying to put that up to 1 hour wouldn’t hurt every now and then. The more active forcing you get, the more likely you can do something mentally taxing on your mind, and you never know what may be achieved after getting used to practicing tulpa-related activities, and getting your brain a mental workout.