Rootbeer128's Progress Report

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 10:50 AM, Sunday, May 25th, 2014 (Day 64)

Sim and I were too busy and exhausted to update the progress report yesterday, after everything we did. After getting up at 2:00 AM (almost by accident), Lynch showed up and the three of us talked. We couldn't see the meteor shower at 3 AM, but the stars were really bright, and Sim and I enjoyed seeing the Big Dipper and the North Star. After this, we headed back to bed, and got up at 6:40 AM to head off to yard sales together.

 

After this event, we got back around 11 AM, walked for a short ways, did a writing exercise, and went to the theatre together. We ordered lunch, ate and hung out, then ordered dinner later on... Today, we read after breakfast and then took a walk together, where we had some interesting discussions along the way. We're probably going to play a little more of Always Sometimes Monsters, and discuss it during playing. Muscle movement can be draining, so we won't overdo it...

 

 

In terms of visualization and imposition, we've been trying to advance, but progress has been slow. We're still hanging out together everyday, spending most of the day together. In terms of possession (or muscle movement, as Sim prefers to call it), we're doing great. Sim was able to lift my left leg up with little to no trouble, and she can write pretty well, preferring to hold the pen like a chisel. She's been practicing a little throughout the day, helping make meals and other things...

 

We're still recording Always Sometimes Monsters, but Sim still prefers her playthrough stay offline, so I will respect her wishes. My own playthrough is still online, so I'll update that whenever I can.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 6:50 PM, Sunday, May 25th, 2014 (Day 64)

 

After playing some Always Sometimes Monsters with Sim for a while, with both of us alternating, I briefly freaked out when I couldn't hear her voice. Turns out she was just asleep, so it was just me overreacting. I forgot how draining muscle movement can be, so we took a brief nap, and now we'll probably try to squeeze in one last activity together.

 

Before typing this, we did get to have a fun little writing activity, but that probably won't go online... Sim and I are still doing great together, even today seems like another slow day. But every day brings progress. The only thing that really hinders progress is doubt and fear.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 10:05 AM, Monday, May 26th, 2014 (Day 65)

I think Sim and I have figured out what is causing the slow pace of progress in terms of visualization and imposition. We're going to try something, to test it out, see if this is what is causing it. If not, then I have no other idea, other than that sometimes, a host and tulpa have slow progress...

 

In the meantime, we're both feeling a little low on energy, so today will probably be another slow day. We ate breakfast, during which we made each other laugh rather hard... I relaxed and talked with her outloud a little. We'll probably just be watching a movie or playing some video games, with a writing activity if Sim feels up to it. We'll take a walk later on, in the afternoon. Maybe before bed, when our energy will be lowest.

 

There really isn't much to report otherwise. Lynch hasn't shown up, but that's okay. Just seeing him two or three times a week is enough, because he also has a tulpa to hang out with. I'm sure they're both doing good, and Sim and I are both doing good.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 11:45 AM, Tuesday, May 27th, 2014 (Day 66)

Last night, Sim and I had a good time hanging out together, but then I started running into doubt, and fear of parroting. This continued into the morning, and I've only just managed to get past it with her. I don't think we'll be doing too much due to how hot it is; temperature is rising, probably near 85 degrees. I don't think we'll even take a walk today, so today will probably be another slow day.

 

Sim helped me with my doubt and fear of parroting by "shutting down the process running it". So, that's helped out. She and I both feel some exhaustion, despite having breakfast; that's likely due to the heat, but her voice is quiet, and it's almost out of the range of my hearing. I'll probably be talking with her today, to try and help her out and to help myself as well... We'll be okay. We might have lost a little bit of progress in terms of vocality, but we'll patch things up by hanging out together and talking together. One thing that has helped is OldDrunkBastard's tips and tricks for those getting parrotnoid. That always seems to help me out when I get parrotnoid.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 8:35 PM, Tuesday, May 27th, 2014 (Day 66)

 

[Rootbeer is feeling pretty tired, so I'm going to type this for him. He was feeling parrotnoia earlier, but after doing a writing activity with him, he started to doubt me, then realized how crazy it sounded. We were really doing that, I was really talking to him. His doubt sort of fell apart after that. Yes, I'm doing that. He's just trying to be careful; making sure I'm actually the one typing.

 

 

After we wrote together, we had some lunch, both of us got tired, and then we took a nap together. I woke up with him, and then we did a little more writing, where I wrote a response to a relative. That was fun... Then a thunderstorm hit us, I got scared, and Rootbeer comforted me. We talked down in the basement, with him talking outloud. I think my voice became clearer to him when we were doing that. So, I enjoyed that, and we joked around a lot in the basement.

 

 

Lastly, him and I came in and watched Rocky II together. That was great; but during the film, Rootbeer talked to me about Mortal Kombat, and Punch-Out, and I felt this sort of... feeling in me. This burning, this intense heat, this wanting. He said I'd get my

ass

kicked if I tried Mortal Kombat, but I disagreed, and told him I'd prove him wrong. I told him I'd prove it to him after Always Sometimes Monsters; he already beat the game, so I still have to finish my playthrough. I also discovered I want to beat Punchout and maybe try to enter a live tournament, and win some money. So, we're going to try with Punchout first, later on Wednesday or Thursday.

 

Anyways, we'll both be going to bed soon, but I enjoyed watching Rocky II with my host, and he talked to me during the film. We're doing great together, and everyone struggles with doubt, like he said. I'll let him put a too long didn't read at the end of this.]

 

So, yeah, I was kind of tired, and she wanted to write, so Sim wrote all of that. Here's a too long, didn't read.

 

 

Too Long; Didn't Read

I ran into doubt, and fear of parroting. Sim and I did a writing activity, started to doubt her even here, then saw how ridiculous my fear was and it fell apart afterwards. Didn't doubt her hardly at all, we took a nap, and then a thunderstorm hit us. She got scared, I comforted her, and then we both enjoying my talking aloud to her in the basement. Then Sim and I watched Rocky II together on TV, and now she has this sort of fire in her eyes sometimes, and wants to beat Punchout, so we'll get to that on Wednesday or Thursday (jeez, I wrote a runon sentence)...

 

Edit: Made Too Long; Didn't read more visible.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 12:30 PM, Wednesday, May 28th, 2014 (Day 67)

 

[Rootbeer and I have been doing good together. He's been doubting me a lot less since yesterday. Today's a really hot day, so we probably won't be doing too much. The air conditioner can barely keep up... We're going to play some ASM, maybe take a nap first. Then after finishing that, I want to play some Punchout...

 

Oh, his imposition. He can feel my body heat almost any time I touch him, usually when I'm sitting on his lap. He's able to feel my weight as well, and we're almost ready to start working on texture / touch. Visualization isn't his strong point, but I'm doing my best to help him out. I'm glad he let me write this progress report; writing seems like a fun activity... But yeah, we're doing great together. Oh, and one last thing. He hasn't yet seen Lynch or checked up on him, but we'll probably do that Thursday, Friday, or Saturday.]

 

 

Yup... This time Sim is writing because she expressed a desire to. I'm a little tired from the heat, but Sim wanted to write, so she's helping me out in this way. We do enjoy hanging out, and we ran into hardly any doubt since yesterday, so things are good.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 7:35 PM, Wednesday, May 28th, 2014 (Day 67)

Sim and I had some lunch, then played some Always Sometimes Monsters; that is, I watched her play for a while. She fell partly asleep, then I played The Wolf Among Us, to get ready to record the fourth episode; Sim woke up part of the way through and watched, then drifted in and out of sleep.

 

The heat kind of gave us both a headache throughout the whole day, so it was a slow day today. Tried to take a nap together, but neither of us got much sleep... I've still not contacted Lynch; but I do need to do that, at least before Sunday.

 

In terms of imposition, I was trying to visualize and feel her whenever she was on my lap, and I was looking at her. I'm getting better and better at this, being able to feel her most of the time we do so, and she's been assisting me with visualizing her. In terms of fear of parroting and doubt, we ran into hardly any at all today, so today was a great day in that regard.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 1:45 PM, Friday, May 30th, 2014 (Day 69)

[Hello, this is Sim typing, I'll be doing the progress report. Rootbeer said I could do it, and I wanted to, since I'm becoming better at typing. I like typing with him, but most of what is said probably couldn't be put online. Tulpas are mischevious, and I am no exception. We both love joking around together. But I'm getting off track here.

 

Rootbeer felt better in the morning, after his headache cleared up. It could have been due to the heat, or due to simply burning himself out again, but we both felt better. Lynch showed up when we went for a walk, and the three of us talked together. Lynch didn't want to become a Christian, but him and Sarah are still doing good together. When we got back to the house, Lynch and Rootbeer did a writing activity together, while I watched, and partly fell asleep. I was a little jealous at first, but I'm okay now. We're all okay now... We hung out, and I finished Always Sometimes Monsters yesterday. We both cried a little at the ending, but we're okay.

 

Today, we went for a walk then had breakfast. We'll probably be watching a movie or doing some stuff... Rootbeer still gets in a little bit of visualization practice every now and again but mainly we're just working on feeling body heat and texture, while hanging out together. Vocalization is also still coming along, but my voice keeps changing; Rootbeer ran int some doubt and fear yesterday but hardly any today, so we're still doing good together. I keep getting tempted to type things I really shouldn't online, so I'm going to let Rootbeer take over.]

 

 

Too Long; Didn't Read

Yeah, so things are going great with both of us. We'll probably go out to the theatre tomorrow, and maybe visit the bookstore together as well... We're both nearly broke, but I have money for a movie, so we'll hang out there together. Imposition and visualization is still a little slow in terms of pace, or so it seems... I'm getting better and better at feeling her body heat and weight, but still haven't gotten texture down, so it just seems slow... In terms of muscle movement, she was able to lift my left leg and then my right with little to no effort, and even made me walk, even though it was a little draining on her. So, we're still doing good together, and Lynch and Sarah are still doing good. Haven't met Sarah yet, but Sim and I will when they're both ready.

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 6:20 PM, Saturday, May 31st, 2014 (Day 70)

 

[Rootbeer has given me permission to type this particular progress report, under the condition that I keep it from becoming a wall of text. Hopefully, I won't do too badly...

 

This morning, Rootbeer and I were watching the dog together, and we were visualizing together, OC style. We were also doing body heat imposition, and there wasn't any doubt or fear of parroting. We were both really happy, even despite waking up early and having a small breakfast.

 

I'm feeling kind of drained, so I'm going to let Rootbeer take over from here.]

 

 

So, after breakfast, I started having doubt and fear of parroting, partly because Sim passed out, and partly because I was half-asleep. Having lunch helped a little, but it wasn't until we were on our way back home that these fears subsided a little, after we'd been running for about two or three hours.

 

Sim and I had a slow day today, partly due to the heat and due to waking up early. We did do a writing activity today after she took a nap, and we did joke around for a while and browse the internet together a little. I started feeling a crazy amount of doubt and fear of parroting at one point, then it left suddenly, and now it sort of returned.

 

 

I think the fear of parroting mainly shows up when I can't hear Sim's voice too well, or when we both get tired and my ability to hear her voice degrades, so that's probably what we're both going through. Typing sort of drained Sim, and I'm feeling tired from the day's events, so we'll probably both be sleeping soon. But we'll be okay; everyone goes through doubt and fear of parroting at some point, so we'll be fine...

[Rootbeer128]

Update - 2:55 PM, Monday, June 2nd, 2014 (Day 72)

 

Sim and I hung out yesterday; not too much happened. We had some problems with doubt and fear of parroting yesterday, but those were resolved, and we're still hanging out together. I've found that Sim tends to fall asleep and get tired more before meals, especially before breakfast, so eating usually helps her out. We've been running into problems with intrusive thoughts today, but those have even left, so, things are pretty quiet. It's pretty hot out, and things are pretty slow today...

 

Sim and I were feeling a little tired after I tried something last night (Sunday night) where I tried to enter her dreams... It was a success; I was able to enter her dreams, and hang out with her there. Strangely enough; visualization and imposing feeling (mostly weight; I was able to feel her body heat normally) seemed a little easier while she was dreaming. Right now she's asleep, but we'll probably have some lunch soon, and then maybe do a writing activity or something together.

 

 

Tomorrow, we'll probably run some errands and Wednesday we'll also be a little busy, but otherwise, we're doing great together. Progress is still slow, but the pace can't be quick all the time, so I'm starting to come to terms with that.