Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[sushi]

Well, I never got a throbbing headache. That really sucks. It's cool that you're doing so well otherwise though.

[Guest]

Well enough. Friend says I'll probably have a lot of trouble ever hearing her unless I learn to clear my thoughts through meditation or something similar, which is pretty unfortunate, as that's going pretty meh

 

Dunno, will just keep going and see what happens at any rate

[Guest]

Decent session tonight

 

Another hour of narration and visuals, will attempt to pick meditation back up tomorrow at some point.

 

I think the visualizing was better this time than it has been in a while. Forty or so minutes in, I was resolved to leave them be for the session, as they hadn't been going anywhere, and they suddenly got kinda better. Still not good by anybody here's standards, I don't think, but I was kinda able to make out Peachy. She may have been nodding along with my narrating, or I could have been imagining that. Don't know. Trying not to accuse myself of puppeting too much. Couldn't see well at any rate, so I probably won't think anything of it either way.

 

Thought it was Thursday, for most of the day. Disappointed to find it wasn't. Oh well, though.

 

More narrating before bed, another hour of active stuff tomorrow. Also, Pink Noise was doing more harm than good on my focus this time, which sucked. First fifteen or so minutes were really unproductive for it

 

But yeah, that's about it.

 

Edit: Was enjoying kinda seeing Tupper, and the improvement dropped. Back to the regular white, which is unfortunate.

 

Decided to browse some guides on visuals again, but there's not much more than "Practice", or "Practice this specifically". Aha, if just visualizing would improve mine, I'm sure I could get at least a constant and fuzzy image now opposed to nothing, picture, nothing, good image, nothing, nothing, kinda something.

 

And then there are the ones that assume your Tup is vocal or undeniably sentient or whatever that are equally unhelpful, which is unfortunate ;-;

[Guest]

Blegh

 

Been sleeping and stuff the past day. Feeling a bit more awake and all that though. Will likely make myself some 4:am microwaved food or something, and then pick up on tonight's forcing.

 

Yesterday morning, eight or nine hours after my last session, I put in another two hours. About forty minutes for trying to empathetically apply personality, as well as just generally make sense of the traits, then the rest of the time being narrative, and visuals. Visuals were going bad for twenty or so minutes, so I was about to move on, when I started thinking about reading, and how when I read a book, I might not always see what's written on the pages, but I typically do when I'm recalling later on.

 

So Idunno what exactly is different, or why, but using just a bit of past-tense narrative for myself, and other parts state of mind I guess, I was almost managing decent visuals. Better than nothing, but still not much to shake a stick at. Practice, though. While I'm on it, I can't actually even remember what the heck Peachy looks like while I can visualize most of the time. I always have to break out the phone, and look at the only good pic of her in existence (The one I use as my avatar--- she's not that popular, surprisingly. Like, less than five pieces of porn 'not popular', ahaha).

 

And yeah, I've only been acquainted with the character for a few months but even then, when I was working on Miriam, I couldn't recall what Rainbow Dash looked like 3/4 of the time, save for that she was cyan or whatever, and had a rainbow mane.

 

Just need more practice, I guess. Well, anyway, will work after I eat. Hope it's a good session, I'm not getting any of those tuppery headaches, or funny feelings right now. Don't like not having them.

[Guest]

Did do that stuff an hour or so back. The regular visuals/narrative combo, just without the dedicated portions. It was off and on on each for the whole hour, kinda.

 

Visuals were good, surprisingly. Don't have that great a mental image of Peachy, though, so I wasn't able to get any good angles. My avatar is about the best there is on the internet, save one or two others. Course, still looked janky. Fading in and out, fuzzy and vague, the usual. But even now, I'm not having trouble doing it. So maybe can practice now? Would be nice.

 

Session as a whole was good. Intend to have another one tonight at some point. Will see.

[sushi]

The thing I've found best for improving visualization is art. I personally can't draw worth crap, so I do this. Since Peachy's image is so simple, you might be able to get creative with that and copy her head onto the body of another pony and make some more images of her. Could help.

[Guest]

Can't draw at all myself, either. Brother has always been a fantastic artist, so that might have stunted any motivation to improve I've had over the years. Imean, I've done one or two drawings from sight that I'm really proud of, but thas it.

 

Anyway, despite being a creator of the show's OC, I believe Peachy is a recolor of Minuette, or Colgate. Only weird thing there, is her mane from the side, and her mane from the front looks different, so I guess it would on Peachy as well, which sucks. Would be hard to pull that off in reality, I think, haha.

 

Anyway, have yard work in the morning, and I just woke up :I

 

Will do an hour or two of stuff in the next few hours, then try my hardest to sleep, I guess.

[Guest]

Hour was good. Nothing much to report on it, though. Visuals were okay, started running out of narrative fuel around fifty minutes, so it could have been better overall, but eh.

 

Looking forward to tomorrow night. Hope I don't skimp out.

 

 

EDIT: Small and probably useless update, but what the fuck, any time I'm having messed up or, uh, "dirty", thoughts, I'm getting flashes of Peachy looking at me with a straight face or something.

 

I'm probably just sleep-deprived, but it's creeping me out, ahaha.

 

I think I was visualizing earlier, and had some inappropriate thought, and imagined her looking at me funny, and my head is just defaulting to that every time I inadvertently think of something bad. Aha, it's kinda hilarious now. If Peachy is paying attention, I hope she brings it up someday when she's vocal so I can apologize profusely, haha.

[sushi]

I remembered last night that some people have used a pendulum to communicate with a non-vocal tulpa. You don't need any special crystal or anything. Any small object hanging from a string will do. Think that would work for you?

[Guest]

Aha, I have enough trouble getting my mind around the psychological aspects of Tuppermancy, I don't think there's anything for me in all of this spiritual, or paranormal whatsit.

 

Besides, I've only been at it for like, a bit under ten hours total. I'm not surprised I'm not getting much in the way of assurance of sentience and speechy stuff. Will give it another fifteen or twenty probably, before I start considering trying to seek out sentience and vocality myself, or whatever. Am fine with it taking a while, as long as it's feeling good along the way like it is.

 

But eh, probably wouldn't consider something like this either way. Thanks regardless.