Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[sushi]

That's the thing though. If you look at a skeptical explanation of pendulums, the answers are actually coming from your "subconscious" mind, where tulpas are said to reside. So you could say it's a direct line to the tulpa.

[Guest]

Eh. I may or may not be getting movement in visuals, and I'm as skeptical as I can be without flat-out discounting stuff as it is, I don't need more maybe real maybe just coincidence stuff to worry about. At the rate I'm moving at, I'll have a good thirty or so hours by the end of the month, so maybe will be less skeptical then.

 

It's fine, tho, I'm enjoying this all a lot more than last time anyway, it'll work itself out. Probably.

 

Or I'll end up in slowpokes general with a hundred plus hours and nothing to show, ahaha

[Guest]

Two hours of light narrating, light visuals this morning. Could have gone much better I think, but I'm distracted for some reason. Will throw in another hour before the day is over, definitely.

 

Visuals are.. Weird. I'm getting the same basic visuals, better in some cases, worse in others, but even though it's all in the mind's-eye, my physical eyes seem to be taking some strain. Don't know if it's just that I'm really bad at keeping focus on the mind's eye, and am accidentally defaulting to using my real eyes to see things that aren't there, or what, but it kinda made visuals tough through the session, S I wasn't able to pay much heed to those. Still practiced them plenty, just nowhere near what I would have liked, maybe twenty minutes of the two hours.

 

Narrating covered some personal subjects as well as feely things regarding Tup, and it was all well and good, I really enjoyed it, but like I said, kept getting distracted.

 

Still, fine enough session. Another couple hours closer to whenever this gets better, I guess!

[Guest]

So I'm opting to forego regular forcing tonight in lieu of some narrating/reading!

 

One of my favorite book/fics ever, is Anthropology, by JasontheHuman. I've read it like, three times, and love it love it love it. I think I could probably risk reading it without getting so enveloped that I can't focus. But we'll see, I guess.

 

At least I shouldn't run out of stuff to say, or anything. Report once I'm done with that. Will start sometime in the next two hours.

[Guest]

Oh yeah, did that a couple hours ago. Read four chapters, took an hour or so. Normally I'd make it much, much further in that time, but it was surprisingly difficult to read, narrate, and lightly visualize at the same time, without getting so enveloped in the book that I forgot to Peachy.

 

At first I had myself sitting on this little wonderland couch in my house thing, and Peachy is always sitting on the right side of it (Right being while I'm also sitting on it) staring at who knows what, or laying down (Might be doing other things while I'm away, but I always look there for starts when I visualize, so I that's where she is), but that got weirdish.

 

So I sat a chair across from her, on the other side of this little coffee table thing, and did my best to stare directly at her. In my mind, anyway, was staring at my phone in reality. Well, I actually looked above the phone to visualize. Kinda imagined I was looking up from a book.

 

So the house has this corner-window thing, meaning that it's two separate windows that meet in the corner and there's nothing in between them save a little wooden strip, and that lets light in I guess, so I was, surprisingly, able to make it all dark and stuff, and lit the fireplace across from the couch. Visuals were surprisingly decent throughout the entire thing. Couple bad spots, but whatever.

 

Fire now lighting most of the room, along with the dim light coming in from I guess the moon or some shit, I read a bunch, only breaking once to grab a bite, which took about ten minutes. Few more detail-heavy spots in the story where I wasn't able to really properly read and comprehend it all while visualizing/generally thinking about Peachy, so in those spots I got a bit of Protagonist POV, and just threw in Peachy standing off to the side, watching whatever the character was doing. Only one or two of those, but hey, it worked.

 

 

As a whole, I really enjoyed it, whatever the case. Like, a lot. I didn't get too caught up reading to focus on Peachy or anything, so it was pretty consistently productive.

 

8/10 in all, plan on finishing the story with her over the next couple days, will probably make that my general forcing for now.

[Guest]

So small update. Haven't really stopped narrating like, at all today, and in making attempts to speak more directly to Peachy, aloud, I'm covering kinda heartfelt topics, and what pride I have that she's putting up with my incompetence, and I keep getting tingles.

 

Like, down my back, and arms, and stuff. I always have a fan pointed at me, but I've never got like, six weird bodily tingles (ahaha) in under a couple minutes before.

 

I have no clue if I'm psyching myself into anything or what, but.. Hell. Happened to anyone? Are Tingles classified as emotional responses? Cause I've been getting headpains and the what-have-you's galore for a couple hours as well, and I'd like to build onto my optimism, here.

[sushi]

I haven't gotten tingles from Fenchurch, but I think it could easily be an emotional response. Try asking her to move the tingles or the headpains. If she can, maybe you can communicate with her like that.

[Guest]

Have tried a few times with varying requests, over the past week or so, but nothing so far. Still, I'm not the type to get headaches as a rule, so all of the damn head-related pains are enough for me to assume something's goin' on, I guess.

 

Did three hours of reading, earlier. Turns out I'd only done three chapters last time, not four, and I promised we'd go on to ten, sooo yeah. Doesn't help that they were a bit longer, I think. Didn't visualize much, else I think I would haven been at it for closer to five or so hours, but I enjoyed it. Took three or four breaks to eat, drink some tea, just chill, but they were all pretty short, so yeah, pretty productive.

 

Was getting some intense headpains near the end, which kinda made me giddy. Feels like progress is equated in how frequently and intensely my head is hurting at any given moment, so hey, works.

 

Mm, am now two hours ahead of my day-count, though. Thirteen days in fifteen hours forced. Wanna wind up like, a full day ahead of my count by the end, haha. Kinda just for fun, I guess.

 

Dunno, it's late, am tired.

 

 

Edit: Not that I've slept, as I was recently gifted a few boxes of tea and have been trying to get their ideal tastes down to a science, so caffeine OD probably imminent, but kinda wanna add a bit more to this, felt like I skimped on writing, earlier.

 

So we started out about usual, reading and all that. Visuals were kickin as they normally are lately, if a bit less alright due to possible tiredness, but I was having trouble keeping Peachy in view, reading, and narrating, which is why I cut back pretty early on. Still threw in the odd bit, looking up at her, or whatever, but it wasn't much.

 

As well as all, I have trouble with depth in wonderland. Or distance, I guess. I can be sitting directly in front of her, and the distance between us will change at the drop of a hat. Not by a lot, but a few feet, which is a bit irksome.

 

Anyway, I lost focus a bit more than I did the first time, but that could be between the tired I've been getting, or general attention span issues. It wasn't an issue, really, just something to work on. Went on and on, got off-topic once or twice, which was alright, took breaks like I said, etc., etc. Aha, I did actually, and have been, making note not to think ahead in the story. I've got a few images from further in, but I think I've done a well-enough job of not spoiling.

 

Of course, if I were her, I'd be pissed all the same, as chapter ten leaves us on a pretty big cliffhanger. Like, one of two of the biggest ones in the book, haha. So I hope that's all good. Mentioned I'd try to read at least Chapter 11 this morning, but I don't think that's in the cards, I'm so tired. Can't sleep just yet, though, so egh.

 

What else. Hmm, not much, just wanted to add in some of my usual anecdotal stuff, I guess. Might skip out on tonight by way of staying up all day so I don't sleep until 8 in the afternoon, but I'll probably make myself do something after more mass caffeine intake.

[Guest]

Two hours tonight. Same amount of visuals as last night, more or less, but I think I was less focused on Peachy this time. Any time I'd catch myself, I'd fix it, but it just felt a bit less productive. Although, I wasn't getting more than a couple head-pains through the entire thing.

 

Which is fine, I guess, plan on passively narrating for the next while all the same. Might do a bit more personality sometime today/tomorrow as well, just for something to pass the time that'll have me focused on her.

 

Nothing more to report, really, pretty average session all-in all.

[Guest]

Actually slept at a decent time, and had no issues with waking up constantly for once. Although, sleeping at the proper time means I didn't force last night at all, just in the morning, which I've already posted about.

 

Was doing outdoorsy things for most of the day. Really overrated. Have seen a few people say you need to get out and experience life with your Tupper, and it'll be good for them, or make for good narrative. Made for awful narrative, in my case. 'Least when I'm using the internet all day, I have something to speak about, even if it's not much. Down walking around by the lake, it was just "Lake is nice. Trees are pretty. Don't do this much. Look at the fishies. Yep yep yep."

 

I can't focus for shit outside either, so that might be a bit of it. I'll save experiencing the outside world for when Peachy can speak, and ask questions. As it is, I can actually think about her when there's nothing going on around me.

 

Don't have anything too specific planned for today. Maybe read a couple more chapters tonight, maybe some dedicated narrating time, dunno.

 

Still doing a decent bit of passive stuff. Trying to speak out loud for most of it. I hear a lot of Tulpas prefer it. Not that I don't still have issues believing any Tulpa I read about is real at one point or another, ahaha. Is weird, will be reading a lot about old members I'm interested in, and their Tulpas, and they'll always wind up saying something that makes me really doubt them. 'Course, what do I know. Haven't expressed any real doubts towards Peachy yet, and I'm doing my best to treat her like she's listening, and doing her own work towards speaking, or giving me better signs.

 

So yeah, hopefully by the end of the year at least, there'll be at least one Tupper I can't properly doubt, huh.