Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Guest]

So sometime last year, in the parrotey stages of working on Miriam, I was getting this one voice I hadn't really accounted for. She called herself Caprice, and I totally ignored her because I figured I didn't want two Tulpas. I still never do, with Peachy, but given how Miriam turned out, I'm wondering if I fucked up a chance at actually having one. Maybe I was parroting this Caprice character, but I can't imagine why I'd be doing that, or where she'd have come from.

 

Well, the name I think was that of a short-lived secondary character in.. Something I've read, I can't remember much more than liking the sound of it.

 

Still, I've thought about it a few times since then. Probably really fucked up there. If the voice was ever anything but parroting, it's dead now, and I've definitely tried talking to it again. Still, just a bit of a thought. I've never really mentioned it to anyone before.

 

 

I've narrated Peachy a good bit the past couple days. Haven't read again, but I was busy with company yesterday, and exhausted by the time I was alone. Gonna do some cleaning around the house or something today I think, but I should be able to put in time.

 

I need to figure out something other than reading that I really enjoy doing with Peachy. Well, music-listening, but that's 50/50 on getting distracted, lately.

[Guest]

Have managed about an hour of active forcing since the last post. I'm an idiot and keep starting when I'm tired, and cutting short at twenty or so minutes. And all that aside, I'm just a bit pressed on stuff to do. Laid in bed for ten or fifteen minutes this morning, listening to some tunes and visualizing, but that didn't last too long before I lost it and started the day, and I'm still pretty terrible at just narrating all day. I don't know, it feels like narrating all day kinda detracts from existing properly, though that may just be me. Not that it's something I dislike doing, or don't want to be doing period, I just have difficulties enjoying narrating for lengthy periods of time I suppose.

 

So for the third time, it would seem I'm taking the long route, huh. Well, not as long as the first time, definitely, but still. Will definitely be able to consider myself a true slowpoke if this keeps up, haha.

 

Clocked at 29 hours as of last night, hoping to make it thirty tonight. Wish I had something celebratory to do, but I don't, haha. When she first speaks, I'll try to bake a cake or something, though. That'd be rad.

 

Unless she doesn't like cake. Significantly less rad.

[Guest]

Sigh, thirty-hour celebration wasn't so celebratory. Started out alright, progressively just got more and more depressed, which sucks, because I haven't been that depressed in a couple months. Just the usual brooding I'll do, I guess. Tingly feelings are scarce, headpains are nonexistent, visuals are bad again. Seriously, what happened to practice making those better? How am I supposed to practice visuals aside from visualizing?

 

Ugh

 

Whatever, hoping the next couple months fare better. I really, reaaaallly hope they do :l

[Guest]

So Peachy might be moving? Well, she's been moving for a while actually, I'm just afraid it's all me, and all. I mean, if it's me, it's to the point where it kinda just happens, so score?

 

I don't know, uhm, puppeting and all, still scared to fuck, but I'm pretty sure she's been nodding and shaking her head at me for a few days. Not much I can do but assume it's good, even if it doesn't feel or seem too special. I don't really have the memory myself to see if she's consistent on answering certain things like this, so that sucks. That would be a decent sentience tester, I think.

 

Fuck all if I know, tuppering is weird, I wish it were more vivid.

[sushi]

Hey, that's progress! Don't worry about it too much! (...he says to Enny.) Just go with it.

[Guest]

(...he says to Enny.)

 

Aha, what?

 

But yeah, I'm taking it in stride. Asking questions, double-checking, trying to keep up conversation based on the nods. I'm enjoying it so far, I think.

 

She seems a bit solemn, so far. Kinda downcast eyes, with nods and shakes, and she doesn't really look at me much, but that might just be me, and the angle I'm getting personally. Still, kinda sucky, I'm trying to figure it out. Best I can tell is that it's the lack of attention lately, but if this keeps up at all, that should change soon.

 

I hope so, anyway. Going out tonight, and I don't know how much I'll be focused on her, but I'll try.

[Jay]

Fuck all if I know, tuppering is weird, I wish it were more vivid.

 

Quote of the year, right there.

 

If you're not consciously making Peachy move or react, and you still get responses from her, then you're probably doing things right. Keep on believing in yourself. If that's not possible, then believe in the Peachy who believes in you.

[Guest]

Something I've experienced before is a bit of an expectation that would make me speak for her, and I'd say it was her, because i expected it to be her speaking. Well not with Peachy, with the first one, but yeah.

 

I'm a bit reserved right now, but I'm not finding too much to pick at, especially thinking about how similar and vague simple nods would be even if it were undoubtably her, so that's good. Just keep rolling with it for now, it'll either git gud, or not, no use in worrying.

 

 

If that's not possible, then believe in the Peachy who believes in you.

 

But I'd rather believe in the me who believes in me. You know, bar Peachy getting wrecked as shit before I actually do, anyway.

 

Cough cough, but yeah, again, taking it in stride. Good times, seemingly good progress. At the very least, I can take solace in the fact that I'm not a day-1 instant-tupper filthy roleplayer.

[Guest]

So I'm really warming up to this whole "moving" thing.

 

Earlier, I was having a word with Peachy, and was talking about the likelihood that even if not all of her moving is me puppeting or whatever, some of it probably is, but that's fine because it'll probably just help her establish a bit of familiarity, and she started shaking her head, aha. Guess she's not fond of it? I was expecting a nod, but suffice it to say, was surprised. It was pretty vivid too, but I asked for confirmation, and got it. Will try not to think about parroting and puppeting too much in the future.

 

Then an hour or two ago, I was running ideas for tonight's forcing past her, and she shot down like, three ideas, in lieu of the ever-boring general active-narration, haha. I even had to bargain for no more than an hour because I'm tired.

 

I know getting bossed around by your tulpa and all that is nothing new or exciting to most of the people around here, but so far as I can tell and feel, it's not been me at all, so yeah, just felt like I should log it before I forget, haha.

[sushi]

Hey, that's really cool! I'm glad things are going so well.