Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Guest]

Well enough, anyway

 

Session could have been a lot better. Visuals weren't doing what we needed them to do, and now I'm getting tired.

 

I think I'm really only capable of passively visualizing the nods and stuff. I get them fine-ish when I'm doing other things, but when I'm trying to focus, visuals are gone, and there's not really anything else to do for communication.

 

Guess active is out of the question until that's fixed, bummer.

[Jay]

Session could have been a lot better. Visuals weren't doing what we needed them to do, and now I'm getting tired.

 

I think I'm really only capable of passively visualizing the nods and stuff. I get them fine-ish when I'm doing other things, but when I'm trying to focus, visuals are gone, and there's not really anything else to do for communication.

 

During the few months that I was working on my second tulpa, something similar happened: nods and other simple gestures became very easy for me to visualize, and eventually habitual or second nature. I believe they became the go-to reaction for my tulpa for all yes/no questions, but it didn't help my faith in it's existence, instead having the opposite effect. They became so easy to reproduce that I stopped believing that it was my tulpa doing them, instead just reactions that my brain had adapted to (but what are tulpas, anyway?). Looking back now, I feel that my doubts were ultimately unreasonable; whether or not my beliefs were true, it was a crappy reason to stop believing in my tulpa.

 

But holy crap, page 15! This is your second PR, right?

[Guest]

But holy crap, page 15! This is your second PR, right?

 

Aha, well, technically, there are seven pages from this one that I had deleted, and then 25 oh the first one. Overall, I'm much more pleased with this one, haha. Hope that sticks.

 

 

I do know how ya felt with doubting them. Despite their straightforwardness, there was one yesterday where I asked a question, and she just kept looking at me until the third or so time I asked. Maybe she didn't know what to answer, but it did feel a bit forced.

 

But still, positive thoughts, yeah? Even parroting can help lead up to a Tulpa. I don't buy into the whole "Totally sentient separate entity" thing, but even so, parroting has always felt way too blunt for me. If it's really light, pretty much unnoticeable stuff from me, I guess I can put up with it.

 

Aha, or, after a couple months of that, I'll ragequit like I did the last couple tulpas. But hopefully not.

[Guest]

Slow day. Didn't pay Peachy much of any attention. Was messing with some music stuff. Brother wanted a stringed bit for an interlude on a song, and what started as a forty-minute project wound up taking a few hours, haha. Gonna pay her attention before I pass out here in a bit, but yeah, not much of a successful day.

[Guest]

After the last post, I managed an hour of doin' stuff. Was good, if a bit boring.

 

Jeez, I spend more time here than anybody these days, as far as I can tell. I'm actively browsing, reading old threads and shit for at least three to four hours a day, more on some. There was one a few weeks ago where I was online, reading, for like, twelve hours. What's that thing people would tell others who were browsing the forum too much? "Force more", was it? Yeah, that sounds about right.

 

And that I shall do, tomorrow/today! I think I'm getting my hair cut at some point, but after that, I'm gonna try and devote two or three hours to forcing. I need to get back into the habit of forcing daily. I was on it fantastically for the first couple weeks of working on Peachy, but now, not so much, I guess. So hell, yeah, will try to do some stuff tomorrow. Likelihood of failure is great, but will try anyway.

 

Cause yeah, I've gone up like, two or three hours of active in the past couple weeks, haha.

[Guest]

As we all probably expected, I did absolutely no active, buuuut, I did do a lot of passive. And by a lot, I probably actually mean what most people consider average, but hey, cut me some slack

 

So anyway, yeah. I really do get a little more optimistic the more I talk to Peachy. And really, she does seem a bit more real every day. I don't really know how I should look at it anymore. When the moving started, and for a couple days after, yeah, was being positive. Trying not to doubt everything, did pretty well, but stuff was still slipping in occasionally, ya know? But now, I'm really starting to see the incremental progression of treating a tulpa like a person, in relation to genuinely believing it. It's kinda bizarre. Like, you would think given how closely I'm paying attention to it, it wouldn't be so drastic, but it totally is.

 

Man, what the fuck, why wasn't tupperforcing this cool last year?

[sushi]

Hey, at least it is now! Glad to see you're making progress.

[Guest]

I've done stuff I guess. Not much, but stuff.

 

Went our to Guitar Center today (or yesterday), narrated music shit, narrated why the kiddies coming in having their parents buy them guitars were making horrible choices simply because the bodies looked "Cool" (I'm looking at you, BC-rich Warlock), etc., etc. The car ride was meh because I was busy holding my breath for half of it, the guy who I went with was doing the Mary-Juana. Shit's nasty.

 

But other than that, it's been a good couple of days.

 

Oh, also, STeeK made me some Peachy pics. Nothing fancy, but some stuff to look at, eh?

[Guest]

Day something: Things have been done, and things have also gone undone.

 

Peachy's completely unamused with my antics, it would seem. I was fucking around with one of my buds on Skype, the one who got me into this, and made some remark about, ahaha, him touching his tupper's gentital-less crotch area at night, and I was going to be like "Oh. Yeah, I don't do that either, haha" when he denied all claims, but before he could even respond, Peachy rolled over from her apparent slumber, and just gave me this really flat look.

 

Don't know where I went wrong there, sigh. But alas, is as is. Still, good fun. I guess this just means I can bug the hell out of her over the next while with my offensive-ness.

 

 

But yeah, she seems to sleep from five or six in the morning up until noon, or so. Or at least she has been lately, she might have gone midnight to seven or so a few days ago? No clue. I've tried waking her up a few times, but she just looks at me and rolls over. Who knows.

 

Fun. I need to do active. Someday.

[Cinemaphobe]

Day something: Things have been done, and things have also gone undone.

 

Peachy's completely unamused with my antics, it would seem. I was fucking around with one of my buds on Skype, the one who got me into this, and made some remark about, ahaha, him touching his tupper's gentital-less crotch area at night, and I was going to be like "Oh. Yeah, I don't do that either, haha" when he denied all claims, but before he could even respond, Peachy rolled over from her apparent slumber, and just gave me this really flat look.

 

Don't know where I went wrong there, sigh. But alas, is as is. Still, good fun. I guess this just means I can bug the hell out of her over the next while with my offensive-ness.

 

 

But yeah, she seems to sleep from five or six in the morning up until noon, or so. Or at least she has been lately, she might have gone midnight to seven or so a few days ago? No clue. I've tried waking her up a few times, but she just looks at me and rolls over. Who knows.

 

Fun. I need to do active. Someday.

 

This post made me laugh lol

and you are lucky that you have a friend in RL who has a tulpa...