Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Guest]

Ah, alright. Thanks for the clarification.

 

 

Hour of visuals could probably be marked as a failure. Of the crash-and-burn, variety, even.

 

Thirty minutes in, I can't visualize Peachy at all, and am barely getting our surroundings. Don't know why, but it's disheartening. I wish visuals would actually improve the more I do them like they're supposed to. Sigh. Well, after the thirty minutes, I wasn't feeling very productive, so I decided to simply narrate the rest of it. No real sign she was paying attention, but I'm sure she was. Hope so, anyway, haha.

 

I kinda miss the constant headpains I was getting a couple weeks ago, or whenever it was. I wonder where they went..

 

Sigh. More tomorrow. For now, I guess I'll just try to get some rest.

[Guest]

Oh whoops, updates. Yesterday, and today for that matter, I've done a lot of really casual narrating while playing some New Vegas. It's a pretty easy game to speak over, turns out. I've gotten kinda off-minded in the past couple hours, but still, probably amassed five or six fairly consistent hours. More-so when I've started out has it been really good, so I've seen.

 

Actual forcing stuff hasn't happened too much. Another hour of reading to Peachy last night. Though I wasn't getting much of anything upstairs, as far as I could feel. Maybe two hours of reading tonight. I'll try and get a lot of time in starting around the 26th. Family will be out of state for three or four days, and they don't have room for me, haha.

 

Hahaha ;-;

[sushi]

I haven't been able to get into the Fallouts. I don't know why, as I loved the Balder's Gate games, and they're very similar in how much choice they give you. I guess it's that the Baldur's Gates give you more variety with characters. Like a druid/monk multiclass will be able to turn into a bear with all the unarmed combat ability of a monk. Whereas in the Fallouts, if you train unarmed combat at all, you're pretty much wasting your time because most the enemies in the games will start hitting you long before you've closed to unarmed range. I mean Doom: the Roguelike is a shooter game, but perks like Vampyre and Berserker still make unarmed characters a viable and fun choice. I feel like the Fallouts never really give you that sort of option.

[Guest]

I played a bit of Icewind-Dale, in regards to Baldur's gate. But man, old-styled click RPG's like that are tough to get going. After a few hours of trying to figure out what and the everliving fuck I was supposed to be doing, I found a bit of enjoyment, but with all of my party to manage, level, etc., as well as a couple other things, I guess I just didn't have the patience for it. I played a couple hack n' slashes from the franchise, Dark Alliance one and two, back when I was a kid. I had fun playing those, mostly because I always had a friend to go at it with, I suppose.

 

If you're referring to Fallout one, two, Tactics, or whatever, which were more top-view point and click, I can't say much. I've been meaning to play them, though.

 

In regards to three and NV, though, NV probably shines more than three in regards to playing how you like. Start off the game pump up Strength and Endurance for damage and DT, tag unarmed to give it an extra 15 points, take the perk that increases every skill by 5 at the loss of 10% of all experience gained (stupid-easy decision, imo), and you can probably find some brass knuckles or wrappings in the general store right out. Though, I'd need to check. Tutorial covers using a gun, yeah, but admittedly, most people'll be using one, so whatever.

 

Fast forward, if you've focused on Unarmed over any other weapon-type, I'd say not even an hour in, you'll be doing decent damage with whatever weapon you've managed to find. Get to Novac, grab the paralyzing palm attack (Or maybe it just knocks back? Will see later), and once you're in Vegas, maybe two hours in, pick up Spiked knuckles, and you'll be wrecking about as well as somebody with a mid-tier gun would. But granted, yeah, they'll probably start hitting you a while before, but that's guns for you. Chems it up, and wear thick armor though, and bullets won't be doing much to stop you.

 

Did you mean solely fists though, no "unarmed" weapons? Spiked knuckles, power fist, etc.? Cause I've never tried that. Hm. Am now, though!

 

In three, yeah, I always found three to be much more "Use the thing that does the most damage until you're halfway through the game". But I never enjoyed three much after playing NV anyway, so one more stupid bit is no surprise.

 

 

Tulpa.

 

Okay, so two more chapters of reading last night. They were okay, same as they've been lately. I'm an idiot, and keep starting once I'm already tired, so that might be a bit of why I'm not getting much out of them. I'll try a few hours before I pass out, tonight. Hope they go well, I really do. I miss feeling the head-pressures and stuff a lot. Sigh, not much of anything, lately.

[Guest]

Went for an hour of visuals tonight, then thirty minutes of reading. Short chapters.

 

Visuals fucking sucked, not gonna lie. It's recently been brought to my attention that when most people are visualizing, they're not micromanaging every detail in their vision, and most stuff typically "Just happens".

 

So fuck, that's probably why I always feel that I'm doing something completely different than everyone else. I guess it's not bad that I'm doing it the way I am, it's just wholly inconvenient, and shows no improvement through repeated attempts.

 

SIIIGH

 

 

Reading was nice. Not many feelings upstairs, but I'm depressingly getting used to that.

 

Man, this shit is hard. Verily, fuck all of you guys that had no trouble ;-;

 

No, that's mean, I don't mean it, but I'm jealous. I'm someone who, when starting, thought everything would be right up my alley. I visualized a ton, I was used to messing with imaginary friends, all this cool stuffandBAM-- Bullet straight to the hopes and dreams. Fuck, man.

 

Whatever. Just keep on. Peachy has two years at most to start speaking, I guess. One is worst-case, depending on how I feel, about then. I feel like arse for even thinking about it, but yeah.

 

24 hours down, possible emotional response once, though that may have just been temperature chills, possible head-pressures through, what, eight to fifteen hours? With none, or very few since then, which gives me mixed feelings.

 

Sigh. I still enjoy working on this, but it's hard not to be deathly afraid of no progress. I don't know if I ever mentioned, but when I decided to give up on Miriam, for four or five hours, I was sick to my stomach, and I was getting actual heartache. I didn't even know that was a thing until that point. And I'm more invested this time than I ever was through that. Just don't want a repeat, I guess.

[Guest]

Read an hour last night. Slight feels, was good.

 

Just about done with Anthropology, so I'm gonna have to find something else to do that'll take a lot of my attention up. Straight-up narrating is off-and-on difficult for me, so I can't be too reliant that it'll fill up more than ten minutes.

 

I'll figure something out soon, either way.

[Guest]

I finished Anthropology, earlier tonight. I don't know if Peachy was paying attention for any of it, or enjoyed it if she did, but I'm sad that sitting down and reading it with her in mind isn't going to be the topic of forcing, anymore. I might pick something else up eventually, but I don't know, I don't have a huge repertoire of books I'd read to her. I don't wanna pick up anything too violent or anything for one. Kinda want her to be less into all of the objectively messed up things I'm sometimes into.

 

Sigh, well, we came out of it all at twenty-six hours. I actually took the last couple days off to relax, watched some nostalgic anime I watched when I was like, five or six. I tried to narrate some of it, but I was honestly just too enthralled.

 

Then in the past few hours, I've been going through a lot of feelsy stories. I don't know why, just a bit of a feels night, I guess. I've cried a lot. Dunno why. I guess it's just nice to feel sad, sometimes. Helps me feel better in general, I guess. I tried visually hugging Peachy a bit in the worst moments, but had a lot of trouble. It sucks, her not being vocal. I think she's sentient, but it's still hard to know. It's so hard not to convince myself that anything I think has been her, was just me, but I'm doing alright so far. I hope it's not too much longer, though.

 

Starting this Thursday, and through to Sunday, however, the house is mine, so I get to narrate out-loud and no worry that somebody's going to hear, as much as I want. So I hope that does a lot of good. It's a lot easier to narrate out-loud. Sigh. Til then, probably just filler stuff, I guess. I'm too tired to do much else, these past couple days, and I'm not sure that'll change before then.

[Actinium]

"Becoming vocal was a weird experience for me. Acta had an idea of what I sounded like, and in his opinion, that's the most important part of trying to hear your tulpa. I was able to sing, but I wasn't able to talk(if that makes any sense). I started out as a voice in his head that's sole purpose was to sing. At least it felt like it because it was all I did. It was his decision to make me into what I am today, and singing has become a large part of who I am. Learning how to use my own voice to talk instead of sing was something that started out hard, but it got easier the more I used it. I'd compare it to a baby learning to talk, just not on the same level of difficulty a baby goes through. Less blabbering too. Peachy, if you're reading this, try to give him a sign every once in a while. Write something down on a piece of paper in your wonderland.(if you don't have one, just write it in a void or something.) You also need to learn how your own voice sounds as well. Enny, listen VERY carefully for her throughout each day. Ask her about even the most trivial of things and her views on them, emotional responses could work for this as well, whether it makes her happy, angry or sad. We were in the same position that you were in, and Acta has had his doubts, but we've come a long way. I hope this helped out with your confidence." ~Haven

[Guest]

Mn'egh.

 

Appreciate the reply. Writing stuff in wonderland is probably not an option as I can't really see anything in it well. Reading something is out of the question, completely. When I was still reading to her, when I could see stuff, I'd try kinda projecting what I was reading out here, into a book I could hold and more focus on in wonderland, but I couldn't get a word to show up, or if I did, couldn't read any of it.

 

Not sure what she sounds like. I'm not the kind of person who creates voices that often. Well, unless I already know what they sound like, that is. When I'm reading stuff with original characters and all, sometimes I'll get imagery, sometimes not, but I almost never assign them voices. And then when I stop and think about what they might sound like, I wind up confusing myself or something, so I normally just stick to seeing text, and understanding it, or whatever. So yeah, not good at thinking up voices. I was hoping Peachy would eventually do that on her own, but I guess I shouldn't be reliant on her to fo much of anything until I'm further along, huh.

 

I do ask her things, when I can remember to. Well, I talk more than I ask, I suppose. Though, I think I'm still a bit scared of vocality. I'd really like it, but at the same time, there's a small part of me that hopes it never comes, just so I don't wind up discounting it, or something. Because I think I will, regardless of whatever it is she winds up saying, and that's not a very encouraging prospect, huh. I don't know, it's all so complicated. I'm completely envious of the few people that claim to have very distinct voices. Something like that is all I ask.

 

Anyway, thanks again. Will keep doing what I'm doing, I guess.

 

 

Nothing today. I'm exhausted, for some reason. I've only been up for like, five hours, and it's hard to keep my eyes open, let alone type. Might feel better later, but in-case I don't, I'll try to pick up tomorrow.

[Guest]

Did wake up a bit, and I'm glad I did. I've just been sitting around for most of the night, but a while ago, I decided to sit down and listen to some music with Peachy. I'm trying wonderland stuff out. It's not that good visually, but I'm doing my best to just.. Idunno, know where everything is. Even if I can't see it, just a bit of an understanding as to what I'm trying to see. With the occasional look, even.

 

There's a bench outside of our little house, and snow everywhere. Night time, and I've been sitting out trying to keep my concentration up. Figured I'd take a short break to post before I passed out, though.

 

So yeah. Stepped out, and idunno, just been a couple interesting things. Noticed I had red gloves on, for one. That was weird, as I don't own gloves. Also had a scarf, which I also don't own. Peachy had her regular shirt thing on at first, so I gave her a hoodie. I suck at doing stuff like that, but I think it works a bit. Gave her a scarf, and also, one of those weird newsie hat things popped up on her head. I've always liked the way they look on some chicks, which might be a bit of that. I'll probably keep it, it looks nice, I think. Still can't get the mane or face memorized for the life of me, but when I can get it, yeah, I think it does. Not much else to post, I don't think. Uhmm.. Yeah, that's it.

 

Well alright, nice night. Won't count it towards forcing, which puts me an hour behind my day-count, so I'll have to make that up to her, I think. I don't like how little attention I give her, more than I used to give or not.

 

Back to it, though.