Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Lt Sprinkulz]

First tip, and not to be an asshole, but lighten up. Nebri, my tulpa, HATES negative energy and bad thoughts. She's even gone so far as to fight off random bad thoughts. My self-made conclusion is that positive thoughts and energy really help in the creation process, and if you can keep up a good attitude it will help tremendously.

[Guest]

Aha, well, the positive outlook was highest for the first few weeks of doing this nearly two years ago, and after a while kinda just died.

 

I'm nowhere near as sucky as I was even half a year ago, where my sessions would be strictly worrying and complaining with minimal actual stuff thrown in. Posts were probably even worse. I can't stop being worried, but I'm doing as well as I'm capable of not getting absolutely discouraged and giving up. It's incredibly hard.

 

Idunno, I know it's hard for most people to see why I get irritated so easily. I don't mean to, it's just been so long. Mostly my fault for not doing enough in the past, but eh, sucks to suck, huh. So yeah, I try to be positive, but often suck at it. If Peachy wants to tell me off for being such a downer, she's welcome to any day, eh?

[Guest]

Just got done doing the music stuff again. Wore sunglasses this time as well. Which felt moderately weird, under my headphones. I already do what I can to block out all light, at all times, in my room, but it gets through somehow anyway. So yeah, sunglasses helped with that.

 

But nah, it was good. Didn't go for very long, but I enjoy doing it. Laid out in the snow, had her next to me, stared up at stuff. Still had trouble seeing much, though. I've found it helps listening to like.. Energetic, but fairly simple and uplifting things. Vocals are pretty out of the question, and bores the hell out of me, so I'm sadly limited in what I've got. Tried some Pink noise near the end of it, but that was doing exactly nothing for me. Too boring, I guess.

 

Dunno. Tried to get her memorized with that hat on, but that went as well as usual, I guess. I really wish I could draw her, sometimes, but despite knowing it takes effort, I get pissed off with myself before I can improve. Sigh. Ah well. Form isn't the most important thing, I guess. Once she gets talking in however long, I can probably get her help, anyway.

 

Pretty clueless on what else to do, I guess. Except narrate, I guess. Ah well. Another night without any real forcing. I'll try to make it up in narrating tomorrow (Today, I guess), on through Sunday.

[shadowjonathan]

hello, after i read your 12 pages of failure, i came up with a few idea's your could try:

(doing this oon my 3ds, because parents decided to be a jerk)

(also, i'm just starting with tulpa's)

dont try vocally one session, intsead, walk up to her with some sheets of paper, and ask her to write it down instead of trying to speaking it out loud (i have no experience with brownies btw).

also try something like a chat–window, just "type" it down and give her another phone with chat or something.

hope this helps.

[Guest]

Aha, wow, I'm both flattered and sorry that you read through all of that. This isn't even my first progress report, haha. Yeah, that one was another 36 or so pages, I think. Just more failure and complaining.

 

I appreciate the recommendation, but sadly, I can't visually read. Like.. Idunno if that sounds weird. It's nigh impossible for me to imagine text on a page, and be able to visualize it. I could totally imagine what text on a page would say, but that'd be more like mindvoice, or something.

 

But yeah, thanks anyway, friend, I'll figure something out eventually, whatever the case.

 

 

As an aside, Parents are finally gone, can get all narrate-ey up and around the house, yo! Well, in a few hours, anyway. I've only slept like. Four hours, don't know why I woke up a few minutes ago. Yeah, I'll do stuff when I'm awake, later.

[shadowjonathan]

Meh, another idea, do pictures then instead of words, or colors (just suggesting)

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And btw, its normal, our subconscious sees the peripheral vision most of the time, so imaging things will be automatically corrected by s-con and appear blurry

[Guest]

KHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!

 

Goddamn it, Mr. Nimoy, why did you have to go? Why do all of the good ones have to die? Man, I'm fucking sad. Like, really, really sad.. Rest in peace, you were one of my heroes. As somebody whose family has always been Trekkies, you really were.

 

 

Last night was nice. Spoke aloud a lot, and I think got some more headpains, as well as possibly coincidental tingles. Was listening to a lot of old Daft Punk, and was like "Man, Peachy, I love Daft Punk", and got some tingles. And then I was like, "Oh, do you too?", and got nothing. Then "..No?", and tingles. Sigh. I hope those were just poorly timed, haha. Fine if not, but jeez, where did I go wrong? Aha.

 

No active work last night, though. I'll have to do a bit of that at some point or another. For now, I'll be introducing Peachy to the original series of Star Trek. Glad we own every one, huh.

 

Rest in peace, old friend.

[shadowjonathan]

who's mr nimoy? (am i missing something?)

[sushi]

Just heard about it from you. I was always more about the later Treks than ToS, but I'm sorry to see him go.

 

Edit: shadowjonathan, he's the actor who played Spock.

[shadowjonathan]

*what you wrote just hitted me*

well i guess that's good progress, just go on, and maybe you and peachy will eventually speak together.

btw imagine:

try to imagine yourself in your wonderworld, but your train of thought is constantly interrupted /corrupted and you cant think straight, you cant speak, you can only let tingles happen on your host's body.

i think this is the status peachy is in right now.

btw pm me if you get tingles reading this post (if peachy is looking/listening i guess she definitely will let know)