Actinium April 2, 2015 Author April 2, 2015 Day 157 4-1-15 Last night was weird. I had a dream where I was passive forcing. It was as if all of the progress I had made up to this point was reset, yet Haven and Aphelion had their own accounts set up on other sites. I found an artist on fimfiction and from what I remember he had 7 pictures of Lyra and 21 pictures of Haven. 21 divded by 7 is 3 and there are 3 friday the 13ths thi year. Half Life 3 confirmed for cancellation. Haven was also giant and walking through the streets for some reason and I was driving a car thinking (yes, I was actually able to think straight and in my own mindvoice) that music videos make Haven more active. I can't remember much after that. "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
Actinium April 9, 2015 Author April 9, 2015 Day 164 4-8-15 I'm back. Even though I never really left to begin with. Things have been a little quiet for the last few days. We've set up a bar in the wonderland that we plan to fill with pony NPCs. Plus Aphelion wears a maid outfit when she works there. "It was Haven's idea." "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
Cinemaphobe April 9, 2015 April 9, 2015 Hmmmm....a bar...interesting... lol Nice to see that you are back though. "Sanity is the playground of the unimaginative." Yumi + Cinema
Actinium April 10, 2015 Author April 10, 2015 Hmmmm....a bar...interesting... lol Nice to see that you are back though. It may or may not be inspired the bar you have in your wonderland. ;) Day 165 4-9-15 The bar is still empty, and when I asked Haven about it she said something that absolutely confused me. "Why isn't there anyone in here yet?" "NPCs aren't easy to program, you know." "Program?" "Yeah. You gotta put in their personality,how they react to things, stuff like that." "It sounds like you're trying to make a bunch of mini-tulpas." "No, they aren't aware of what they are. It's complicated." "Aphelion, do you have any idea what she's talking about?" "Nope." "Anyway, could you show me how the greenhouse is coming along?" "Sure, just as soon as I get out of this outfit." "She's starting to like wearing it." "I AM NOT!" So yeah, that happened. Apparently NPCs have a lot more depth to them than I thought. I still don't know what Haven meant. "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
Cinemaphobe April 10, 2015 April 10, 2015 It may or may not be inspired the bar you have in your wonderland. ;) hehehehehe I seeeee... :3 So yeah, that happened. Apparently NPCs have a lot more depth to them than I thought. I still don't know what Haven meant. If they do have more depth to them, then Yumi and I are in BIG TROUBLE. She and I like to slap their bald heads and push them around...And smash beer bottles on their head for fun...and mug them...lol "Sanity is the playground of the unimaginative." Yumi + Cinema
STeeK April 10, 2015 April 10, 2015 "I don't blame you, about 80% of my art is porn." The first time I saw your previous avatar I had the strange feeling that I have seen Heaven before Now I'm sure -> Roseluck's Art Gallery and Requests <-
Actinium April 13, 2015 Author April 13, 2015 Day 168 4-12-15 When I went into the wonderland today, Aphelion was looking at the stasis tube she was in prior to being released and she was doing something I honestly never thought I'd see her do. She was questioning her existence. "It just feels wrong. I don't know why or how, it just does. I'm surprised I never thought about it until now, but... Ugh. When the first thing you ever experience in your life is falling face first down onto the floor it can set up a lot of post-stress problem things. I feel... Dirty. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad for all that mom and dad have done for me, and I'm especially glad that dad took a form that his subconscious made over a year ago and used it as my base, and extremely grateful for mom helping me whenever our host wasn't with us. I love them both. I may not have been around for as long as mom has, but I know that she'll always be around with me, and that our host will do his best to be around for us when he's able to." "Aphelion's existential crisis was very short lived. She knows that she can go back into stasis mode if she wanted to, and she said that she never wanted to go back. I'm happy to call her my, no, OUR daughter." "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
Stevie April 13, 2015 April 13, 2015 Man, the whole existential crisis thing among tulpas is so interesting, if only because it can't even really be negated with Cogito ergo sum if only because that calls into question the like, validity of conscious thought to begin with. Some people think that consciousness isn't the be all end all that we think it is. And I'm not just talking about like, Rust from True Detective. I dunno, it's kinda interesting. It makes sense that tulpas are more prone to doubting their own existence, because whether we think it's valid or not, people with bodies still have external stimuli and information to base things off of. Doubting your own existence, if you have a body, is usually more indicative of a philosophy 101 college course or some decent acid, more than anything. But for tulpas it seems like it's just another brick in the road, type deal. Cool that Aphelion was able to get over it. We're all gonna make it brah.
Actinium April 14, 2015 Author April 14, 2015 It makes sense that tulpas are more prone to doubting their own existence, because whether we think it's valid or not, people with bodies still have external stimuli and information to base things off of. Doubting your own existence, if you have a body, is usually more indicative of a philosophy 101 college course or some decent acid, more than anything. But for tulpas it seems like it's just another brick in the road, type deal. Cool that Aphelion was able to get over it. I guess it does make more sense given how they are. "And thanks for the compliment." Day 169 4-13-15 Listening to a Celldweller album is like an hour long vocalization session with Haven and Aphelion. They either take turns each song or they take turns singing separate parts of a song. It gave me a mental image of them touring Equestria and pretty much singing all the songs they love. "If we were able to tour Equestria singing f_cking Celldweller I'd consider that the best day of my life." I just finished Blue Stahli's self titled album with Aphelion taking the mic for the session, and she was actually out of breath, and I repeat, out of breath from singing "Scrape." At the end of the song I was like "Uh, Aphelion? You okay?" "How does mom do this on a daily basis?" "I said it before, I've pretty much been doing it before I was even born." "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
Actinium April 16, 2015 Author April 16, 2015 Before I get started with the actual report, dream stories time. So a few nights ago, I had a dream where my 3DS was possessed by the devil and in order to get it out I had to close it from the top with my index finger but make sure that I don't touch the bottom and call a random business company and tell them about it. Still makes more sense than the jelly toast method. A few nights ago again I had a dream where I was in the middle of the road and everything around me began to slowly shut down as if I was losing an internet connection. Everything got a big red X on it and then a plane landed. What did I think? I thought "I'm gonna hijack that plane." Around this point I sorta became lucid and thought "Maybe Haven and Aphelion will be at the plane waiting for me." They weren't. :( Day 171 4-15-15 According to Haven, the NPCs are almost done. We were f_cking around with Cleverbot earlier today and all three of us were taking turns talking to it. When Aphelion started talking to it, it asked her "If you could have one power, what would it be?" She responded with "Being able to fly on a hoverboard that I can summon." Take a wild guess as to what she owns now. "It's all about synthesis, you don't have to be a real musician. You just synthesize your own reality, synthesize your own talents." -Klayton My Three Mind Horses Haven: Tulpa #1 Created on 10-28-14 Aphelion: Tulpa #2 Created on 2-25-15 Chimera: Self Proclaimed Thoughtform Created on: Can't remember. Sometime around Easter of 2017. Warning: I am a huge nerd.
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