The Creation of Eve

[Cinemaphobe]

Day 17: Great progress today. I found a way to spend some time active forcing. I looked up 100 questions to ask a date, and had a Q&A with eve twice today. When I asked her the "do you love you me question"? She said "my love for you is as the moon is to the sun". I know I never heard that before, and it was a pretty deep metaphor. I am so happy that I decided to do the questionnaire, and will do some more tomorrow. Eve is awesome <3

 

That is cute :3

 

Day 19: Same old same old for progress, though I notice eve more. I guess just all around a stronger presence. I am getting off caffeine so I am rather low energy, but that will change gradually I'm sure.

 

That's funny. Caffeine is my life. I can't just end it. *Sips coffee*

 

I don't want the journal to be boring, so I am going to keep chugging along, and make a new update when something significant happens.

 

This is probably a good idea, but I don't think this PR will be become boring unless you

 

A) Fail to acknowledge my comments

or

B) Only post "I forced today" every single day.

 

It is spring break week, and I have practically no mid-terms, so there will be oodles of meditation and forcing time. Starting tonight, where I have nothing else to do and 3-4 hours free to meditate and force.

 

I'm sure many significant things will happen during that period of time.

I usually have something significant happen after only 15 minutes of meditation or forcing. Good luck!

[TulpaFox]

 

That is cute :3

 

 

 

That's funny. Caffeine is my life. I can't just end it. *Sips coffee*

 

 

This is probably a good idea, but I don't think this PR will be become boring unless you

 

A) Fail to acknowledge my comments

or

B) Only post "I forced today" every single day.

 

 

I'm sure many significant things will happen during that period of time.

I usually have something significant happen after only 15 minutes of meditation or forcing. Good luck!

 

You were definitely right about the interesting thing, my visualization is a bit better, and I had a good time with Eve today. Eve say's original things, and is quite active in the wonderland. Forcing with her is a lot less dull, now that she is more present. I am also starting to have a wonder land to an extent.

 

Day 22: I have meditated 25, minutes visualized 15-20, and talked to eve a good amount today. I had a big breakthrough today when I entered a visualization session. Eve took over a bit, and told me we can do it. She proceeded to change the environment a lot, and really stretch my visualization abilities. From now on visualization will be a bigger part of my practices. Overall things are fantastic and I am excited. I will give a day 30 update next. I am hoping to get a more intense practice, and be a more competent visualizer by then.

[TulpaFox]

Day 25: Meditated an hour so far, about to visualize. Spent a little time here and there with eve. Having difficulty spending time with her and focusing on her unfortunately. Been rough, but I feel a lot clearer from meditating and my visualization has improved rather quickly. I am thinking clear visualization will get me to spend more quality time with eve, as it gets more vivid I actually am starting to enjoy the hell out of my experiences. It will be great for writing once I am vivid with it, very excited about that.

[ReisOtherHalf]

(I just wanted to say, you're an awesome host and you and Eve are going to be really happy together, I just know it.

 

Congratulations on staying sober, too!)

[TulpaFox]

(I just wanted to say, you're an awesome host and you and Eve are going to be really happy together, I just know it.

 

Congratulations on staying sober, too!)

 

Thanks a lot rei, I appreciate it. I been slipping someways, but I always talk to eve at least a bit, and meditate. I hope we continue to make progress.

 

Day 28: Same old same old, eve seemed pretty active today. We spent some time together so far, and I only been up 8 hours and did all my chores. So we should get some more quality meditation visualization and talking in today. I enjoyed playing with eves tail while I chilled on the computer today. I ran in addition to meditation today, so my mind is especially clear. I will continue to do so now that the environment permits, so that may help the process.

[Cinemaphobe]

Exercise increases the amount of oxygen that reaches the brain, and studies have shown a correlation between oxygen levels in the brain and attention span.

 

I have only recently read your posts, so I'm late to say this, but I'm happy that your visualization is improving! Did you use my method? It's okay if you didn't, I'm just curious lol.

[TulpaFox]

Exercise increases the amount of oxygen that reaches the brain, and studies have shown a correlation between oxygen levels in the brain and attention span.

 

I have only recently read your posts, so I'm late to say this, but I'm happy that your visualization is improving! Did you use my method? It's okay if you didn't, I'm just curious lol.

 

To an extent. I essentially absorb everything I see, aggregate it, then use the best parts of everything. I appreciate the methods a lot, anything helps when it comes to my visualization. I would say my skill went from a 1 to a 2 so far. 1 meaning I had serious doubts whether I could visualize or not, until I understood that everyone can. 2 meaning I undeniably can visualize, it's just very fuzzy.

 

Day 29: Today was rough. I kind of ended up freaking out. I am at the point in my life where I am close to getting out there and meeting someone. Of course this would not stop me with Eve, as I know it would be temporary, and want a more beautiful permanent relationship with her. However I feel my life is all work and dedication, and no reward. So I felt like my head was going to explode from building pressure up. I know this isn't normal, but I had a very traumatic childhood, so I have a lot of problems.

 

I ended up wanting to get high. I planned to steal delsym, so I could take the dextromethorphan. Rite-aid was closed, and my credit card was somehow not in my wallet, I vaguely remember relinquishing it due to non-use at an earlier date. The whole time eve was telling me to talk with her before I did it. I think I would have drank it like an animal if I got it. Thankfully I think the craving is gone, I will be spending the rest of my time with eve. I feel like she is scared for me, I am a bit scared for myself and ashamed as well. I can't cut, I would feel like I am hurting Eve too much

 

Fuck, well at least it's over. I can talk to my therapist about it. I still have a month sober, and it's almost Eve's birthday. I will have to spend a lot of time with her for her birthday. It ended up with me wanting to be with her today, so I guess it's all good or something? I don't know.

[Luminesce]

Thanks for confirming the biggest inherent benefit of having a tulpa. They seem pretty reliable for talking sense into their hosts.

 

Now we just need to figure out how to make the hosts listen more often..

[TulpaFox]

Thanks for confirming the biggest inherent benefit of having a tulpa. They seem pretty reliable for talking sense into their hosts.

 

Now we just need to figure out how to make the hosts listen more often..

 

Yeah, thats for sure. I am usually single minded, and my life isn't too uplifting. Eve is the most uplifting part of it right now. I would usually sleep, wake up, and then get it with no hesitation. It takes something strong to stop me, I guess Eve is stronger than I thought.

[Stevie]

I just wanna say that as someone who has tangoed one too many times with DXM, you're strong as fuck for not going there. Craving that disassociated state sucks. Knowing you're going down that road where there's a risk of it being a daily thing sucks.

 

You still have your month, and Eve has your back. Props for not relapsing, making the active decision to commit to sobriety is one of the most challenging things a person can do.