Cas and Sam's adventures

[Stanheights]

Eyyyy, a morning update. Kinda.

 

So it's 5 am. That's nice. I was just gonna go to bed and then I thought that hey, why not write a short update on this thing?

 

I meditated for about 8 minutes yesterday, a bit shorter than 10 but it still went pretty well. While I meditated I slipped into dreamscape again, because I basically always end up going there when meditating. And while in there, I looked into the woods and saw a blue light there. I walked towards it and found myself standing in some.. thing. It was just this blue-ish space with two benches. It was really cool to be honest, even though there wasn't much to see there. I did put some white flower there, though, because I thought that would look nice.

 

I didn't and haven't talked much to Sam, which is something I need and want to do. I'm just.. really bad at talking to people, really.

 

But yes, that's what I did yesterday if I haven't mentioned it already. Today I'm probably gonna sleep until about 4 or 5 pm. I think Sam's been asleep for a while so he'll have to make it on his own while I'm asleep. I'm sure he could just go into my dreams and stuff if he wanted to. I mean, we do share the same brain and all that.

[Stanheights]

Today I actually kind of hung out with Sam.

 

We went to the place I found yesterday and sat there for a while. I'm kind of impatient so I didn't stay too long, but it was nice. We had peanut butter & jelly sandwiches and yeah. It was really nice.

 

I also found out another thing about him; his favorite colour. I think it's blue. And I think he actually made that place that I found yesterday. I'm not sure, but I think so.

 

It was actually pretty nice to just hang out with him today, I need to do that more.

[Stanheights]

Wooo, I still haven't fixed my sleeping schedule. I'm considering going to bed now, because I'm so tired from being up all night, but I gotta at least stay up a bit longer. Like just a little longer than yesterday.

 

I think Sam is asleep right now, because it's just kinda... quiet in my head. It's kinda hard to explain. But yeah, he's probably asleep. I think our sleeping schedules are a bit different from each other.

 

I didn't meditate yesterday, but I'm gonna do it today. I've got lots of personal things I've gotta fix honestly, like my sleeping schedule but there's more, so it's pretty hard to concentrate on things.. but I'll try and do more things with Sam today.

[Stanheights]

I woke up at 8 pm today and I haven't done anything since I woke up.

 

I'm gonna meditate now and check how Sam's doing, because we haven't really gotten the chance to talk lately. Not much, anyway.

[Stanheights]

Yep, being up at times like these is getting wayyyy easier now.

 

I think I'm gonna try and stay up til maybe.. 4 pm. Yeah. That seems like a good time to go to bed, because then I'll probably wake up pretty early but not too late.

 

I feel kinda bad for not talking much to Sam, but at least he's not mad at me. I asked him and I'm fairly sure he said no.

 

One thing I'm probably not gonna do today is meditate, because then I'll probably just fall asleep or something, even if I sit up while doing it.

[Stanheights]

Okay, I guess 11 am is a pretty good time to go and sleep at? I mean, if I'm lucky I might actually sleep until tomorrow.

 

I feel really bad about not speaking so much to Sam, to be honest. Like he deserves to be talked to. At least he's not mad at me. I think. I guess that's good.

 

Well, whenever I wake up I'm gonna try and talk to Sam a bit and maybe even meditate. But as always I'm really bad at doing things so we'll see how that goes. I'm sure that doing things will get easier when I've fixed my sleeping schedule.

[Stanheights]

I just realized I didn't update on here at all yesterday. But that was because I went to bed at 1 pm.

 

Before doing that I talked to Sam, though. I went to dreamscape and hugged him and then he lied down with me there and cuddled. Which was really nice.

 

Today is the day I fix my sleeping schedule for good. I can feel it. I mean I woke up at almost 1 am so I'll most likely be able to stay up all day tomorrow.

 

And I'll also get my ADD medication tomorrow so focusing on Sam will get easier. That's good, because school starts soon and I'm not sure if I'll be able to focus a lot of time on him, with homework and all that. But I'll still try. I mean, we have breaks and stuff, and that'll give me at least some time to spend with him.

 

Man, I really look forward to hanging out with Sam during school and stuff. It'll be really nice. I also really look forward to him talking more freely, because he still usually just answers with "yeah"/"yes" and simple answers.

 

I guess I just really really look forward to having him around and having him in my life.

[Stanheights]

So yesterday me and my dad went on a small adventure, can't really count it as an adventure, but yeah. I brought Sam along.

 

I talked to him more than I have these last couple of days yesterday. And I plan on talking more to him today. I mean, we've already talked a little. He's had breakfast at the same time as me basically and I let him help me make small choices while I was getting breakfast. That was pretty nice.

 

I think I'm gonna try and meditate today. Probably twice if I can, one time pretty soon and then once more later. That sounds like a good idea.

 

I'm totally ready to start focusing more on Sam. The only problem is that I'm not 100% sure what I could do. I guess I'll just look at the list I made before.

 

Also, I think one of the reasons I haven't talked to him much (other than my sleeping schedule being weird) is because.. well, I'm not sure what to talk about. I guess I'm just not really that used to talking to Sam just yet. I don't know. I'll figure it out, though.

[Stanheights]

Well, today has been pretty alright.

 

I meditated for about 5 minutes, which isn't much, but it's a start at least.

 

I've talked to Sam a bit throughout the day, though I didn't talk much for a while because I've kind of gotten addicted to Dragon Age: Origins. But Sam watched me play it most of the time, I think, so I'm pretty sure that was fine.

 

Sam also cheered me up a bit a while ago when I felt down because of personal things. I just imagined holding his hand and walking with him and stuff, and I also got an 'image' of him jokingy dancing to the song I was listening to while I was out on a walk with the dog. I'm really glad I've got him honestly, though I really need to spend more time with him.

[Stanheights]

Alright, today I'm gonna try and focus a bit on visualization and I'm also gonna meditate later.

 

I should start doing the things I wrote down on my list.

 

I'm not entirely sure how much I'll be able to update the progress report when school starts, but I'll try to do it every day or so.