Cas and Sam's adventures

[Stanheights]

Yeah, I was gonna write something on here yesterday, but I didn't because I ended up talking to a friend of mine most of the night.

 

And I haven't really heard much from Sam since yesterday, or well, I'm just not sure if he's talked to me this morning at all.

 

I still have to look up a list on things we can do together, because on my own it's kind of hard to think of anything other than talking. I'm honestly so bad at doing things on the weekend. Like seriously sooo baaaddddddd.

 

For now I'm just gonna take it easy for a bit, though, and then get to doing some stuff with Sam.

[Stanheights]

Okay, so, it's happened again. Things and friends have gotten in the way of me and Sam doing things together.

 

I'm not sure how to make all that work, honestly. Like.. I don't know. I'll have to make it work somehow.

 

I won't go into dreamscape tonight, or at least I don't think so. Sam said he's okay with watching me play dragon age for a while so I guess he's gonna do that.

 

I really, really need to work on these sort of things, because I don't want to give up on my social life but I'd definitely never want to give up on Sam. I'll have to find a balance between the two.

[Stanheights]

So I might have screwed my sleeping schedule over again. Maybe.

 

Yeah, I went to bed at 6 am today. That's a very bad idea.

 

I'm kind of disappointed I haven't done much with Sam this weekend, but I've just talked to so many friends of mine. And I'm probably gonna talk to lots of friends of mine today, too.

 

I hope Sam isn't mad at me because of the fact that I just haven't talked to him much.

[Adamaï]

Don't worry, I bet you'll get better with time. Also you can just bring Sam along when you do stuff with your friends (if they talk with you all the time, then not), but you need to seek out a time for sam also. I mean, if you are really busy, half an hour a week is still more than enough, but thats up to you to decide.

As for things to do I'm too short on those :) But what I like to do, is a bit of roleplaying, like going on an adventure in an uncharted valley, or travel to a distant planet, or go in a creepy cave. Possebillitys are endless and it's fun too.

Wish ya' good luck & much fun.

[Stanheights]

Today has been a pretty bad day.

 

I haven't talked to Sam much, both because I literally forgot to and also because my brain's been a literal mess and I've been so tired it's ridiculous. I feel pretty bad about that.

 

Another thing I feel bad about is the fact that Sam became '1 month old' two days ago and I didn't notice.

 

So many things to feel bad about, so little time.

 

I might try and talk to him a bit more now that I'm home, but.. I don't know. I'm not sure if he's really.. there? It's hard to explain. I think he might be mad at me or something. I can understand why. I've kinda ditched him a lot these last couple of days for other friends. I think I might tell my friends about him sometime soon, because maybe then they could remind me to talk to him and maybe ask how he's doing and what-not. That'd be pretty cool. Yeah, I might tell at least my closest friend about it. Maybe.

 

But yeah, today was one of the really bad days. But we'll make it and I'll just keep fighting.

[Stanheights]

Yeah, I went to bed a little early today. At around 4 or 5 pm. Bad idea.

 

Sam was mad at me for a bit. I asked him if I could tell some of my friends about him and he was acting all grumpy and said "well MY opinions don't matter ANYWAY!" but I kinda accidentally cut him off there. It's alright now, though. I think.

 

Before I fell asleep I made some changes in dreamscape. I made myself a room (after asking Sam if he wanted one, too, but he said no). It's pretty much like my own room in real life, except the walls are darker and some other minor things. I went to bed there in dreamscape and I'm pretty sure I fell asleep there. And before I went to sleep I gave Sam a kiss because yes. I do that.

 

I gotta try harder to focus on him tomorrow, though that might be a bit hard because I'm probably gonna be really tired. But I'll try.

 

And next weekend I'm not gonna hang out with anyone and just spend time with Sam. Because I think he and I should spend some time on our own.

[Stanheights]

Today went better than yesterday. That's pretty great.

 

I've just spent most of my school day explaining stuff to Sam and describing what I'm doing to him.

 

And during one class I just kinda closed my eyes and put my head on the table and imagined Sam being there with me, like just holding my hand and stuff. That was really really nice. And then I just played with his hair a bit at another point (I also made this tiny braid there). I really love playing with his hair, it's so soft and nice.

 

I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with him today, because I'm not feeling so good. I guess you could say I'm tired, but not really in the sleepy way.

 

I guess I'll just try and find some list of stuff to do, because I totally forgot about that before.

[Stanheights]

Okay, okay, okay, so, I did it. I told my closest friend about Sam.

 

I just wrote her a message on facebook and tried to explain it and I also told her that she could ask me stuff about Sam if she wants to.

 

She probably won't answer until later, and I mean, I'm probably gonna take a nap soon anyway. So I guess I'll see her reply later. I really hope she's fine with it and I hope she doesn't judge me or something.

 

I forgot to mention that I let Sam control my left hand for a while during school before, and he really just put on Mr. Maker by The Kooks on my phone on spotify. And then after that he kinda kept controlling it for a bit, but it was like we were both controlling it. I guess we did co-op on that for a short while. It was kinda interesting.

 

I think I might let Sam help me decide on what I should make in crafts, like what I should sew. It's only the first class of it tomorrow, but still. That'd be fun.

 

And I think I'm gonna try and explain or describe what I'm doing during the day, because I think that went pretty well today.

 

Another thing I forgot to mention was that when I felt grumpy earlier Sam kind of told me to calm down. Aaaand, when I was outside and asked him if we could do some thought ping-pong sometime (I explained what it was) and told him to try and say a whole sentence back he said "Yes, I'd be willing to do that.". I'm so not used to him speaking longer sentences, I'm literally so not used to it that it feels a bit weird. But hey, it's kind of a start. Or I mean, I guess it's not much of a start since he has said sentences before, but from now on I might tell him to try and say sentences more, if he wants to.

 

Also, I think I dreamt about Sam last night. But I'm not sure, because my dreams are so weird. They are vivid in a way, but they're just.. flashing by, almost. I do remember lying on the floor with him or something, though. Maybe I woke up in dreamscape (as in lucid dreaming?) and lied there with him. I don't know. But I gotta say, my dreams have gotten a lot more interesting since I made Sam.

[ex ou]

Good stuff. Here to claim post #69 if you don't mind. Good luck, too.

[Stanheights]

My friend's reaction was basically just "okay", as I expected.

 

I'm not sure if she'll ask anything the next time we talk, I guess we'll see.

 

I've talked quite a lot to Sam today. I asked him what he thought of George Watsky and he literally just said "bad". I asked him about some other artists or bands (can't remember what it was) and I got to know what he thought of them.

 

We've talked most of the time today, except when I started making this "fake" language for a story I kinda started working on today. It's kind of inspired by the elven language from dragon age, but I really just made up the words. I might let Sam help me with some of the words later, if he wants to. I think he told me to make some word I created mean "bread", but I don't remember which one. And I didn't make the word mean that, because... yeah, I guess I came up with something else.

 

I fell asleep at around 5 pm yesterday, and it was supposed to be just a nap but I kiiiiinda slept the whole night until about 4 am. Whoops.

I remember waking up once, though. I think it was because of the rain or something, but I do remember feeling pretty happy because it was raining, because I like rain. I'm pretty sure I told Sam about it, too. I've talked to him quite a lot while half-asleep.

 

I'm not sure if I'm gonna do anything with him today, maybe just talk a bit later on. I know I should probably do some exercises, but going to school really takes a lot of energy. I'll make sure to do it sometime, though. When I have the time and the energy for it.