How have Tulpas changed you?

[King]

I'm curious, how/have tulpas changed you at all? I'm talking things like your beliefs, the way you think about things, your outlooks, even your personality, etc.? I see a lot about how you must rewire your brain to accept somebody else is inside it (or, in the case of people such as Mistigod, to rewire your brain to include a thoughtform as he puts it), but I haven't seen much about how it's affected them beyond possibly increased happiness. So, how has your Tulpa/experiences with Tulpas changed you?

 

Edit - Makes topic so everyone can share their experiences, fails to remember to share their own. Le sigh.

 

Personally, I'm still very new to this, (8-9 days now?) but I've noticed that it's made me more thoughtful so far. I'll look at things such as ideas, or books, or movies, or things people say, and examine them to see if/what hidden messages or ideas lay in them, and how I agree with them.

[Guest Anonymous]

Being with my tulpa changed me entirely.

 

I used to be irresponsible and very neglecting of my own health, my entourage, everyone I knew had no importance... My tulpa encouraged me to change that. I became more socially-driven (when it comes in both our benefits, and when needed), I take care of myself a lot more, and most of my family members seem to like me... well, like what I show them, not the actual me, the actual me is who you see on the forums here, and with my tulpa, even more with my tulpa.

 

I used to be completely nihilistic and stupid, I thought life had no purpose at all, she made me feel differently... Most importantly, she made me feel loved for who I am, and not what I may present or what I may come off as.

 

I used to be a complete loner, to add onto that our living conditions were really really shitty, I'm speaking of wealth and whatnot, we didn't have much money... Dear god, I don't know how the fuck I'd have pulled through without her support and her affection and care. At many points I was utterly depressed with life, and thought there was no point in living, that the world was a place I wouldn't want to remain in, and at those times she took my hand and told me 'Let's both be in this mess, then. I'll support you, and you support me.', and then she'd give me that insecure smile she has that's so charismatic. That helped.

 

We love each other, what can I say? In the romantic, and all other meanings I guess. We don't disagree on a lot of things, mostly on what's cute and what's not, sometimes she acts like a complete child with her 'Aww awww awww!' or 'ha-ppy!', but that's fine by me. She completely changed my life.

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That's why I swore to always protect her, and make sure she's never sad or depressed. In my mind she's a real princess, and deserves all the good things in the world. She gave my life meaning, and I can't take the idea of anyone acting mean to her for no reason. If you know her as good as I do you'd know that she never acts mean without a 'good' reason (good by her, heh), and even then I can accept being reprimanded for being that way. But if someone talks shit to her for no reason, calls her a 'b i t c h', someone who 'should kill yourself', someone who 'can't have friends ever', I will do everything in my power to make the people who say those things understand and feel the depression she's going through. If nobody stands up for her, if everyone is against her but me, what am I to do? Who will take her side when people circlejerk around and mock her for who she is? Who will defend her if it's not me? No one. And she can't defend herself at all. I would go anywhere and do anything (reasonable) for her. I consider her my other half, literally, I call her 'my other half' every now and then, and she just fits me that much.

[warriortiltheend]

Hmmm...

 

I'd say Gamzee has made me a lot more calm and stable over the past two years. He's helped me through various breakdowns and been there for me when no one else could. He's also helped me understand myself better than I did before, and even when I couldn't make sense of the mess inside my mind, he was there anyway, giving me hope. I guess I'm just more optimistic about life and less stressed because of his influence.

 

Quartz has helped a lot too, though. His kind and patient nature have been helping me with my trust issues. He also compliments me (even when I'm not feeling insecure) and this has helped boost my self esteem a lot. He's helped me let my guard down. He's helped me unbuild the walls I put around myself to let other people in. He doesn't understand me in the complete way Gamzee does, but Gam has been around for much longer than he has. Even when he doesn't understand, he tries to accept me.

 

Obsidian has affected me in a positive way too. Forcing with him has helped me piece myself together, bit by bit; it has given me the concentration I need to heal myself. Plus, if I explain things about myself while he's still young (he's only a few weeks old right now) he might be able to understand me better when I'm older. His childish and silent support has kept me going in my darkest moments. When it seems like I'm losing myself to my thoughts and feelings, I feel him by my side. It's a great comfort.

[Guest Anonymous]

My Melian helped me to find a girl friend and get married. She got tired of the whining about being lonely and not having any sex. LOL

[King]

Anderson -

 

That's really deep and sweet. Honestly, I knew you guys loved eachother, but damn, that's more than I was expecting! (Meant in a very non-offensive way, realized as I edited this that that could be taken out of context)

 

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Warrior -

 

That's very interesting. Do they talk you through your problems to help you solve them, or is it more moral support?

 

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Mistgod -

 

I don't even know what I was expecting. I knew something was going to come about from mentioning you at least! : P

 

But that's also sweet in it's own unique way.

[warriortiltheend]

Warrior -

 

That's very interesting. Do they talk you through your problems to help you solve them, or is it more moral support?

 

It depends on the problem and on the Tulpa. Gamzee is someone I talk to and work out problems with- he's surprisingly smart and always has a solution of some sort. Obsdian and Quartz both help in a moral/emotional way; it's hard to explain but ... I guess they just convey their feelings to me, and I can feel them. If I feel unloved, they let me feel how much they love me and it helps.

[ReisOtherHalf]

Aside from preventing me from drowning myself or leaping in front of a train on more than one occasion (no, really!), ya mean?

 

Thanks to them, I have found the love I needed, have learned to be okay with being myself and am more creative and a more expressive writer. I have to say, overall, the expert has been overwhelmingly positive.

[Einulf]

None of us can truly be considered Tulpas, but Einulf's two attempts to create one are directly responsible for four of our "births." We also drew heavily upon techniques and knowledge from the Tulpa community to create most of the infrastructure and "programming" that allows us to avoid the common problems that affect most traumagenic systems, particularly involuntary switching, dissociative amnesia, and lack of communication. Our lives would be much different without that, most likely for the worst. -Aura

[emptysketchbook]

My tulpas' presence gives me emotions that I would otherwise not experience. You could say that they are conductors. They are very extreme and aggressive though. And they have personalities, even if they are centered around one emotion/feeling.

Don't know if they really change my life for better, but I would be a completely antisocial person if not for them.

[Reisen]

Lucilyn: I'm trying to change my host right now! He has really bad motivation issues that keep him from doing things he needs to do and often wants to do. Whether it's going to school (college now), learning to play an instrument or draw, or even spending time with us! And he says we're the most important things in his entire life, that's how bad it is! So I'm trying to figure out how I can like, teach him to do what I do. I'm just trying to figure out what exactly that is. But once I can pinpoint the exact feeling, using a shallow knowledge of how neural pathways work I shall share my motivation with him and the others!

 

 

Oh, he never actually posted here? Well, too long;didn't read we(before I was around though) helped him out of his depression and to see meaning in life. The usual.