How lonely does it get in your host's mind/your mind?

[Guest Anonymous]

For tulpas, how lonely is it in your host's mind?

 

For host, how lonely is it generally?

[warriortiltheend]

Host here- what do you mean? I'm a little confused by your question, sorry. Do you mean how lonely it is for me, or how often I have to leave my Tulpas alone while I'm busy?

[FadingSpectrum]

Troy: There are nine other people in here, some of which simply don't shut up. I have to seek isolation if I want it.

 

Fade: I'm not really lonely.

[Luminesce]

For host, how lonely is it generally?

 

Lmao, nice question. Sometimes I feel bad that I don't/can't give my tulpas enough attention, because that means I'm not getting attention from them, I guess.

 

My tulpas are the most accepting I-don't-evens I've ever heard of. I can't even explain it, but now I'm convinced it's really not normal. They just don't mind at all, no matter how little attention they get. They don't exist on their own in the wonderland, they barely exist when I randomly say hi to them. But they're happy when I take time out to talk to them.

 

Even I don't understand, but they don't seem to be lonely at all, knowing they'll always be there when I need them. Too selfless for their own good. Too selfless for my own good. Somewhere deep down I'm probably unbelievably lonely, I don't see why that would've gone away. My brief interactions with Reisen over the years just pushed it down, and now I always feel like my tulpas are ~around. But something's missing and I can't make it right.

 

Huh? What was the question?

[Guest Anonymous]

That is what I am researching. The missing something.

[Luminesce]

Realness, realization of the love you feel. For me, lucid dreaming has been the answer to that, and I've been "trying" to do so for as long as Reisen's existed. Others say they've done it and it's no big deal, but just the tiniest of moments together were very gratifying for me, so I'll keep doing that. Or not doing. Because in my case, the missing something is missing because of my inability to chase after it. After seven years, I'm pretty much defeated I think. My therapist appointment is in 4 days. Some kinda medication should be able to fix this, and then we'll see if being together with my tulpas is enough. I think it will be.

 

For you? If you've got motivation, maybe you just don't know what you're looking for. Self-realization? Feeling "real"? Well, lucid dreaming was the only answer I ever found, but to each their own. Soon, I should be able to give some first-hand information on tulpas and lucid dreams, but for now, I'm of little more use than this guide.

[Spiritualgeek]

I'm getting the gist here that you are referring to how much time we devote to our Tulpas.

 

Lately? Not so much but that's because I've been snowed under with school and honestly, I feel bad about it. I'm actually finding it harder to connect with my Tulpa (hidden message: SOS HELP SOS)

I think it's harming her development. She's a young Tulpa, not even vocal yet!

[wingsorsomething]

Well, Elsa used to get very lonely if I didn't talk to her every so often, but with a second (not exactly) sentient being kicking around, she's learned to entertain herself for days at a time without much contact from me. A younger one, I think, will get lonely more quickly than an older one. It's something they have to get used to.

 

As for me? I've never felt particularly lonely in my own head, especially not since she came along. Even if we don't talk much, she sends me little "signals" throughout the day letting me know that she's still there and everything's alright, and that's very comforting.

 

I'm not sure if this quite answers your question, though. I apologize if it doesn't.

[Guest Anonymous]

Neither of us feel lonely. :-)

[warriortiltheend]

I don't think it's very lonely in my mind. It's a pretty big system (5 alters, 3 tulpas, and me, the host.) I am very rarely ever alone nowadays, and I think most of us get interaction daily...

 

Though of course, I've found that most of the time, if I'm distressed, I can block them out (this is usually a subconcious reflex, and I don't do it on purpose.) It doesn't stop the others from trying to reach me, but they rarely manage to. It's distressful and overpowering how alone I feel when that happens.

 

I can't really speak for my Tulpas.