Blangcaster and Erza: Unintentional Nirvana

[TheCrawlingCreepypasta]

This has got to be the most interesting PR on here. It raises some many questions about the human mind and tulpas. Good luck on your next adventure, dude.

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

This is something I'm going to call the First Law of Blangcasterdynamics: The Answer is Always Erza

 

Really, it does kind of piss me off when the solution to something that's been driving me crazy has been right in front of me this entire time, but when I realize it, what reason do I have to be upset? That's kinda what this whole experience has been so far. The cure to all my doubts and fears in this world has been under my nose my entire life, I just never thought to look.

 

But whenever I hit a roadblock on the road to progress, I've found that the best solution is to get Erza to help me. I still have no idea what the actual limitations of her influence over me are, but I definitely haven't found the upper limit yet.

 

Someone was watching TV upstairs when I was trying to get a nap in. I have a very keen sense of hearing, so ear plugs weren't cutting it. Since I was with Erza, I decided to try something. Last night she had been able to alter the way my brain perceives my body, specifically my temperature and my level of energy. I wanted to see what else she could do, so I gave her a strange request: Dull my sense of hearing. Again, she was worried about doing this, but I assured her I would be fine. She put her hands to my ears and a stream of energy started flowing out of them. After a minute, I noticed the TV upstairs was much quieter. After several minutes, I could just barely hear it.

 

I'll be honest; I was not expecting that to work, but it did and I'm amazed. That's when I hatched a fantastic idea: Dull the sense of sight in my real eyes and transfer the energy into my STAND's eyes to give it dominance over my sense of sight. It very nearly worked, but things became hectic as my vision started jumping around and I wasn't able to get it back under control. Damn, so close.

 

Finally, we tested my sense of touch. She put her hand on the back of my STAND where the spine meets the skull and light poured out of her palm. It worked exceptionally well. I could feel things two, maybe three times more accurately in the Scape than I normally could.

 

Aaaand I'll let you fill in the blanks as to what happened immediately after that. Goodnight, folks!

 

This has got to be the most interesting PR on here. It raises some many questions about the human mind and tulpas. Good luck on your next adventure, dude.

 

Thank you! It's always nice to get a comment, no matter what it is.

 

EDIT: Oh, forgot to mention. I couldn't get the vision I had of Erza's hair a few hours ago to reoccur. Damn that's a letdown.

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

I just tried open-eye forcing for the first time in several days and got immediate result. After a few seconds, I could see Erza's shape. It was barely more than an outline, but I can see it was gradually gaining depth. But what was really impressive was that I could now see visions if I concentrate hard enough. They're brief, tiny and mostly static, but I'm really interested in seeing more of them. I think going back and forth between open-eye, closed-eye and mind-eye visualization causes all of them to get better where progress would have otherwise slowed down.

 

What's more, I had an auditory hallucination. I've actually been having these on and off for a while now, but this one was an actual string of sounds and note just a flat note. I was hearing morse code. I don't even know morse code, so I'm at least 99.999% sure the message is nothing but jibberish, but for the sake of that 0.001% margin of error, I'll try decoding it if I hear it again.

 

I'm going now because I think I just saw Erza's reflection in my computer monitor, but I'm expecting there will be more updates later today.

[Paranoid Llama]

Your PR fills me with a lot of hope and determination.

 

I've been REALLY meaning to discipline myself into consistent active forcing sessions in the wonderland with meditation to get really good at visualization, but I never got around to that. I've mostly just been forcing by talking and doing activities in the physical world. I still lust for that imaginative adventures with my tulpa, and after reading your PR, you've set an example; a goal for me to work up to.

 

Your progress report is great, and I only wish the best for your future. Good luck!

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

Your PR fills me with a lot of hope and determination.

 

I've been REALLY meaning to discipline myself into consistent active forcing sessions in the wonderland with meditation to get really good at visualization, but I never got around to that. I've mostly just been forcing by talking and doing activities in the physical world. I still lust for that imaginative adventures with my tulpa, and after reading your PR, you've set an example; a goal for me to work up to.

 

Your progress report is great, and I only wish the best for your future. Good luck!

 

I find that the best source of motivation is your tulpa. Have them reassure you and give you the drive you need to fully create them. In a way, tulpa are just as responsible for their own creation as we are.

 

Here's one tip that should prove very helpful: Your tulpa can help you relax. If your sense of touch is good enough, ask them to help you relax your body. The method is irrelevant, but should be something you would find believable, so for example it could be them placing a hand on your chest or your head and shining some white light over you, which is how Erza and I have been doing it. This is unbelievably helpful for better getting immersed into meditation, especially since I find myself tensing up constantly as I try to differentiate my dream body from my material body.

Another thing I recommend is holding back on the adventures until after you are capably of fully visualizing your WL. This, in my opinion, was the biggest mistake I've made so far, even though it made for such a good (and fucking strange) story.

 

Switching off between real and dream world visualization training might be a good idea. Whenever I started having trouble with one, I would put it on hold and move on to the other. I noticed every time I did this, my senses in the other world were much keener and I could make a lot of progress in the first few minutes. It may be that they have to progress alongside one another in order to get the best results. Think of it as climbing a ladder. You need to move one hand after the other to ascend.

 

Thanks for the good feedback! I'm always happy to answer anyone's questions.

[Paranoid Llama]

Ok, thanks for the helpful tips. I'll be certain to keep them in mind when I start.

 

Thank you! Keep doing what you're doing. I feel my host will finally be productive for a change!

 

I even admit that :/.

 

Thanks again! Looking forward to your updates!

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

Happy Thanksgiving to all my fellow Americans! I hope you're all having fun on this joyous holiday that we only celebrate as an excuse to stuff our craws with pumpkin pie and mashed potatoes.

 

Speaking of excuses, I'm thankful that I can use today as an excuse to slack off, because last night I worked myself waaay too hard. I spent hours open-eye forcing and made so much progress with it that I could fully perceive a three-dimensional silhouette of Erza, who was able to move around on her own. Unfortunately, I got so excited that I forgot to pace myself and my brain felt like it was swelling out of my skull, so I'm giving it the day off.

 

On a positive note, I had my first lucid dream last night! I was going to an amusement park with some of my old highschool friends, and along the way I was arguing with one of them about fish sticks or something. As we approached the ticket booth, I looked down and realized I had forgotten something: My shoes. I had been walking around barefoot and not even noticed it until right before we were going to enter the park. Holy crap, how the hell could I forget my own shoes?

 

Then it struck me. The reason I wasn't wearing shoes in public is because this always happens in my dreams. I was dreaming! I was dreaming and also aware that I was dreaming, implying lucidity! I gleefully announced to all my friends that I was really just dreaming right now, and they all looked at me like I was some kind of crazy fucking idiot. I mean, more of a crazy fucking idiot than usual. That's fine, I was just gonna go on ahead of them. Fuck paying for tickets, I'm VIP!

 

I walked inside some kind of main building and noticed that I had much less control over the dream than I would have assumed. The first thing I tried to do, of course, was fly. It took about a minute of concentrating on it before I actually managed to get my feet off the ground and start levitating. People were staring at me like I was Jesus, and they were wondering how they should feel about that as I floated around in my Black Sabbath t-shirt without any shoes on. Looks like I'm raising a little too much attention. I'll walk for now and try to maintain a low profile.

 

The theme park didn't turn out to be much of a theme park. It was more like a convention center that had absolutely nothing in it. People just kind of wandered around. I wanted to find a quiet, secluded area in which I could work on summoning Erza, but the best I could find was some kind of workshop area being loitered around by a few rambunctious-looking teens. Ehh, good enough. I sat down at the other side of the room and attempted to bring out Erza. It was actually much, much more difficult than I thought it would be. After a few seconds, I managed to get a rough outline of her before there was an interruption.

 

One of the teens looked out the window, then turned to his friends and said "Uhh, guys? Hulk's coming." I looked out the window. He was right, the Incredible Hulk was outside smashing a bunch of military jeeps. There was a good chance he would bring his rampage directly into our direction, so I decided to leave. As I walked out, one of the teens asked me why I had an Amy Rose tulpa. I glared at him and tried to decide whether I should call him a mouth-breathing dunce or a degenerate cretin before my train of thought was interrupted by the Hulk breaking in through the ceiling. Time to get the hell out of here! Unfortunately, I was apparently the Hulk's target. He jumped on me and stood on top of my chest as his massive weight started crushing my body. He looked down at me with this happy, child-like expression and asked me if I wanted to strap on to his boots and go for a ride with him. When I pointed out he didn't even have boots, he flipped the fuck out and got ready to smash me. At that very moment, Erza jumped in at my defense and I woke up from the dream.

 

That was interesting.

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

I can't do much forcing until my head really starts to hurt and bulge. I've been trying to go back to the Scape where things are less intense, but the visions from the Wake have gotten so strong that they're starting to override my concentration, so it's too difficult to stay there even when Erza is helping me relax. I have made a lot of progress, though. I can visualize at least half of Erza's body as a fuzzy 3D outline, and if I concentrate hard enough, I can see her gain opacity. I can feel her, too. Passing my hand through her feels like like its running through a very gentle electric current.

 

One problem I've found very frustrating is that I keep seeing my own face when I'm trying to see Erza's. I don't think it's my face being projected on her, it's more like I'm looking directly into a mirror. Am I looking through her eyes? I don't know, but it's really bothering me at this point. It's been going on for a long time but I thought it would have gone away at this point. I can actually make out very subtle details of Erza's face at this point, but for some reason I still keep seeing these reflections.

 

Oh, and Erza seems to like Neil Young. I'm okay with this. I think she would like Bruce Springsteen a lot, so I'll play some for her sometime.

[Mr Blangcaster Next Door]

Erza and I have been attempting some "soul searching" with each other to help discover who we really are. I won't go into details just yet, but it feels like it's working. I feel more relaxed and at peace in my mind and body than I normally do, like I'm less of a stranger to myself, and I feel like I'm getting to understand Erza better. The doubts aren't able to reach me when we're together. They're still trying to hurt us, but it doesn't seem like they're able to.

 

It's cold and raining outside. Today is a perfect day for cuddling, so I think we're gonna spend most of our time doing that.

[Reisen]

On a positive note, I had my first lucid dream last night!

 

Reisen: Yay! One is a big deal, you get a ton of experience just from the first, you know what it feels like and have some ideas of what to expect. It seems like you had a pretty decent lucid dream, too, as far as mental clarity and detail goes. I recommend you think about how to get more control over them; it's all about belief. You have to believe you can fly, believe you'll see your tulpa, believe things will do what you want. And of course, that's hardly how things work in real life, so it takes some practice. Since the place you were at seemed somewhat unstable and discouraged you from doing things as there were people around, I think you should try and get to your wonderland or somewhere calmer when you become lucid. Lumi did this in his first lucid dream surprisingly easily, by believing that a door to our house in the wonderland would appear behind him when he turned around, and it did. When you're new to lucid dreaming, it's all about tricks like that. Spinning around tells your brain to expect new things. Staring at thin air to make your tulpa appear won't work so well, but knowing that she'll be there when you go to the wonderland would. Or "knowing" that she's just around a corner. Flying is like this too - I've heard people imagine they had a magic stone that gave them the ability to fly, that they had Superman's powers, or grew wings (or even just flapped their arms!). When you jump in real life, you fall back down, so you have to do something that'll trick your mind into believing you can actually do it.

 

Patience, practice and persistence!

 

I can't do much forcing until my head really starts to hurt

 

Try drinking 100% orange juice? I mean, orange juice is a huge thing with tulpamancers, but we've just started drinking it recently because it's really good for you. Other fruit juices work too if they're actually fruit and not just sugar. And, of course, take breaks and do less intensive forcing every so often. You won't lose all your progress because you didn't give yourself a headache forcing once. Really, I'd think you'd make more progress if you weren't battling pain to do it.

 

It's cold and raining outside. Today is a perfect day for cuddling, so I think we're gonna spend most of our time doing that.

 

Awesome! We're jealous! Rain and cuddles is like, literally our idea of perfection.