Is this weird?

[Lacquer]

Probably just weird intrusive thoughts manifesting as you writing that. Like others have said, I'd hold off on trying possession until you can reliably carry out full conversations with your tulpa.

[Virus]

Very, very interesting, kanashisou. I do not mean to put you in any distress, my friend. But when I come to think about it, it is possible that something inside of you may have been... awakened, let's put it this way. No, nothing metaphysical or magic here. Have you ever been diagnosed with anything in the past?

 

Look. If you are having those signs, it may very well be a simple prank, or as Temar brilliantly put it, an identity thing. Things seem to be a bit intriguing as they are, so there is no need to stress it out.(as @Sock said, though, this MAY be an internal prank or some sort). I have edited my post after reading the answers found below. This does sound like a prank, so time will tell.

 

The only thing I have had has been depression, but I think it may be my subconscious...

I want to think that it is just me trying to spook myself out. Because I noticed that before the hand wrote anything, I already knew what was going to be written, I don't know how to explain it.

 

But I think I'm going to wait for my tulpa to be vocal, so I don't have to worry like this.

 

Thank you very much for your reply. ~

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Temar:

 

Don't worry, you're fine. Whether this was your tulpa or just you won't really matter in the long run. You will have plenty of time down the road to get to know your headbuddy. Thing is, at this point, your tulpa probably doesn't really know who he is, either, so even if he is talking through that hand, chances are he's pulling a lot from your subconscious mind anyway. He's experimenting as much as you are.

 

The way I figure it, you have two options. 1) Keep letting him play with the hand. Take what he writes seriously, since if it is him communicating with you, that's something you want to encourage... but keep in mind that he's still super young, and likely to change his mind... so don't keep him to anything he says right now.

 

Option 2) is to set possession aside for now. He might just be too young to know what his own thoughts are. Force some more... maybe find a type of narration that you find interesting, like playing a video game for him or reading him your favorite childhood stories. Let him get more of a sense of who he is. Then try possession again later.

 

In either case, you're doing fine. Don't be afraid. You're not messing him up, and he will not be mad for things you did before you really understood him. Keep spending time and attention on him, and he'll turn out just fine.

 

EDIT EDITED OUT, though I still think that this is his subconscious, not any sort of mental illness.

 

I've read your reply several times, and I think I'll follow the second option.

I'll wait until he's vocal to try possession again.

He's really young and I'm probably expecting too much from him.

 

And thanks for the ideas of reading stories and playing video games for him, I'll definitely do that. ~

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Probably just weird intrusive thoughts manifesting as you writing that. Like others have said, I'd hold off on trying possession until you can reliably carry out full conversations with your tulpa.

 

As I said before, I think I tried to rush too much the things.

It was stupid from me to try this so soon. orz

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Well this just looks like a nasty mess. You may want to slow down, leave the advanced stuff on the back burner, and just take time to observe yourself and your thoughts. This seems, to me, like some sort of internal prank, and you made need to back off for a while, and assess the issue more (Note: I'm not saying you're playing a joke on us, but that something in you is playing the joke on you). Whatever you do, do NOT panic or freak out, you need a truly calm and level head for this stuff.

 

This part is an opinion, but unless you already have experience in these things, your companion should not have that kind of ability. I do not have absolute knowledge, only my own experiences of what happened to me.

 

Peace.

I rushed things too much and expected too much from such a young tulpa.

I've said this several times, but now I see that I should wait until I can keep a conversation going with him.

 

As you said, I'll leave "the advanced stuff on the back burner", and keep paying attention to my tulpa.

 

Thank you very much. ~

[Virus]

Temar:

 

This, I think, is why your hand started going the "666" route... because having a malicious tulpa is your worst-case scenario. Therefore, since something in your subconscious is dwelling on it, that's what either you or your tulpa pulled from while your hand was doing its thing.

 

In short, that wasn't your tulpa, so much as it was a reflection of what you're afraid your tulpa might be. That make sense?

Yeah, I'm really worried about screwing up my tulpa.

I think that's my biggest fear right now.

 

I'm trying to be relaxed and stop thinking in that kind of things.

I'll set aside possession for now, he's still very young and I'm too obsessive...

 

Thank you, I really appreciate your reply. ~