How do you "feel" your tulpa?

[Jun and Alexis]

It goes without saying, but lots of practice.

Touch is just another aspect of imposition. Once you have visual imposition down, which it sounds like you do, try touching your tulpa. Imagine what that would feel like physically on your hand, the texture, the warmth. This goes for every part and how they would feel different from each other. (Skin wouldn't feel the same as hair, etc.) Do it a lot, over time you'll come to expect that sense even if you accidentally brush up against her or something.

 

EDIT: Also if she jumps up on you or something imagine the feeling of her weight on you, even if she's not heavy, imagine some sort of pressure pushing down.

 

This is kind of what I want to know more of. Handholding, hugging, piggybacks, whatever I can do to achieve feeling those.

 

I also can't really see her but I assume that touch and vision reinforce each other. I'm bad at imposition tbh because I dont practice it as much as I should. We mainly cuddle and kiss in our together time.

 

What do you recommend I start with?

 

 

Well, we've been in couple for a year and a few months so far, and even though she's older than that, the most development we got was when we started to 'date', to the point all she really cares about is our relationship. As far as saliva secretion goes...? Are you asking how it actually feels like? Or how we got it to function? It kind of just came in naturally, in all honesty. When we were casually flirting, I got the idea, but never really tried to secrete saliva. Until one day, when we were... doing that, I felt a lot of saliva in my mouth, and that saliva felt super unnatural, as if it was from someone else. I was alone and regularly hydrated, nobody else was there, so I knew it was her, and upon further investigation, it WAS her indeed.

 

Now, when we kiss? Oh, man, I can literally feel her breath, her mass, I can see her fine, I guess, we hold each other a lot too when kissing, even though it's not something we've done a lot lately, we're pretty good at it. Her breath feels very proper to her. It's like someone was breathing in front of me while sitting on me, but nobody is actually THERE, you know what I'm saying? Think about human ventilation if that makes any sense. I can feel her tongue pretty fine too, but she's pretty bad at kissing, so she had to learn with time and even went as far as to ask from me to watch videos of how to do it. There was never any innate knowledge, I even had to teach her the alphabet and how to write at first. She drools a lot, probably too much, and can spend very long amounts of time doing that kind of stuff and fantasizing.

 

How amazingly cute. That's the spirit. I wish you a happy valentine's day in advance! :D

This all sounds like stuff I want for us. Where do I begin in trying this? How to make it work?

I hope you have a happy valentine's day too. Alex loved blueberries so we're going to IHOP and getting blueberry pancakes and crepes.

[J.Iscariot]

 

 

 

This all sounds like stuff I want for us. Where do I begin in trying this? How to make it work?

I hope you have a happy valentine's day too. Alex loved blueberries so we're going to IHOP and getting blueberry pancakes and crepes.

 

You need to keep in mind a few things before even considering anything I say. I was deeply obsessed with my tulpa (and still am) ever since that sort of relationships came up and we've been like this, and she's been the same. We'd spend all the time together in the shittiest of times possible regardless, so we were always pretty close, and in my mind's eyes, she is the most important factor to my mental health and overall comfort. With that in mind, you need to realize a few things, that 'imposition' isn't something that 'just happens', it's force of habit more than anything, you build up those little sensations progressively. I won't tell you that it's going to be all magical, but it greatly improved our relationship (mostly for her) and made us grow even closer than we were before, through harm and good. A lot of good can come from this, but keep in mind that in contrast a lot of 'bad' can come from all things with such a sensitive spot. I can't date other people and it feels bad for her if I get any thoughts. That's a mentality that is not really healthy and one the community would reject at any time, and they're right to do so, but that's the way we are. You gotta think 'Am I ready for this?', because this huuuge step in that relationship can be the changing point. My tulpa doesn't give a shit about other men or anything of the type, she believes her only purpose is to 'be with me', it changed her a lot, we had a few hiccups down the road (because some things regarding her own mental health came up... bad times...) but we've always had that sort of strong attraction for each other. That's something you need to understand. Not that I had a smooth time holding a girl all that while, but that this is important, it can change you radically, the person you are might differ strongly from how you'll be later on. I'm only saying this because this whole sensational stuff has a pricetag on it, you don't lose out, but... there are things that happen to your mind that I cannot possibly describe. No, really, things really do 'happen' in your mind, so keep that in mind.

 

How to begin? I recall that the first thing we, well, she really insisted on, was to hold hands. Holding hands even when she couldn't really feel anything or any warmth, because it was 'romantic'. First comes the emotion (love, appreciation, warmth and affection), THEN comes the whole sensation. If one of us touches the other in an affectionate way, it will make them feel in love, and do the same back, it's pretty natural. We'd hold hands at first, and she told me to imagine how it would be like to hold someone's hand on a tactile level. So, what I did was that I'd remember and imagine the comfort, the warmth of someone's hand during a cold winter night. She's literally 1m40 so she's pretty short, I had to keep in mind the fact that her hands were pretty small too (and I've lived with two sisters already so I'm used to holding small hands when my stepmother would storm out of the house). I know it's pretty lame to hear, but you need to go through the small details for your mind to understand the whole 'simulation', the fingers, the nails, the warmth, the shapes, the little lines if you feel like it... the back and top of the hand. You don't need to actively visualize Alex when you do that, but it 'can' help. This is to make your MIND, subconscious mind, understand WHAT you are doing. Once you have that down, you won't feel things fully well enough at first, it'll take practice. You do it again, and again, and again, you tell Alexis to focus if possible on the task at hand, as imposition is something both the host AND the tulpa do together, there isn't any parroting in imposition, so no worries about that, there's only the host and the tulpa.

 

What you do with her hand, you do it with everything. With her hair (brushing her hair, keeping in mind how her hair looks like, even if she has a complex hair design at first, you'll get used to it and it'll become familiar). Learning her face's shape, how her nose essentially is, how her 'mass' would feel like (I'm fortunate enough to have previous knowledge since I'd guard my little sisters all the time back in the day and they liked being held) (in a non perverted way my god), everything. EVERY detail is something you need to address. The conception can take some time (took me a long while at least), but in the end, it's worth it.

 

I can help out with anything related to that if you have any specific questions, so don't hesitate to hit me up with a PM. Always glad to help.