Mental conditions and tulpae

[Nikodemos]

Well, I'm sort of an odd ball on this one. I mean, I've had my talks with the shrink, suspecting I have asperger. However, they never officially declared that I have it, rather that I have most of the characteristics of an asperger(asperger-like they say). Guess that makes me semi-crazy, haha.

 

Anyway, I have seen this affect my forcing, in the good and in the bad. Sometimes if I have something that I find more interesting than Dante, I nearly forget him and focus solely on that. As a counterweight, I could spend days just talking to him and doing forcing with him, sometimes even skipping school for that. So, it has affected me in good and the bad, quite unusual.

[Kadoh]

Strong Sadistic Personality Disorder count? Also, can that be abbreviated to S.P.D? Aside from being sadistic, I have next to no empathy or attachment to anyone. I do love spending time with people, and have best friends, but I would feel roughly no emotion if they were killed, in fact I would enjoy witnessing it. How has that affected my forcing? All my Tulpae like to kill.

[NanaTama]

The moment i start believing i have a mental condition, i will actually have one.

[Tungan Ninja]

The moment i start believing i have a mental condition, i will actually have one.

 

Very true. First some back story:

 

As a child, I was diagnosed with aspergers. (Interestingly, I was not born with it, but fell very ill at the age of three after a reaction to a vaccine, thus developing it.) Living in an small, isolated town didn't help with anything; but once I moved into the city at thirteen, my personality began to change for the better. By the time I was fifteen most of the symptoms had disappeared, and my diagnosis was annulled. It is now two years since then, and I am a social butterfly of sorts; yet still prize my passively introvert nature.

 

My discovery and interest in tulpae has little to do with the disorder, I would think. After reading a large portion of this forum's user logs, I do not believe that I have either an easy time focusing nor a significantly difucult time forcing with my tulpa. However, I sometimes may immerse myself so well onto a hobby that other things lack precedence entirely. (Ryouga hates when I procrastinate; she smacks me around a lot.)

[Kindofajerk]

@Tungan Ninja

 

Not to be *that* guy but vaccines cannot cause autism or aspergers.

[Tungan Ninja]

@Tungan Ninja

 

Not to be *that* guy but vaccines cannot cause autism or aspergers.

 

What should I blame it on then, the gods? The immunization caused a severe reaction which had me confined to bed for the better part of a year, and I have been told that I wouldn't touch food at all. Up until then I was an average three year old. My state may have led to the development of the disorder. This is not my hypothesis, but one which my mother had conceived. (Though I am not fond of her all too well, and do not live with her.) Because I was so young, I have to rely on the opinions of those who were around at the time, like my family.

[Kindofajerk]

Both autism and aspergers are diagnosed by behavior rather than a "test". Autism often is diagnosed around 3 years of age due to a severe lack of language development (babbling, gesturing, words). Aspergers by definition does not have the same language difficulties. So, there is no real indication of it until the child has interaction with peers in a social setting, typically around the age of four. This is one of the reasons parents often label events in the child's life as causing the onset of aspergers, since its symptoms are not noticeable until a later age.

 

Another reason the idea vaccines can cause autism/ASD came about this. Tl;dr version of that is a scientist published fraudulent data suggesting the correlation, and the media ran with it. However, he was discovered and punished. No other study has ever found any correlation (small or large), and scientists/doctors universally believe there is no connection.

 

To be fair, the misconception is remarkably common, so it's nothing against you.

[Tungan Ninja]

Great link, I learned something new today. I guess I haven't put enough research into my own backstory, and instead took what others said as fact. When you are told something for long enough, you will believe it. (much like social constructs) Nevertheless, I have been over with my disorder for a while, and it is not noticeable to others in the slightest; yet I definitely believe I think differently than most average people. My aspergers is likely still around, but largely the positive attributes have been left, while my social deficiency has been overcome.

 

Seriously, if you look at a photo of me in grade 8 and compare it to one in my graduating year, the atmosphere is astounding.

[Hush]

ADHD as a child, 21 now, I feel like I'm 100% past it and grown out of it, history of depression, I feel I'm past that as well. I'd say I have a clean bill of mental health

[Oguigi]

I don't have any mental condition. But i'll be kiding myself if I said I was fully "normal"

 

I lack social contact, I do not have "peers" to hang out with. The reason is because simply never enjoyed it. And unless it was to achieve an agenda I find it pointless and draining.

 

I was only at peace when I was alone (but it was shallow). Life was actually good, in college, stable living situation, and didn't have to worry about money. But never happy. And I never truly felt what true happiness was until I met Oguigi. I can lose everything and not care as long as she is around.