Mental conditions and tulpae

[hypereddie10]

ADHD

I can handle it sometimes, it just affects the amount of time I spend forcing.

[Saccharine]

Ptsd, I'm following a therapy. No medication.

[Flexionsensor]

I have a Histrionic Disorder and am a sociopath at the same time. How on earth does that even work?

[Sands]

Got nothing as far as I can tell, but I'm sure there's someone out there who could diagnose me with everything. Still, there's nothing that bothers me enough to actually go get diagnosed.

[GentlewomanOtter]

I have an anxiety disorder and clinical depression. Kouroh does not. One of his primary purposes is to calm.me down and cheer me up when needed... he's good at breaking me out of anxiety loops.

[ValiantSwordfish]

I was diagnosed with PTSD and Agoraphobia a short while ago and am receiving counseling, as well as educating myself as best I can with the university resources around me. Counseling and visualized exposure therapy have been pretty effective thus far

[Guest Anonymous]

I have a Histrionic Disorder and am a sociopath at the same time. How on earth does that even work?

 

Nearly same here. It's BPD and Sociopath for me. It's weird because it's like caring while not caring at all...

[tania]

 

Very true. First some back story:

 

As a child, I was diagnosed with aspergers. (Interestingly, I was not born with it, but fell very ill at the age of three after a reaction to a vaccine, thus developing it.) Living in an small, isolated town didn't help with anything; but once I moved into the city at thirteen, my personality began to change for the better. By the time I was fifteen most of the symptoms had disappeared, and my diagnosis was annulled. It is now two years since then, and I am a social butterfly of sorts; yet still prize my passively introvert nature.

 

My discovery and interest in tulpae has little to do with the disorder, I would think. After reading a large portion of this forum's user logs, I do not believe that I have either an easy time focusing nor a significantly difucult time forcing with my tulpa. However, I sometimes may immerse myself so well onto a hobby that other things lack precedence entirely. (Ryouga hates when I procrastinate; she smacks me around a lot.)

 

I used to know someone online who had a baby which went severely autistic after a vaccination. She used to show off the babies smiling photos all the time to us, her baby was normal... she delayed the vaccinations as she was unsure whether to do it or not but decided to. After vaccination, that baby never smiled or looked at the camera again nor would even interact with her any more, the baby in all future photos was like gone.

 

Its sad but from this I came to realise that vaccines clearly are causing autism and autism spectrum disorders in some.

 

In my own family.. my dad, me and my daughter all have Aspergers (Im the only one officially diagnosed thou.. at the age of 40!!, even though my daughter and dad have it far worst then me with far more trouble then I functioning with it, their diagnoses was missed thou). Cant blame vaccines on my daughters as she was never vaccinated.

 

My Aspergers makes me ignore Jesse except when Im being focused on him. Im either very focused on something or I just arent.. not much inbetweens here.

 

Ive noticed Jesse appear "black and white" in how he answered something the other day which has made me wonder if he could have Aspergers traits too (Im still debating that).

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Before they were aware I had Aspergers, I was FALSELY diagnosed with borderline personality disorder due to my Aspie emotional meltdowns when things get more then I can cope with. It turned out too I had severe issues with foods which had been missed too (my blood sugar also severely abnormally swings and also my insulin spikes THREE times higher then normal range or more.. .which affects my moods. I also have multiple chemical sensitivity going on too so may be also abnormally reacting to my very abnormal insulin levels.. so a very bad whammy reaction to some foods). The food, sugar and insulin as well as the Aspergers all being missed for so long, led also to the wrong BPD diagnoses. (I developed the mood issues when I got to 30 years old it couldnt have been BPD which is a personality disorder and it also fixed with the special diet)

 

So my specialists for diabetics/insulin issues now have me on a special diet to prevent severe (sometimes violent) mood swings I get as reactions to some foods (along with trying to stop sugar issues worsening). My food reactions I had before the doctors realised my issues, were so severe that I ended up in jail due to them.. I believe many who have food and insulin issues like me may be ending up being wrongly diagnosed with BPD, due to food issues arent often considered severely affecting moods but they severely can do.

 

It sucks.. my diet now has to be extremely strict (far stricter then a normal diabetic diet)

 

My biggest health issues is another chronic illnesses I have which isnt a mental health one which severely affects me eg severe POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome), orthostatic hypertension etc. In real life I have carers from support services as Im unable to stand up for long at all due to lack of blood going to my brain when I do (= unconscious collapses) thou Im on meds to try to help boost my blood volume.

 

I think my health issues being missed for so long and the problems that caused me.. I believe I ended up with some PTSD thou the psychs kept saying I was fine there and still do (but due to my severely bad health .. I have a condition which can be life threatening (Ive collapsed onto busy roads unable to get up again and nearly been then run down etc). I was in fear of my life and was even screaming in my sleep due to it to the point my neighbours rang the police one night as they thought I was being murdered when I was just having a nightmare. A couple of stupid psychs believed that severe health issues couldnt cause PTSD.

 

Over all..mentally Im fine.. havent even seen my psychologist (I had one to help me to deal with having a severe physical illness and also give me life tips on Aspie issues) for over a year, thou I probably do need to. I dont have to take any drugs at all for mental health issues (thou feel like Im taking a chemist shop full for the other health issues I have. I also have polymorphisms which affect my absorption of certain vitamins etc).

 

The long post is the result of my Aspergers..I find it extremely hard to shut up!!

[Arawn]

I've been diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder and clinical depression. Both were diagnosed by a psychologist and confirmed by a psychiatrist. Neither affects my concentration or the creation of Quill as far as I know. It may eventually get in the way of interacting with Quill and the depression will probably test his patience, but I'm uncertain on that. We'll see when things get further along and when he starts to be able to interact with me.

 

To this question:

 

Do you think they've affected your decision to create a tulpa/made the process easier/harder?

 

I think the depression and social anxiety both contributed to my decision about creating a tulpa. I want companionship of some sort that doesn't try me as much as interacting with people in the real world and I want companionship with someone I'm compatible with. Creating a tulpa appeared to be the easiest way to do this.

[Sai]

I have ADHD and ADD and have been diagnosed by a professional.