Avalanche's mindhouse

[Avalanche]

Eh

 

I'll just do what I'm doing for a while and see where it gets us. I can't think of anything new to do after this so it kinda has to work, either by being the last attempt or by simple chance of the specific minimum required time elapsing.

[Avalanche]

Well it's been a long week, but at last I do believe I have something to actually show for it.

 

I took the whole week to work on vocals and it seems to have had an effect. I can more easily hear voices and slight opinions when I ask ma tupperz questions.

 

Nothing like long sentences, and not much for conversation, but general idle chit chat we aren't far from.

[Avalanche]

Haven't been updating as frequently, as I don't want to fill this log up with shit posts and random crap

 

inb4 hurr durr it's all shit posts etc

 

Been hearing slight (and I mean very slight) words and short phrases in my head, like talking is becoming more natural.

There's been a bit of a lull in forcing, I have quite a few things on my plate right now but it is generally down to laziness. I'll be sure to step it up soonish.

 

They are still alive and kicking of course, but instead of being room mates it's turning out to be visit to your granny at the nursing home type relationship.

 

As in I never fucking go there and if I do it's only for the bare minimum.

 

sadface

[Avalanche]

Getting there, getting there. Finally got some good forcing in today, a bit of imposition and mostly some narration. It still feels a bit like parroting, but that's what they all say and they all say that it isn't, so who am I to say otherwise?

 

I'm trying to focus more on the form, as it's quite shaky. I can tell the difference between then but it's only with a few certain major differences like hairstyles and such. I can also tell the difference between them in terms of who said what, as they are both wildly different in nature. They have both changed a lot since I started, and they are really coming into their own. I feel like I'm on the home straight, and some solid results will be just around the bend... of this straight.

 

Might get them on the irc some night soon.

[Avalanche]

Long time no update. Well it's been a week but that's kinda a long time.

Much has happened since then, I'm getting speech and emotions and responses and such when I concentrate.

Should be good to go on the irc soon, most likely both of them.

[Guest]

Is that seriously the only thing you're aiming for? Jesus d­icks.

[Avalanche]

I'm not aiming for it, it's just something we should be able to do sometime soon. It's like a milestone. Same with first time you saw them imposed or first sentence or first twitch from possession.

 

Nothing to report though, nothing new really. Still working on stuff, same old same old. Should be good for the irc though.

Like now.

[Avalanche]

Well over 2 weeks since my last update. Not sure if people are still reading this old, old report as the flood of newbies and their stories is quite frankly overwhelming. A good thing, but overwhelming.

 

Anyway, voices are coming along well and we are hanging out more often. Still not as much as I'd like but that's mostly down to me and my numerous distractions. Some justified and some.. not at all.

 

It feels like voices are taking their time to really stand out and become solid and defined in my head. Right now what I hear is dangerously similar to my own mindvoice and conversations feel quite fake and close to conversations I would have with myself in my head. But I will press on and hope for the best soon enough, I think I'll concentrate more on focusing and clearing my head over pounding away all the time with talking to them and waiting for responses, when it could be the way I'm doing it that's preventing their messages getting through.

 

Sounds likely? Probably. I'll try to update more often, but that still hinges on what we actually accomplish.

 

So far, best thing that has happened recently was when my concentration was diverted with a daydream, Flora passed me a sketchpad with this drawing on it I unfortunately couldn't quite make out. It felt very defined and different to my own imaginings and in stark contrast to other actions they have performed by "themselves".

 

We shall see if things develop when I try to divert my concentration further.

[Raetin]

Don't worry Avalanche, I read everyone's progress reports (I speed read over the new peoples' threads though).

[Avalanche]

Ok, update time! Haven't done one for quite a while, yadda yadda.

 

Starting imposition as of yesterday, I think we have made a real leap forward in terms of conversing. We filled out the stylometic test and survey posted in General Discussion which I think went rather well. Most of the answers were bullshit but hey, at least they were honest.

 

We also changed up the wonderland as the last one was getting stale as they tend to do. Ill be doing a very brief sketch of them together in a scene in my house as I imagine them (not see them) to help my visualisation and just overall drawing skills.

 

I'm getting better at forcing for extended periods of time, something I majorly lacked in for a while- I would start and then go off on a tangent thought and end up several subject away and wasted half an hour. Not fun. With more conversation coming back I can hold out longer I am finding.

 

I might have a go on the irc with them, depending on how well I can hear them and if it isn't filled to the brim with newbie asshattery.

 

Upon asking around for extra advice as I'll admit I'm not 100% on this so far I learned that I'm not quite "there" yet, as there isn't really a "there" anyway, (a tulpa is never really finished) so it is expected to not be totally convinced of the voices I hear in my head. I think/hope that they will grow stronger over time, with more effort put in by me.

 

Flora says "Good luck to everyone out there!" and Eva says "Make hay while the sun shines".

 

That's some serious advice you guys.