Avalanche's mindhouse

[Avalanche]

I do my forcing now with only one tupper at a time. This prevents any sort of cross interference between the two by being close to each other. It is much easier to focus on one when the other isn't around to distract me.

 

I'm working on Korra right now as she is still the weaker of the two, but not by much, and she is not weak by any standard. Just not as strong as Flora, which is understandable, as she is older and her "core" is much brighter and more potent.

 

I get a few yes/no answers from them when I ask questions (parroting is at a 30% chance, but I try not to think about it). I also asked them what their favourite colours were and I got Pink from Flora and purple from Korra.

 

Not entirely sure if these answers are correct as I got quite a few answers in my head, probably me thinking up colours unintentionally.

[Guest]

Urge to parrot... rising...

[Avalanche]

Urge to parrot... rising...

 

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[Guest]

Woah, now.

[Avalanche]

Don't start that shit in my progress report maan

 

Tell me something constructive.

Make yourself useful.

For once.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

well nelly

[Guest]

Okay.

 

Use my method.

[Avalanche]

Okay.

 

Use my method.

 

Thanks for cheering me up with that joke.

[Avalanche]

Ok, well, having some issues with the cores and that shit. Or maybe not. I tried to do a big long forcing session, but I could feel the cores, or basically I couldn't find my tuppers in the wonderland. I could imagine them up and place them somewhere, but that defeats the purpose of finding them- if I can make them easily, then there's nothing to find, they aren't anywhere.

 

So my issue is maybe they aren't anywhere yet. They don't exist anywhere yet. Or if they do, it's purely in a non-visual sense. They are omnipresent, that doesn't mean they are confined to a single form. So I'm going to give up on trying to look for them.

 

So I need to feel find them, using the core scent thing. But I couldn't find them. I could remember what their cores felt like, but that was only a memory, I could bring up their scent anywhere. It's like they are just gone again, back to being dolls or brick walls.

 

People said I should just wait, they could be away on walkabout. I doubt this (oh boy) as they, or at least Korra, is only a few days old. Could they really just get up and leave to go somewhere where I can't find them? Can they hide from me in my own brain?

 

I want to say they can, as this would imply they are still somewhere in my head, and will return when they want, to resume forcing. But my (fucking) logic says they aren't anywhere so they must be nowhere, or somehow undetectable in my own head. What could be undetectable in my own head? Are they still around or have they ceased to exist?

If they come back, will I just be kidding myself by hoping to much or will they have actually returned?

 

Is the secret to forcing actually falling for it and hoping they come back that they do and I continue on as normal? But then if I believed that they were back when they really aren't, then I believe them into existence... but if I believe in them anyway they appear.. but if I don't then they don't appear.

 

So I need to believe they are back, or will come back whether or not they are actually back or not? So it's irrelevant if they are actually there or not... is it?

[Kadoh]

Nice report man, two Tulpae wouldn't be something I would want much (for now) because I had Shin. I have said before I am.... Bad... With girls, not awkward at all, just overly mean. I treat them like boys, which is a mistake. So Shin Is gonna be a boy, and adept at interpreting tone of voice/body language, to help me not say things like "root yourself with a cactus" to girls thinking they won't get offended

[Avalanche]

I wouldn't make a tulpa just for that. I know you aren't, but you learn not to do that by growing up and being mature, not creating a tulpa to tell you when insulting a girl won't help you get closer to her.