Avalanche's mindhouse

[Guest]

Females are just touchy, Kadoh. Can't blame 'em. That's just how 99.99% (0.01% being my dead aunt) of them work, sadly.

[Avalanche]

Update time:

 

Believing is going ok. I worked out a better way for myself to focus on my tuppers, and I've been trying to expand the length of my forcing times but it's still a struggle to get them in during the day. At night it's easy but that's not enough, even if it is an hour or 2.

 

Otherwise things are going well. I think I'm starting to get really quiet replies and answers to questions, but anything past a straight yes or no questions usually results in no answer or something half parroted. I could go on and on about the line between but I think it's getting there. I'll need to focus my mind even more if I'm going to get some good answers and reactions. There hasn't been much movement yet, but that's alright. I am focusing on their forms right now as a sort of anchor, but I don't expect to see much movement yet. I'm more focusing on getting answers and reactions.

 

I tried to give them some paper to draw on, I got some weird results. I got back a submarine from Flora and I think a cactus and maybe a cat from Korra, then some other shit, but the first attempt was similar to another try I did a few days ago so that might have been me, and the rest seemed to be blurs and only condensed and focused when I guessed what they are, indicating that I'm changing what was drawn myself. Probably. I'm going to ignore it and not dwell on it.

 

I'm not really sure how to get to anything resembling a next stage. I feel like I'm still at the creation stage where I could thrown either of them away and start again and in a few days I would be back up to this point with a new tulpa.

 

And is anyone still following my report anyway?

[Pronas]

i do, sometimes

[Sands]

Yes and no questions are good for quite a long while. That's what we did a lot. Try to get those strong first before you worry about complex questions and answers. And actually ask questions you expect answers for and let them answer if they do, I had the habit of rambling and asking and not waiting for an answer before Roswell showed me that he can answer if I just let him. Actually having conversations and all before there was speech.

 

About the drawings, shit ends up blurry in my wonderland too. If you can ask yes or no questions you can do those and try to guess what it is, trying to make sense of the lines. Trying to make sense of why they were drawn might be worth a try too at some point, Roswell would draw me things about what he wanted to do when we were in the wonderland exploration crazy adventures phase.

 

Now you just keep going. Magic doesn't happen in an instant, you gotta practice, they gotta practice, soon everything clicks.

[Guest]

Spend a whole day listening to my Theta Tone in a loop. I swear that you'll get some weird results.

 

Or don't, if you're a pussy.

[Avalanche]

I'm a pussy Fede.

 

People do care what I post ;_;

 

That's some good advice Sands, I hope it'll just click some day. I feel like I'm making progress, but that's like watching your feet as you walk. When I see where I need to be going, it looks like it's miles away.

[Sands]

One day at a time. Enjoy each and every moment. Who cares about the future, it will come, what you have already is worth embracing.

 

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[Avalanche]

Tried an all nighter last night to make up for my piss poor dedication to daily forcing. Got in at least a solid 3 hours, broken up with some daydreaming and AWGAWDIMSOTIRED.

 

I think I did well though, I gave them both skin tones and some basic facial features, as well as imposed them better in my head wonderland. I talked with them a lot and I went over personality traits for the both of them.

 

Got some headaches and a few really quiet whispers, but it is getting easier to think it's them and not immediately jumping to "hurr it must be me".

 

I tried to go for a narration walk but there was a metric shit ton of flies around for some reason and a whole lot of naggers en route. So I got about 3 sentences in, out loud. sadface.jpeg

 

So I did another hour of forcing earlier and that went well. Body movements and such were pretty good, felt very fluid and unpuppeted, so yay.

 

Things seem to be on the right track, I promise this report will get interesting some day soon. When that happens I put in bigass fuckoff bold lettering and I'll be in the IRC with ma tuppers.

 

That reminds me, I think I need a new name (or even a new placeholder name) for Korra.

 

Any suggestions? Nothing too boring and nothing too weird or overused if you have suggestions.

[Sands]

Already gave you that Eve you liked.

[Avalanche]

Tried giving them different foods to try last night. I think it went well. Got some varied and unexpected reactions.

 

We all ate an apple each, some bread, pizza, pasta, fish, soup, bananas, and other stuff. I got different reactions to different foods, in the form of facial expressions and sounds of approval.