The log of a Baptist Tulpamancer

[Yoko]

Our deepest condolences to Claire.

 

I too am having a hard time figuring out how one's family's opinions can have greater value over a life, but it's too late for that discussion to be of any use.

 

I'm very sorry to have never met Claire. I had not been expecting her time here to be brief.

[imahaxor]

Well, I honestly don't know what to say. That whole experience sounds awful, but to me it sounds like she had your best interests at heart. I guess you could even say that your experiment was a success, if you look at it that way.

[Hound]

Here's all of the electronic documentation of this experiment. The physical version is larger, but that is to be expected.

Log of a Baptist Tulpamancer.zip

[bearycool]

This is Stan...

 

"Be damned the world and all that is in it! I hate what happened to claire, and everything that has happened to you. I am not a demon, nor are any tulpae in this world. We are beings that don't try to kill or cause harm; I am not from hell! I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it!

 

Damn it all. Damn you Josef if you ever do this to me! I don't want to go out just like that-- I want to live. For the sake of Claire I want to live and show the world that a tulpa is not a demon!"

 

Stan, I would never let this happen to you. If I am judge after this life because of this, then so be it; I know who my savoir is, and I know his salvation can cleanse this "Sin". I will never you let, for any intents or purposes. God has secured my soul, and I know that this "tulpa"-- Stan-- is not a demon.

 

Let God judge who is evil and who is not; do not let mankind take that damn office. I know where I am going after this life, so let me judge for my sins by God.

 

Stan: "Claire, Claire... God be with us all..."

 

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If anything from this should learned, it this:

 

Tulpae are not demons, and mankind does not know about them. Let God judge what is right, and what is wrong.

 

If anything, the many generations of hosts and tulpae will come here and see this memorial and they will say this:

 

"Look, the Ram that was slang for us! The one who brought to light that tulpa are living beings that are not demons at all."

[Viceroy]

Fucking idiot.

[PsychoLoverly]

Hi Hound. I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I read this whole thing, and to me Claire seemed absoultly wonderful. I wish I had gotten to talk to her and you. Being new to this, I couldn't help but think of me and my tulpa, Tallis. What if I had to lose Tallis? What would I do? These are questions I could not anwser. But if I did have to, I know I would cry a lot. I've only had Tallis for roughly 6 months, but it already feels like a lifetime. But I know that I would treat his death like I did the death of my mother; I know she is here when I need her indefientally, and that I cherish her memory like the most precious item I could ever posses. I am happy she feels no pain of this world, or any, and can watch and guide me as I need. I'm sure Claire is doing the same. Never forget the time spent, the memories collected, the happiness shared. I hope this helped.... I'm going to finish crying in a corner now, because your post did make me cry;(

[moondragon]

I am really sorry..It is so sad your family did not understand.

[GGMethos]

Fucking idiot.

 

 

 

This could have all been avoided if you didn't fucking tell your family.

[Viceroy]

No, telling your family is just being sociable. This could have been avoided were he and his tulpa not impressionable weaklings.

[moondragon]

No need to be cruel. I personally would not tell my biologic family anything about my experiences. They would not condemn me for it, more like they would either laugh or be worried about my mental state. That is just the way it is. I don't feel bad I can't tell them..But, some people feel like having those kind of secrets, when it comes to family or close friends is not right. . That is the way they are..Maybe that is what he is like. And, iI can understand why the email from his family was upsetting.