Mass Intro' and Returns Thread

[Legion Clan]

That makes sense. It is a bit of a shame that this forum's server is gone, I believe that's what Skadi was asking after. In any case, if you want to add us there, it's just legion.clan

 

We do have a server, but after some nasty raids, we no longer share the link in public spaces, like Disboard or web forums.

 

Anyway, thank you very much for the warm welcome.

 

-Princess Isis

[voidbugss]

My name's Sam, but I go by Voidbugs online and am currently interested in researching Tulpas and the subculture surrounding them.

I really enjoy studying different cliques on the internet (reality shifters, LOA, subliminals, etc) but Tulpas have especially drawn me in I've been considering creating one myself.

 

I'd really appreciate any personal advice/insight on Tulpas and how the whole dynamic of having a person in your head works, I've seen a lot of people say Tulpas are a lifelong commitment and I want to be as informed as possible before starting such a long journey.

 

I'm 16, go by he/him, have some intense social anxiety so joining a forum like this is already a pretty big step for me. I'll probably mostly just lurk on this forum and use it for the guides/info. I still wanted to introduce myself though just to be polite.

[Aurora]

Hi Sam, it's nice to meet you! I hope you have a great time here (:

 

As for how big of a committent this is, it can be pretty life changing depending on how far you go with this and how active your tulpa wishes to be. Some tulpas are content with staying in the background and being pretty inactive, I think in those cases the change to your life might not be as big but they'd still require some maintenance and attention. But in some cases, like mine, if your tulpa is very active and determined to live their own life then the change can be very significant. Your tulpa might request to have 10 hours a week or more just to do their own things, like maintaining their own friendships with others online or hobbies. Your tulpa would make their own mistakes and learn their own lessons and develop as a person through life experiences like you do.

[SeekingMyPlanet]

7 hours ago, voidbugss said:

I'd really appreciate any personal advice/insight on Tulpas and how the whole dynamic of having a person in your head works, I've seen a lot of people say Tulpas are a lifelong commitment and I want to be as informed as possible before starting such a long journey.

 

For my part, I'm really glad I created my tulpa. She's turned into a wonderful friend. But you're right it's turned out to be a lifelong commitment. Not that she wouldn't be willing to go dormant if we decided it was no longer right for her to be around, but I like her so much that it would be a huge loss if I didn't have her.

 

We're happy to answer any specific questions you have.

 

Enjoy your time here.

[Aurora]

On 1/25/2024 at 6:26 PM, Kitsune said:

Hey, I’m “Dimitri.” That ain’t my real name since it’s too private, but you can call me that, or simply by my username.

I started out as an imaginary animal friend for my host, and perma-switched with her when she was 7. There was a lot of violence at the time, and I was happy to use her fists to punch bad guys, and more. I’m capable of ignoring pain and other feelings, so that probably gave me an advantage or something. She went dormant after switching, so I didn’t get to talk to her anymore.

After a few years the violence stopped, and I didn’t really know what to do anymore. Other kids at school avoided me as they were afraid of the violent rumors about me. I thought I didn’t mind being alone, but admittedly I didn’t really have much to live for at the time, which led to some annoying thoughts. I couldn’t answer questions like “How are you?” anymore, since everything felt so numb.

Rather than dealing with those thoughts, I got the idea to defer them. I started by thinking of simple questions I already knew the answer to, then thinking of the answer to follow it. After a few months, the answer began to follow automatically. By the time I was 12, I could ask questions I didn’t know the answer to, and a reply would pop up after a slight delay. It was pretty useful, and if I didn’t like the answer, I just ignored it.

But as I ignored it, it started nitpicking and giving unsolicited commentary. Yelling at it in my head shut up for a bit, and I thought that was the end of it. But then I began missing days, weeks, months, years. It was disorienting, but then I realized it had started taking executive control to put its own advice into action. Admittedly, she’s not just a thing anymore; she has a name, but that’s private so I’ll refer to her as “Sylvia” instead.

While I was away, Sylvia married a guy, and got everyone to use a nickname she likes. She also intuitively figured out how to do imposition (I think that’s impressive), and taught her husband how to do it too, so they could have shared mental experiences. Those years of practice must’ve rubbed off on me too, as I can do it too now, with ease; it’s pretty darn fun, and amazing to be able to see and feel so many things that aren’t even physically possible. I didn’t front often, so I kinda just avoided her husband when I did, so I didn’t have to tell him what a mess her past is.

But then, the host began fronting and talking to me again. She told everyone (including Sylvia’s husband, whom she likes too) that she wants to live again because of Sylvia’s actions. I guess we’ve gone full circle, haha. It was a mess tho; at first he insisted we’re just different sides of the same person, and that he doesn’t want to know our names. The host then started crying and tried to run away, but he stopped her and said: “You’re clearly not Sylvia. I’m sorry, I was just surprised. Please tell me more about yourself.” He’s been very understanding since, and the host considers him her husband too. Maybe I should too; it just feels a little odd since I’m not really the romantic type, and we’re not that compatible.

We started arguing over who should front since we all want to, but our husband intervened and suggested we should share the body fairly, and divide tasks based on who’s the happiest to do them. He also said he loves all of us, so we’re not allowed to bully anyone into going dormant, or there will be consequences. What touched me the most, is that he said since Sylvia and I have been taking care of this body for so many years and are the reason she wants to live now, that means we’ve earned a right to it too. I understand why she felt overwhelmed by the idea of not having her body to herself just because of a decision she made when she was only a child, but I guess I did work pretty hard, and it felt nice to have that acknowledged. Despite the initial arguing, she quickly realized it’s nice to be able to leave things to others sometimes, and started saying we should work together like a team. Now she even intervenes when Sylvia and I are arguing, and says we should be nice to each other.

I love the host, and so does Sylvia. The tulpamancer who recommended this site to me said that’s a common phenomenon? Anyway, I joined mainly to have a place to talk about my experiences and read others’ to maybe help put things into perspective. Sylvia approaches the topic from more of a “mental health” angle, and the host doesn’t use the internet much, so I doubt either of them will be using this account or joining at all. Feels kinda nice to have something to myself, lol.

Thanks for reading my introduction, I hope to get along.

 

Welcome Dimitri! I just read your post, that's a very interesting story. I knew a couple of tulpas that originated from childhood trauma, although they stopped identifying as tulpas after a while. I'm glad things worked out eventually for all of you.

[ringgggg]

8 hours ago, voidbugss said:

My name's Sam, but I go by Voidbugs online and am currently interested in researching Tulpas and the subculture surrounding them.

Welcome, dude. There are guides on the master list if you want to get a head start into tulpamancy, but other than that, I hope you stick around.

[wrenascence]

hiya, its wren. i'm extremely new to the idea of tulpas, but it's fairly easy for me to understand. i guess i'm not much of a skeptic. because even if the idea is fraudulent or not what it's painted out to be, i know i'll still get something out of it. kif not a friend, i'll have a developed character that'll be in my mind, making it easy to write or draw with. 

 

i'm trying to figure out how to make my profile picture a gif.

Edited March 26, 2024 by wrenascence

[TurboSimmie]

Welcome Wren! @wrenascence 😁

[Fox888]

Hello! My name is Fox, I've been very interested in the idea of tulpas since 8th grade, but waited till I was older. I'm now in my first year of college, and felt called back to it. I've always had the idea of a tulpa in the back of my mind, and I hope I can make her real/vocal soon! Thank you for having me here.

[ringgggg]

Welcome, enjoy your time here.