Should I be in a meditative state when I work on my wonderland?Or can I just imagine?

[Nats]

I've recently decided to create a tulpa after deep consideration for the past few days. After reading many guides and even making a post on these forums regarding where I should start, I decided the best thing to do would be to create a wonderland before I start on the tulpa itself. (Please tell me otherwise if this is wrong).

 

I have a bit of an issue though, and I'm sure this would apply to all parts of the creation process and not just the wonderland. My mind's eye isn't too bad, but I have trouble imagining the other senses such as touch, sound, etc. I could very easily make a mental design of my wonderland if I just thought about it and imagined it during my day, but to include those other senses would be incredibly hard for me to do.

 

That being said, I have tried to get into a meditative state a few times to maybe try and imagine the other senses that way. After about 20 minutes of trying to clear my head, I felt ready to begin imagining the wonderland. I started with one sense at a time, starting with touch and going through the other senses in order of complexity until I got to sight. I swear I could feel the grass conform to my feet, and I could feel the heat of the sun and the breeze on my skin and everything. I've never experienced anything remotely similar to that before. It's like I actually went to another place in my head. I began to walk in this new place for a few moments. Without having planned my wonderland at all, I was surprised to feel the texture under my feet change from soft grass to a more rough dirt path. I followed the path and got to some wooden steps, but for some reason, after taking the first step, I couldn't imagine any further than that. It was kind of like walking into an invisible wall at that point. I ended up ending the session at that point in hopes that I could replicate it later on and maybe get further. I tried a few times after and I was never able to even get close to the state I was in previously.

 

Long wall of text, I know, I apologize. Anyway, the main question I have is, can you simply lightly imagine your wonderland in your mind's eye? Or was my meditative state I described the actual right way that I should be pursuing? If the answer is the latter, then do you guys have any advice to help me maybe replicate what I experienced? I can't seem to be able to. :/

[waffles]

Yes, you can 'lightly imagine' your wonderland. Most people do. Your meditative state sounds beneficial though, and replicating it would probably be a good thing too. I'm not hugely experienced in that kind of meditation but I suppose my advice to you would be to just relax and let whatever happens happen, rather than pursuing some experience you had last time. Maybe someone else can give some better advice there.

[Strangelove]

I imagine up my wonderland. I find when i meditate i end up drifting away into nothingness.

[Nats]

I see, thanks guys! Any input from others would be welcome as well :) Being new to this, I have A LOT of uncertainty in just about every step I try to take >.

[waffles]

You don't need to be uncertain. There's no one right way to make a tulpa, and not many wrong ways either. You should do what seems good to you, because 99 times out of 100 that will be the right answer.