The black shoe diaries. (Amber and Toby)

[sushi]

Oh, that's really cool. I hope your meeting goes well.

[ThatFellowWithTheScarf]

Good luck~ if all goes well I'd like to hear about it. Such a great closing to a crutial component of a life. Almost like a movie~ *squeaks in happiness* Prince says good luck too.

[Madam_Inferno]

I love reading this thread owo, my face was almost pressed against the screen while reading haha

 

The few times I got to feel my tulpa Zhail is when she hits me, normally when I get... way too hyperactive because It annoys her lol (don't if to call it hit, it's like.. when you flick your finger against someone's forehead? My english isn't that good sorry :<)

 

However, there was this one time I was feeling very depressed over some problems with my mother and worrying over my boyfriend (It's a long distance relationship and It was the first time ever her mother took everything he had away so I couldn't contact him for a month or so, and during that time my mom was really angry with.. everything that was alive and moved), I was curled up in my bed hidding under the sheets while crying my heart out because I could be strong any longer,then suddenly I feel something behind me, as if someone was getting on my bed, I can perfectly remember how I felt that the bed sunk behind me, then someone wrapped it's arms around me tightly.

 

My heart stopped for a second as soon as it happened, but then I relaxed in her arms when she whispered "Hey... It's all going to be alright Little one... You're not alone.

I could never, leave you alone."

That only made me cry more lol, but it helped me a lot, especially because she's not the kind of person that does things like this.

[Guest amber5885]

Things went great! We went to mammoth cave and hung out 200 feet below the earth lol

 

The only thing that bothered me was that on the ride back neither of us spoke much. I don't think either of us really knew what to say.

 

You would think that 19 years would naturally come with questions and discussion but that didn't happen and I felt weird about it.

 

He says he's happy that he came and can't wait to do it again. I guess relationships take time and just because he's my dad doesn't mean we're gonna be perfect on the first try. It's 19 years that we missed and I have to face the fact that it's goin to take time to make up for that.

 

Either way he had a blast and so did I. Weet a couple from Brazil, I got to go underneath a frozen waterfall 150 feet under ground and he even bought me a teddy bear lol

 

It's going to take a lot of time but we have plenty and this Was a great start.

[ThatFellowWithTheScarf]

Not really a necessary comment but, aaawwww.

[Nayan]

Wow I just read your whole progress report. You two are really awesome Amber! You helped me when I posted here for the first time, so thanks again for that. Whenever I'm scrolling through a thread, you are there too. You're always very kind, supportive and helpful. I really look forward to reading your updates. When I asked Peter about you, he said "Please don't leave forever!". He is also grateful for when you helped me with him. Stay awesome!

[Guest amber5885]

Thanks! I really apriciate that. I wants to leave for a while but I can't lol uk addicted to the community, I have too many friends here and I just enjoy being here and knowing that I've helped like with you makes me super happy :)

[ThatFellowWithTheScarf]

This community probably has the least idiots if you ask me. It's a good one side from the few sociopaths.

[jackson]

It's a good one side from the few sociopaths.

That's hardly fair, I'm not exactly a sociopath, I even make constructive posts on occasion.

[FurryBlueNaki]

This community probably has the least idiots if you ask me. It's a good one side from the few sociopaths.

 

I hope you don't mean me just cause I posted so much in the beginning.