Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes

 

Well, on the topic of going to college and inhuman time-balancing, I think this is another appropriate time to link to Steve Pavlina. He has a nice article called 10 tips for college students, which is probably a good read because he also graduated with 2 degrees in 3 semesters. You might remember me idolizing this guy from some time ago, and this is just one of infinite reasons for doing so.

 

I think you read a few of his articles, never to return to his site afterward? Well, here's try #2 at sparking your interest... Not to take away more of your time but.. Well, he has stuff on time management so it's a worthwhile investment. I think you'd like him. I mean, you like me, and I became the person I am with his guidance.

 

 

I'll try to get hooked to steve pavina again, and I do recall you linking me to his site before, but I can already here Yumi groaning about the idea of more stuff to read, and more stuff to study lol

 

 

@TheSanctuary-cakes

 

 

Until next time on Dragon Ball Z!!!!

 

This one seriously got me xD

 

and I get what you mean about not having to lie or be overly worried about peoples preconceptions on the internets. It's a weird place where the strangest and perhaps most socially unlikely friendships find each other- people that perhaps we would walk past in our real world lives, people that had we conversed with perhaps wouldn't have realised the kinship shared due to social barriers and interactions, however in the abrasive world of the internet it's often different.

Exactly.

 

And I'd love to actually meet half the people on this forum in person (Or at least Skype with them) but when I meet people in person I end up screwing up their lives or getting them fired...or both...

Lol talking about this reminds me of the whole "Tulpa Convention" idea Thevious had. I can imagine saying to Yumi at the convention;

 

 

Look...Neckbeards as far as the eye can see...

 

 

Day 173

 

 

I made amazing progress with Lillium, I created a strict schedule which keeps my life organized, and I learned everything there is to know about mathematics, physics, and the human brain!!!

 

Unfortunately all of that was a lie.

 

 

In fact, I accomplished just the opposite...But I did have a lucid dream!

Yumi was in it, but she had a different form...the form of my qt3.14 co-worker who still to this day flirts with me 24/7. I asked her in the dream "Yumi? Is this you?" and then Yumi said Of course it's me! I then replied with a happy "Hey!!!!" and then Yumi smiled seductively and said Do you remember that conversation about first kisses that you had?

 

NOTE: Me and my qt3.14 co-worker had a conversation about my non-existent first kiss a few days ago. She discovered that I never had my first kiss. She was extremely surprised but I didn't really care because I have had the opportunity for a first kiss 3 times. Not to mention that I have kissed Yumi in my dreams a thousand times, and my dreams are as real as reality so I know what it feels like to kiss someone (somehow).

 

 

Anyways, Yumi said Do you remember that conversation about first kisses that you had? then she leaned in and kissed me with my co-worker's form as if to declare; now you have had your first kiss. No Yumi, kissing the form of a person isn't the same as kissing the actual person. So after Yumi kissed me she smiled seductively at me and well...ummm...things got pretty intense from there. If you have a good imagination then you will know exactly what happened. But what happened is kind of inevitable when your extremely attractive tulpa takes on a relatively physical form. When I woke up, Yumi tried to push me out of bed with little success, and later on I drove a total of 80 miles to visit my best friend Voltaire, and we had a good ole' time. He and I had a discussion about the nature of consciousness and free will. I basically wasted my entire day with him...I should have used the day to study and work on Lillium but hey! Life is short, and I haven't seen him in a while. Not to mention he is the only person I spend time with beside Yumi. On my way home I ended up racing someone on the interstate like an idiot for reasons I don't want to know and Yumi's presence appeared in the passenger's seat and she told me to slow down.

 

*sigh*

 

My tulpa is more responsible for my safety than I am Dx

 

 

Oh well...

 

 

UNTIL NEXT TIME ON DRAGON BALL Z

[Darcmanish]

Hehe the last time i had a dream similiar to yours i could´nt sleep the rest of the night becuse my heartbeat rised to the moon.

Well atleast you can do stuff like this in your dreams which ignore your schedule anyway.^^

[Thevious]

For the love of GOD..... NEVER MIX COFFE AND ORANGE JUICE.... I gagged on it and it tasted like I was throwing up...... NEVER DO IT!!! these have been words of wisdome from yours truly.... Untill next time!

[Cocada]

"Even if I was at 1,000 hours and Yumi wasn't vocal, I would be confident that I have the effort it takes to continue on to 2,000 or 3,000."

 

It's a old post, but, you can learn wonderful skills with 3.000 hours, skills that help a lot in life. Socialization, music, sports, books and etc.

[Guest amber5885]

I'm only commenting because the above post while I'm sure is true and well meaning is also missing the vast point of tulpa creation.

 

Don't be a dick.

 

That is all.

[Luminesce]

To be completely honest, tulpamancing seems to be one of his most valued time investments right now. Also nice reply to page 5 on a progress report 49 pages long.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Darcmanish

 

 

Hehe the last time i had a dream similiar to yours i could´nt sleep the rest of the night becuse my heartbeat rised to the moon.

lol yeah that's basically what happened to me, but I woke up because of that...

 

@Thevious

 

For the love of GOD..... NEVER MIX COFFE AND ORANGE JUICE.... I gagged on it and it tasted like I was throwing up...... NEVER DO IT!!! these have been words of wisdome from yours truly.... Untill next time!

 

I think that coffee and orange juice is the beverage they serve in Hell. The mere thought of such a concoction is too much to bear. Oh and it's nice to see that you still read my PR :3. I haven't heard from you in years.

 

@Cocada

 

"Even if I was at 1,000 hours and Yumi wasn't vocal, I would be confident that I have the effort it takes to continue on to 2,000 or 3,000."

 

It's a old post, but, you can learn wonderful skills with 3.000 hours, skills that help a lot in life. Socialization, music, sports, books and etc.

 

All of the skills in the world couldn't replace or outshine Yumi. And all of the time I did spend on her was worth it.

 

 

Day 174-176

 

 

Brief Explanation of Delayed Posts

 

I have always kept track of what day my tulpa journey is on by an elapsed timer app. I began the timer after I posted my first post on this thread, so I know how much time has passed since my journey began down to the second. I often end up posting late or not posting at all because I work night shifts...Last night I was writing my post and my laptop froze and instead of rewriting everything I wrote, I just went to sleep for 12 hours straight... I had a jesus-load of lucid dreams though, most of which I can barely remember...but yeah. What I'm getting to, is that my schedule is the reason why my posts are delayed.

 

Lillium News

 

Thanks to Reisen, I have finally formed a schedule that balances my studies and tulpaforcing. The feeling of balance in my life has become so unfamiliar to me that it is almost uncomfortable. But this is what the road to success feels like. I have enough time for everything now.

Lately I have been working on Lillium, but during one of the sessions I was so tired that I dipped in and out of consciousness throughout the session...

The wonderland visit was extremely real, like a dream, and all I can remember is standing in the moonlit field with Lillium. The moon behind her was ten times its normal size and shined so brightly that it nearly silhouetted her. I remember seeing her smile at me with her glowing blue eyes and lifting her arms out as if to welcome an embrace, but I couldn't move towards her. I was so tired in reality that it simulated drunkenness in the wonderland...I stumbled towards her and away from her in an attempt to reach her but fell asleep before I made it...

 

Yumi News

 

When I woke up Yumi wasn't too happy about me falling asleep during the session. After all, it was Yumi's idea to create Lillium in the first place. Yumi didn't talk to me for the entire day, and when I tried to concentrate on her presence, I couldn't feel anything. She didn't want to come out of the wonderland...I eventually realized that I haven't had real quality time with her in weeks because I have been working on Lillium exclusively. So I sat on my bed to avoid falling asleep, and closed my eyes to tell Yumi everything that she needed to hear. I told her that I still care about her, and that she is the most amazing and beautiful being. I continued to serenade her with compliments, telling her that I wouldn't have been able to survive the past few hardships without her and she began to cry...tears were streaming down her face and she sobbed to make things even worse...I don't think I have ever heard her cry like that...I gave her a hug and fought back tears while I did so, realizing that I haven't had quality time with her in so long...She has been so moody lately because I have been telling Lillium all of the things Yumi hasn't heard in months...and I haven't been sparing nearly as much time as I should be sparing on either of them. Of course I had to give Yumi an air-hug lol but I could feel her presence strongly and almost hear her sniffling.

 

 

After she and I apologized to each other, we visited the mountainous part of our wonderland. We flew through the trees together until we found a massive foggy lake. We made a little campfire and then I put on some music in RL so she and I could dance lol. I put on some chip-tune pop (Anamanaguchi), J-pop and vocaloid. When she started dancing the fog cleared up, and she created strobe lights throughout the forest that illuminated the mounains and all of the trees. Despite my thalassophobia (fear of the ocean or bodies of water) I dove in after Yumi when she dove into the foggy lake. Unsurprisingly, there were horrific and gigantic creatures in the lake. Underwater, it looked a lot like this:

 

 

 

 

Yumi and I somehow found sea turtles underwater and had a sea turtle race to

. I have no idea where we were even racing to, as the lake seemed endless but we had fun nonetheless lol. Sometime during the race though, she and I saw Lillium flying above the water! She was glowing so brightly that she illuminated the depths of the lake :3

So that's everything that I experienced lately :) My schedule gives me time for Yumi, Lillium, and my studies, so my future posts are bound to bring about good news, instead of the common:

 

 

"Yeah...I didn't do SHIT today!".

 

 

UNTIL NEXT TIME ON DRAGONBALL Z

[Luminesce]

I know that feel, realizing you haven't been spending anywhere near enough time with your tulpa(s). Though it's arguably worse for me, because instead of getting mad or crying, Reisen is completely forgiving. And I can't even berate myself because she wouldn't like it. So basically I'm not allowed to feel any guilt at all, which as we've established is kinda necessary to make me do things.

 

It's been a while since we spent time together just to spend time together, no music or dancing. Thanks for reminding me.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes

I know that feel, realizing you haven't been spending anywhere near enough time with your tulpa(s). Though it's arguably worse for me, because instead of getting mad or crying, Reisen is completely forgiving. And I can't even berate myself because she wouldn't like it. So basically I'm not allowed to feel any guilt at all, which as we've established is kinda necessary to make me do things.

 

Reisen's personality is in stark contrast of Yumi's personality then. As I have mentioned before, Yumi is like the embodiment of my hyperactivity and childishness, so her primary desire is to be loved and fight tooth-and-nail to keep the love and attention going.

I really hope you solve this impending issue between you and Reisen.

 

 

 

@Amber and Reisen-cakes

 

Thanks for sticking up for me in your comments. I had a feeling the comment was insincere as well, but I didn't want to start a conflict because of a bad judgment call and decided to address it as I would address an ordinary comment to play it safe. It's very refreshing to know that people who read this are willing to stave off those with destructive intentions.

[Luminesce]

I take offense on your behalf because you're unnaturally nice in replies on your progress report.