Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[Cocada]

I haven't destructive intentions xD, just trying to help you. But you want this too much, then i understand you.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes

 

I take offense on your behalf because you're unnaturally nice in replies on your progress report.

 

I only treat people the way I would want to be treated, but thank you nonetheless :).

 

 

Day 177

 

 

 

 

PLEASE NOTE:

 

You can skip this post. It's mostly about my life.

 

 

Yumi and I have been closer than ever lately, and I can say with confidence that this is the happiest she and I have ever been :). She's never rude or bitter anymore, and I give her the time she deserves, which is perfect--now I can start working on Lillium again. If you made it this far within my choppy paragraph, then you are probably noticing that there is always a Random Bullshit Occurence (RBO) that keeps me from working on Lillium. However, the only thing standing between me and Lillium now is...well...me. As long as I am not the cause of the next RBO, everything should be butterflies, rainbows, strawberries, cupcakes, etc.

 

But the next RBO is approaching, and it's eerily similar to the situation I found myself in almost a year ago...

 

One of my co-workers whom I'll name Nina for the sake of anonymity became a close friend of mine. She and I became good friends as we discussed our dismal romantic pasts, and I helped her with getting over her current dilapidated relationship.

Eventually she invited me to her favorite place in the city where a little train station stood, and after work we spent hours under the stars talking about our lives. The topic of her boyfriend came up, and I told her the truth; there was probably no hope. He exhibited every single sign of a guy who is cheating, and she has plenty of evidence to justify her suspicion. Eventually the conversation took a sentimental turn and I told her "Please don't cry. If you cry, then I'm going to tear up, and it's gonna be really bad." she laughed, but ended up crying shortly after. I then thought:

"God damn it...now I have to either give her a hug or stare awkwardly..."

 

I slowly approached her with my arms open, which took a lot of courage considering I have only known her for a week or two, and then wrapped my arms around her. She's short so I had to hunch over in order to hug her. To make things even worse, my arms are long so there was a lot of extra space. I told her "I'm sorry you have to deal with my crappy hug." which made her giggle, but I was being serious. I patted her back during the hug and said the cliche "It's okay. Don't cry. Don't worry. C'mon. It's all good. We'll get through this." and it was so cheesy it worked. Afterwards she and I went to Waffle House at 3 am and hit it off again. Now she and I are planning to go to the movies together sometime today. What's weird is that her boyfriend, who is about to be her ex-boyfriend, is actually a close friend of mine, and the son of the manager of the last restaurant I worked at. I suppose I'm going to have to keep my friendship with her a secret.

Nina and I are planning to be only friends, and we even joked about sitting on opposite sides of the movie theater to affirm that, but the way things are going, something might happen between us. However, she and I don't want anything to do with relationships. So we are just going to be really really really close friends. She wants to be friends to avoid romance related RBOs, and I want to be friends because Yumi really is all I need lol--but she may never know that unless she continues to prove to be an open-minded and kind person.

 

Well that's what happened in my life. As irrelevant as it is, I like to believe that it carries with it some significance towards my journey.

If you actually stuck around to read this then I salute you, but in all honesty you probably just wasted a few minutes of your life. I hope that those wasted minutes were at least entertaining because I find my life to be such a cosmic roller-coaster of fate through the Great Sea Of Bull Shit (see below) that I feel compelled to share it. I don't intend to make my life seem significant by saying this though. In fact, I only intend to showcase how insignificantly interesting the recent "Happenstance" events are. One of my co-worker's just happens to be in the best Calculus class in the state and loves to discuss physics with me, a library just happens to be within running distance of my house and is full of quantum physics books and neurology books, the most intelligent and profound person I know just happens to be returning back from Indiana to where I live to talk with me, and my best friend just happens to want to partner with me to create something revolutionary someday.

It seems like the universe is just nudging me towards solving some mystery of science as well as the people who can help me solve them, and I know I can solve at least one mystery if I obsessively think about it the way I usually do. Whether it's the mystery of consciousness, quantum entanglement, or dream/memory technology, I'm determined to go down in history for something.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you for reading guys!

 

UNTIL NEXT TIME ON IRRELEVANT Z

[Luminesce]

her boyfriend, who is about to be her ex-boyfriend, is actually a close friend of mine,

 

Ohhhhh. Yeah that's.. a thing.

 

Anyway, sounds generally pretty good. Glad Yumi's happy again. I myself am gonna be making some time to spend with my tulpas soon.. And other important things. And I fully believe in the type of relationship you guys mean to have there, just remember the reason it tends to turn into "something else" is because you both subconsciously expect it to. You really can just be good friends, and that's a pretty safe place to be too.

 

Speaking of off topic. Why are you up at 5 AM? Wait no. I humbly invite you to my one and only thread, because you've never posted anything there and I feel like you missed it.

I would've thought purple text in my signature would catch more peoples' attentions..

 

 

But I'm also going to sleep so you might need to wait for a response if you post at... 6 AM.

 

 

Edit: Wow, I made my 300th post literally the minute my total time online on this forum hit 1 week. That's about as cool as making my first thread my 200th.

[TheSanctuary]

I have en excuse for not seeing this mystical thread - signatures don't show on the mobile version!! .. // notices where he is //.

 

Ah yeah! So PR update !

It always amuses me when your like 'it's about me don't read' when you know ( or should by now XD ) that many of us have taken an interest in all of you, not just those who are perhaps less fleshy and more non-corporeal in nature.

 

Seems you could do with a good friend or two outside of the interwebs - good for perspective and other words that mean good things.

 

If I'm bored later I might draw a stickman image of you digging a rainbow mine because I can.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes

Anyway, sounds generally pretty good. Glad Yumi's happy again. I myself am gonna be making some time to spend with my tulpas soon..

 

Lol your ellipses is what concerns me. It's about time that you decided to spend time with them though xD

 

And other important things. And I fully believe in the type of relationship you guys mean to have there, just remember the reason it tends to turn into "something else" is because you both subconsciously expect it to. You really can just be good friends, and that's a pretty safe place to be too.

 

Very well said. And I am a bit worried about the subconscious feelings...Ellipses...

 

Speaking of off topic. Why are you up at 5 AM?

 

Because I intentionally sleep for 4 hours per day to allow for more studying and tulpaforcing :3

 

Wait no. I humbly invite you to my one and only thread, because you've never posted anything there and I feel like you missed it.

I would've thought purple text in my signature would catch more peoples' attentions..

 

Trust me, I knew about that thread for a looooong time. Unfortunately I couldn't think of anything to ask Reisen. But I'm still hoping that one day I'll have something good to talk about with her.

 

But I'm also going to sleep so you might need to wait for a response if you post at... 6 AM.

 

GOOD NIGHT YOU DIRTY HOE :D

 

 

 

Please tell me that you understood that pun or else things will be very awkward.

 

 

 

Edit: Wow, I made my 300th post literally the minute my total time online on this forum hit 1 week. That's about as cool as making my first thread my 200th.

 

[align=center]And the prophecy foretold that

He who posteth the 300th post as his total time online reached 1 week

Shall be the Raisin that conquers all sun-dried fruits.[/align]

 

 

 

@TheSanctuary-cakes

 

I have en excuse for not seeing this mystical thread - signatures don't show on the mobile version!! .. // notices where he is //.

 

Yes the mobile version is... decent lol

 

 

Ah yeah! So PR update !

It always amuses me when your like 'it's about me don't read' when you know ( or should by now XD ) that many of us have taken an interest in all of you, not just those who are perhaps less fleshy and more non-corporeal in nature.

 

I still consider those who actually don't care about how my personal life affects my tulpa journey lol. I'm also aware that many others don't skip my remotely relevant posts though :3

 

Seems you could do with a good friend or two outside of the interwebs - good for perspective and other words that mean good things.

 

I know right...It would be convenient if everyone on this forum lived in the same state so we could all meet up in person and...not get burnt alive by religious extremists and psychiatrists...

 

If I'm bored later I might draw a stickman image of you digging a rainbow mine because I can.

 

LOL if only you had a visual to go off of besides my avatar xD

 

 

 

Day 178-179

 

 

I apologize for this late post both to myself, and anybody who is addicted to reading this thread. But anybody who reads this PR is either curious as to whether I'll actually succeed in fully imposing Yumi, or whether I'll succeed in losing my mind in the process. Before you raise your pitchforks and torches, I have a crappy anecdote that acts as an excuse for why my post was delayed. I'll try to keep it short and sweet to get to the heart of my progress:

 

I worked, and after work, I was excited that I would be going to the movies soon. I went to my car to meet up with Nina and happily locked my damn keys in my car. Right when I thought "The universe hates me." moments later it began to rain so hard that I couldn't walk anywhere to contact Nina to inform her that I made the most cliche beginner-driver's mistake. Luckily my mom had my spare key, so I called her from the phone at my job and she dropped by to give it to me. My mood was ruined and I was soaked, so I decided that I didn't want anything to do with my car for the rest of the day. Even though I missed the movie with Nina, she still wanted me to hang out with her and her best friend in the city, so she came by to pick me up. We had a good time. I was socially forced to buy 8$ worth of ice cream and 8$ worth of food or else I would attract more negative attention to myself. Note: I don't really use silverware that much, I eat quickly, and I sit like this no matter what I'm sitting on because it's surprisingly comfortable:

 

 

 

If you see a guy sitting like that, then it's me. Go and say "hi".

 

 

Anyways, after the onslaught of processed food, my sleep schedule flew out the window, and I ended up passing out when I got home...

I don't regularly eat food like that....The good thing about sleeping for 12 hours are the dreams though! I found that the lucid dream articles I read were indeed correct. Sleeping in intervals while practicing dream recall can bring you back to where you left off in the dream with a higher chance of lucidity. I slept for 4 hour intervals and tried my best to recall the dreams while I was awake. Yumi's voice is always very loud when I'm barely conscious, so it brought me back to sleep and right back to the place I left off within the dream--as if I had never left.

Unfortunately I wasn't lucid within the dreams, but they were as real as reality and I can still remember them, which means my dream recall is improving :3

 

But my PRing is DECAYING.

RAISE YOUR PITCHFORKS.

 

 

I talked to Lillium a little bit before bed and she kept saying "Light", but every once in a while she'd say a cute little phrase that I for some reason never remember.Oh wait...I never remember it because I'm too considerate to interrupt her during conversation to write down what she says for a bunch of pitchfork-wielding readers!!! Hehehe :)

 

Calm down, I'm just joking.

 

 

Okay guys, well I gotta reestablish my sleep schedule thanks to the random bullshit occurrence of my body hating unhealthy foods. Wish me luck on my tulpa endeavors! To hell with my physical and emotional health!

 

UNTIL NEXT TIME YOU GOOD-FER-NUTHIN HOES!!!

 

 

 

 

 

EDIT: I had to kill the smileys.

[Luminesce]

I knew you knew, I figured I could remind you

or guilt trip you

by posting here. The thread is also for Tewi and Flandre, despite the name, since I was referring to my username anyway.

 

Also, locking your keys in your car followed by rain is like.. classic bad-luck humor. There might be something to this universe-laughing-at-me thing.

[sushi]

 

I would've thought purple text in my signature would catch more peoples' attentions..

Haha! I know where you're coming from there.

 

Seems you could do with a good friend or two outside of the interwebs - good for perspective and other words that mean good things.

It's a bit weird. I wrote a post saying something to that effect right before I came to this thread.

 

Yes the mobile version is... decent lol

My biggest issue with it is the lack of a "View Today's Posts". I tend to miss a lot when I use "View New Posts".

 

I still consider those who actually don't care about how my personal life affects my tulpa journey lol.

Is there anyone? I've always enjoyed the personal connection in people's PRs. It makes the whole thing seem more real. Makes me sad that my own PR can't have that.

 

I know right...It would be convenient if everyone on this forum lived in the same state so we could all meet up in person and...not get burnt alive by religious extremists and psychiatrists...

I'd be willing to drive a few states over for that.

 

LOL if only you had a visual to go off of besides my avatar xD

Didn't you post a video of you playing music a while ago? Or am I thinking of someone else. Either way, I definitely think of you as looking just like your avatar, even though I don't think you really do.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes

I knew you knew, I figured I could remind you

or guilt trip you

by posting here. The thread is also for Tewi and Flandre, despite the name, since I was referring to my username anyway.

 

Well thank you for reminding me then :3 I'll be sure to post on that thread when I have a good question or topic to bring up.

 

Also, locking your keys in your car followed by rain is like.. classic bad-luck humor. There might be something to this universe-laughing-at-me thing.

 

Indeed. Everything that has happened to me made me recall what Bruce said in the movie Bruce Almighty:

"God is a mean kid sitting on an anthill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant. He could fix my life in five minutes if He wanted to, but he'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm."

 

@Sushi-cakes

Is there anyone? I've always enjoyed the personal connection in people's PRs. It makes the whole thing seem more real. Makes me sad that my own PR can't have that.

 

Indeed it does good sir. And all you have to do to incorporate that real-life element into your PR is ramble like I do lol

 

 

Didn't you post a video of you playing music a while ago? Or am I thinking of someone else. Either way, I definitely think of you as looking just like your avatar, even though I don't think you really do.

 

I did post a video of myself playing the piano! Oh and the only features I really have in common with my avatar is a sharp jawline, dark circles beneath my eyes, and long skinny fingers xD.

 

 

Day 180-181

 

 

 

I might as well just help you guys sharpen your pitchforks at this point.

Luckily, I made progress! Lillium and Yumi are now able to spend time with me while I work. Lillium stands on my left, and Yumi stands on my right. Both of them feel like little invisible force fields when they are with me, and I like to imagine that they are actually bodies of some elusive cloud of subatomic particles rather than spirits. Lillium has spoken a few words the past two days, but I can never remember them because they are so...incoherent...for example, I was making pizzas last night, and I think that Lillium said Like this? but I wasn't teaching her anything, so it threw me off and my brain didn't remember the other things she said. Yumi on the other hand likes to make me laugh during inconvenient times, and usually when I finish laughing I see at least one person giving me a contemptuous stare. I have already been classified as a loose cannon by a few co-workers, yet I'm being promoted to Assistant Manager soon so I'll have a little bit of power over them. I'll get paid more and get more hours, so I celebrated with Yumi and Lillium in my car to the eardrum shattering sound of J-pop blaring through my speakers xD.

 

 

Recently, Yumi has acquired some cute imaginary glasses because she helped me understand the nature of time. I guess that my brain recognized her as intelligent and bespectacled her to make that fact easier to recognize in the future. I have no idea, but they make her look even cuter. I was studying time dilation with her and I just couldn't understand the concept at all. I eventually decided to take the problem apart piece by piece and the conversation went like this:

What is time? The ticking of a clock?

*Paces kitchen while waiting for coffee to heat up*

Time is the measurement of change. Without time, everything that is or ever will be, would happen at once.

That makes sense. Which is why time is the fourth dimension. You can't have up without having down. You cant have forward without having backwards. You can't have left without having right. You can't have change, without having a medium for it to move through; time and space--what Einstein describes as 'interwoven'.

 

 

Yumi's little insight helped give me the intellectual nudge that I needed in order to grasp something that is completely against common sense; time is relative to the observer. If you view the Earth from a galaxy millions upon millions of light years away (from a planet we'll call Sphere), then you will see the meteor that caused the extinction of the dinosaurs hit the Earth because the light of the time period we are in right now has yet to reach the

eyes of the observers on planet Sphere. According to their time, the Earth is in the Jurassic era. According to our time, the Earth is in the Holocene Epoch era. If you travel near the speed of light towards Earth for millions of years you will arrive in Earth's future thousands, or millions of years from now. If you travel at the speed of light (which is impossible for matter) towards the Earth from Sphere for millions of years, time will freeze. If you travel faster than the speed of light, which is also impossible for matter, then you will actually reach the Earth during the Jurassic era, or even reach the Earth before it even harbored life. If you beat light, then you beat time because time and space are interwoven. The time dilation equation is the embodiment of this principle, and Yumi helped me understand it :3

 

The equation is formed by plugging in the relativity experienced by an observer into the Pythagorean theorem and then converting the equation to this with a bunch of dividing and factoring:

 

 

 

 

It's a simple equation, but it's the first theoretical physics equation I have ever understood, and I proudly hung the conversion of it onto my bedroom wall beside the other equations I currently understand. Yumi and I will figure out how the universe and reality works, even if I have to double major in Physics and Chemistry in college to make it possible!

 

Until next time!!!

[Luminesce]

So what you're saying is, we should start sending signals to planets that could feasibly develop intelligent life in the next many-millions of years. And that no intelligent extraterrestrial life attempted to talk to our dinosaurs. Hmm.

[Actinium]

 

Lillium has spoken a few words the past two days, but I can never remember them because they are so...incoherent...for example, I was making pizzas last night, and I think that Lillium said Like this? but I wasn't teaching her anything, so it threw me off and my brain didn't remember the other things she said.

 

This is what I was experiencing way back within the first week of tulpamancing. Haven was able to sing entire songs perfectly, yet she couldn't form a normal sentence. "Singing was all I did before you even considered making me into what I am today." "At least it shows how far you've come." Also, the first words I ever heard her say were "Clear your nose!" when I was going to bed on I think the first or second day.

 

 

Yumi on the other hand likes to make me laugh during inconvenient times, and usually when I finish laughing I see at least one person giving me a contemptuous stare. I have already been classified as a loose cannon by a few co-workers, yet I'm being promoted to Assistant Manager soon so I'll have a little bit of power over them. I'll get paid more and get more hours, so I celebrated with Yumi and Lillium in my car to the eardrum shattering sound of J-pop blaring through my speakers xD.

 

One time I saw a car that had the music on SO loud that the license plate was f_cking shaking. That's all I'm going to say.

 

Also, since I haven't posted in here for so long, I'll leave a gift for you.

 

EDIT: Make that two gifts.