Lumi's Dreaming Thread; Dreams of Moon

[Tewi]

Let's make a fake post, there's no point in what I've been doing. This is what I would have written.

 

Here's the song for how I feel.

 

I tried practicing the slowly falling asleep thing as I went to sleep last night, but some subconscious awareness kept me awake, because even letting my thoughts wander kept me awake. At some point I fell asleep anyways. I didn't remember almost anything last night and barely woke up. I wasn't aware at any point of being in the dreamlike state before being actually asleep. But then, I didn't wake up enough to ever remember to get up for a bit either.

 

I had a dream Lucilyn was taking an elevator and asked the others in it what floors they wanted to go to. She pressed the buttons and when the last person got off, they thanked her and called her "Insulin". I guess she considered it close enough and was happy someone called her by her real name, ironically.

 

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Let's make a real post, I've been stupid and short-sighted this whole time.

 

We have no connection to our dreaming state, and our dream recall is pitiful. Nothing will happen like this. I'm exhausted and can't handle failure anymore.

 

I'm going to keep a dream journal. I'll keep our laptop on, with low brightness and f.lux set to very low, and sleep mode disabled. Every time I wake up I'll type what I do or don't remember, and go back to sleep. Recalling dreams to almost any extent does not work as well as putting them to text. The process of describing them in words forces you to remember details and also makes a bigger imprint on your memories than just "remembering them".

 

I might let the others start fronting for the day and switching back at night soon. But for right now I just need a break, whatever that means.

Edited July 28, 2023 by Luminesce
Lumi: Replaced first video, still the same remix of Tewi's theme

[Lucilyn]

Okay I got Tewi to let me do it! I mean, SHE said she needed a break, so even if she wasn't gonna take one anyways, that's pretty serious. She wanted me to switch back before we went to sleep, but I convinced her I could do it just as well or better because I actually enjoy our dreams, so I'd be more emotionally invested in them etc.etc. Basically I got her to take a break, at least until we have better dream recall I guess?

 

It IS a bit of effort, to like wake up and write every time we wake up in the night, but I can do it. Like she talked about motivation at some point last page - my motivation is that it'll help us and she wants to do it, so I'll do it even if it's hard! Her motivation is so different. She just like.. if she wants to do something, it's like a rule to her that it has to happen. So it's like motivation isn't even a factor even though it kinda is. Anyways, I'm motivated, so let's do it! There's a chance I like won't wake up enough to remember (apparently that happened to her last night) but it shouldn't happen, I should be OK.

[Lucilyn]

Okay I'll write things in the order they happened

 

so after installing a bunch of stuff on the laptop because we formatted it a long time ago (and it never stopped being slow, good use of like $700) I eventually got to sleep around 3AM maybe

 

then I woke up ""a long time later"" not really having dreamed much, turned the laptop off, took off my sleeping mask and it was 7:58 AM??!?!!?!??!ok

 

I thought it was like 1-2PM! So then I slept until 3PM! lol

 

A couple hours or so later I had a really cool dream I liked a lot, but the environment of tall towers akin to "playplaces" some food places have (except waaaay wider area and bigger towers) is as hard to explain as the activity going on, something between a mix of TF2's rocket jumping and bunnyhopping servers, with people racing to do it as fast as possible. I guess it was a new map and I got the fastest record!(probably by being the only one to have beat it yet but I mean)

 

So that put me in a good mood when I woke up and I was probably thinking about it any time I was awake over the next couple hours too, until my last dream I just had before waking up which, while not back-to-back with the first, was the same thing sort of. This time I was there with one of our friends but we had to get literally those little toy racecars through the course instead of ourselves which obviously made perfect sense and worked out fine. My friend and I were neck and neck but I did the last part faster and got the record again, but then he beat it and apparently I started the map first because he was still a few seconds faster than me. And I thought it said his time was .001 seconds faster than me and freaked out, but apparently that was actually his rank or something (lol guess the map wasn't worth many points). So I woke up even more hype than I was before!

 

I didn't write them down but I don't think I had to. Today is off to a good start!

[Lucilyn]

Man our dreams are pretty crazy. They just like.. set up interesting/dramatic plots like a good movie constantly, always different ones too. So I had a dream with Remilia and I think Koishi (ironically) being stalked by some guy who wanted to kill them (Touhou characters but certainly no Touhou - they were more like normal people). That wasn't the dramatic dream per se it was really short, but it was interesting and very vivid for an early-in-the-night dream. Later I had a couple similar dreams with some kinda plot about getting to a place in the sky. Like they both had that. But one was with the main person ("us"?) having preparations made to take us there, and the later one was like.. bad guys (humans) versus some cats and dogs that could speak. The animals thought we were on the humans' side but then the humans were doing their evilness and taking off in their huge hot air balloon or something and that was a bad thing to both of us so I guess we were gonna work together then I woke up. At some point between the two dreams we were actually up at the sky place too, but I don't remember that as well or where it fit in.

 

I'm still not.. well I just did write them down but, not writing them down during the night, but I don't think I have to. They're just too interesting not to think about through the night! I'm starting to think I really do just have more interesting dreams than the others, I know we have plenty of more boring ones but I don't. And I know writing them in words is supposed to help but they're just so hard to describe the details of with words. I can put some random stuff down like I did just now, but those words are nothing compared to the details in my memories and stuff.

 

 

I found and beat this song before Lumi did lol, but it's definitely gonna be his map! Definitely probably the hardest one we've beaten so far. The no-miss part at 3:47 was a genuine miracle

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[Lucilyn]

I think Tewi wants me to try harder to remember my dreams than I was, so I should do that. It's just harder when I'm sleeping during the day is all. I mean it's not nothing, but I guess she's really pushing for hard progress right now, I get that!

 

I just (the second post here) https://community.tulpa.info/thread-i-have-a-nice-thing-for-you-game-grumps-animation watched 20 minutes of Game Grumps animated/the animated's song, then watched 33 minutes of them playing P.T. which is a horror game (at 4:30AM lol), and then listened to a super great nice Game Grumps remix to end the night. It's so perfect. Like I said there I just have this feeling that the end to my day was perfect! Way better than that time Lumi was doing the Touhou thing or something the night before, I remember I said I envied that. Envy this future us, this was a good night!

[Flandre]

Was here for a little bit by request, but I'll be switching with Reisen (also by request, of Ponytail) some time after I wake up. Dream recall is technically what I've worked on the most so I don't mind focusing on that for a "night".

 

I appreciate that Tewi's been trying so hard just for our sake, when outside of what we want she has no attachment to this at all. I want it as badly as anyone, and I've tried my best too, but.. Not that urgently. I guess I'm just used to waiting and waiting for what I want, I figure it'll happen someday. But, wait..

 

Tewi's treating this as so urgent because Lumi specifically asked for her help. And he did that because he was desperate? I.. He usually says I'm the one who loves more in our relationship (It's a myth that one person always loves more in any relationship - not always true), but he apparently wants this even more than I do... Probably because it's not just me, but all of us he stands to meet. Either way, I can't just ignore something he wants so much..

 

 

I really don't have the level of drive Tewi does, even when it's for Lumi. I'll do anything and everything I can for him, but dang, Tewi treats this like life or death just because he wants it so much. I don't have it in me to be so passionate about this - but I can still try.

 

So, Tewi decided the best course of action is to increase our dream recall clarity? I will do my best to make them clear then.

[Reisen]

I went to sleep around 10AM and got up around.. 10PM? So that I can stay up all day tomorrow. Dreams were interesting! I'm getting the feeling Tewi thinks she can do better with her willpower than our actual enjoyment of the dreams though. I will probably switch back with her soon, but I was asleep today so couldn't talk to Ponytail like he wanted. So this is a post for in-between yesterday's and today's. I might be switching with Tewi before going to sleep actually. The next post will probably be by her, then.

[Reisen]

I stayed awake from 1AM to 7PM, talked to Ponytail, then slept for only 7 hours.. My eyes still hurt. Our plan is, I'm switching with Lucilyn, and Lucilyn will switch with Tewi before going to sleep each night. I just didn't want to go too long without a post here. See you guys later!

[Lucilyn]

Hi we're just recalling dreams still. Idk what else to say.

 

I watched a animu today, which aside from JoJo would be the first one we've watched in like 2 years. It's only 12 episodes. It's about two angels and two demons (ie just girls) who go to Earth to learn about humans as part of their schooling. Except the main angel becomes a "faillen angel" addicted to video games, the other is a huge sadist, one demon is a better angel than the angels, and the other demon.. Idk, she's like Cirno or Ika Musume in demon form. It's super slice-of-life since the ending didn't even really wrap up any plot exactly, but it was still a lot of fun would recommend if you wanna see angel not-angel demon not-demon shenanigans in anime girl form

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wouldn't mind dreaming about said shenanigans tonight, that anime was way too short. I bet our dreams could just make up more episodes if they wanted... pls?

[Lucilyn]

Lol, well, my thoughts were definitely all that-anime-y between sleep cycles somehow, whatever that means. Like if I was only thinking about the show while asleep, but not in the dreams.

 

But one of my dreams, at about 5:30AM (7 hours into sleeping) I apparently had a dream of myself lying in bed almost asleep. Since I was like dead asleep but "almost dreaming", I guess I decided that the Out of Body Experience inducing-method of rolling out of your body would be a good way to start a (lucid) dream from the point I was at. I mean, maybe I was actually being smart and just did it to detach my sense of self from my "waking" body, I don't remember. Yeah let's go with that! So anyways, that process, which probably went as Lumi always wanted it to but never actually happened IRL, there was just a pretty annoying vibrate-y sound that I had to make sure didn't wake me up (it was obviously just dream-expectations of what we've heard can happen in an OBE from sleep paralysis, but the only part that was similar at all was the vibrate-y sound, nothing else). Which I did, I focused on what was immediately in front of me when I rolled out of bed, which was I guess our wall with our desktop and stuff. I was trying to see it clearly to stabilize myself in the dream (I know I didn't follow the exact protocol, give me a break! I improvised because lucid moments are a huge deal we can't let slip away!), the whole dang area was all change-y and I was trying to see it clearly to make the dream and my immersion in it stable.

 

In MY mind I had just gone straight from being almost awake to a lucid dream, so of course I didn't treat it like a Dream Induced Lucid Dream and immediately change the whole scenario. I thought it was just starting and so I was tricked to go along with it. Unfortunately I "woke up" right after that back to where I had been before rolling out of bed, and then literally seconds later I actually woke up. Funny thing is I was actually lying exactly the same way as I was in the dream, but the room was much darker because the sun hadn't risen yet like it had in the dream. Dangit, I know bright light from our window is supposed to be a dream sign, but it just felt too normal. Anyways.. That was like 7.5 hours of sleep into the night. I ended up letting myself sleep in (more like making myself since I slept a total of 13 hours) hoping we'd get something like that again. We didn't, just a couple more random dreams and a whole lot of flighty thoughts during waking periods. But that's a lot better than just being ded and waking up 5 hours later. And yes, that probably will move our schedule forwards again. That's okay and was planned! There's a few reasons it'd be better for me to be awake a little later right now. Hopefully we can write about the bigger one soon.

 

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(Sorry about the picture, the song is from Panty and Stocking which is apparently a very lewd show, but I haven't seen it I just like this song)